Damsel

Rori

It's snowing again, mornings never make any difference anymore it's always gloomy outside. It's been days since I last seen a ray of sunshine and it's been years since I last felt one on my skin, I remember how the sweeth warmth sweeped through my pores and into my blood, I remember it too well I can never forget one moment of my entire life when I was greatful for the ability to feel, because apart from that one moment all I ever felt is misery and pain and I lothe every second of my existence but isn't that the deal we make with God? A life full of opportunities? Well in my case God is a bastard he didn't hold his end of the bargain because I got a life indeed but opportunity is the last word I learned.

The only opportunity I meet is the 10 seconds of distracted Paplo, which if I'm lucky gets me a snack to get through the day.

I look out the tiny whole in the ceiling of this tattered hut and find the Moon fading in the shadow of the sun, even if Sun never makes its presence known very vibrantly, at least he make sures to let us know he's there, giving us whatever is left of his warmth. I know staying in this shame of a bed would get me nothing except fresh bruises but my body's protests convince me to stay tucked in for 20 more seconds and then I promised my latest bruise on my left shoulder that I would get up. 1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10-11-12-13- I wish I could sleep a little more or just stay in for today, a tear slipped down my cheek and I wiped it away facing the fate I have written for myself. I get up from the creaking bed my body's begging me through the pain to not to do so. I put the rags I cover myself to get through icy winds in the night under the bed so it stays warm when I finally get to come back. I sleep with all my clock on to get some extra warmth even if it's never enough I shiver through nights but I do all I can to survive, I don't even know why I bother anymore if I stop trying hard enough to live through another day I can end this misery in one night but stupid me and this stupid human body with it's instincts of survival.

I get out of my safety chamber and meet with knife wind, I cover my hands and my cheeks and reach the barn, the smell if enough to make me want to reconsider my idea of dying but I hold my breath and start to work. It was almost noon when Pablo came in with his crooked smirk in the place looking like the ugliest chicken there is. His gaze land on me and I look away, afraid if he catches the disgust on my face again, where would I get my next bruise. His steps come closer as he walks till he is standing beside me watching me spread the hay for Snow and Night, from the corner of my eye I see one half eaten apple in is right hand and a bowl of meat in his left for Kron, his Dog, looks more like a wolf to me but he insists on calling him a dog pup so whatever the fool decides. I see him take another bite from the apple and swallow hard, I'm always hungry blame it on never getting enough food. He notices my gulp of air and laughs his ugly laugh, dropping the bowl in front of Kron who doesn't hesitate and jumps into the bowl, there went my chance of getting a piece of meat to get through the day, I close my eyes shutt and take a deep breath to swallow the hunger too if only I had enough strength I would've eaten this chicken of a man here but even I know what my body is capable of and another reason why I don't act on my suicidal thoughts is because I know my body's gonna give a away soon enough, I can feel it myself if I refuse to belive what Pablo's father says.

"Someone seems hungry" says the devil himself, taking another bite, oh God this is torture. I tried to look away and get out of the barn when his hand wraps around my arm and he pulls me back making me face him. " now now snow white won't you make me help you satitate your hunger? I have just the perfect thing to put on your lips" he says with his disgusting voice that also sounds like a chicken. I try to twist out of his hold but he tightens his hold around my arm a little and pain erupts through my shallow bones and a cry leaves my lips. " let me go Pablo, I need to fetch the water" I said between the winces " I can quench your thirst too if you are a good girl" he says and his arm snakes around my waist. " I'm not hungry" I said and tried again to losses myself, he wait a few seconds then let me go,

I see him throwing his half eaten apple at Kron who chugs it down in a bite, my eyes widen in rage but I looked away again making them take the tears back when I heard Pablo walk away saying " I'll tell father that our princess isn't hungry today" and he walks out of the barn.

I look around at all the animals eating their food, the animals deserve food and water even they get more than they need to survive the day, the hatred I have for God returns, the rage giving me a little warmth to get the buckets to fetch the water all the while envying the animal who got to eat that half eaten apple.

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