Him
Till this day I still check up on you after so long I’ve never forgotten about you the moment you left my whole world changed after you I’ve never loved a guy like you in reality I never loved any of them I kept them around just for the validation and for the affection you see after you I don’t like commitment anymore every 7 months I just leave I still love yet hate you
I hate how I can’t get over you it’s been years by now
I still remember the way your hair felt
I still remembered your smile and laugh
I always loved the hugs you would give me
I loved how you made me feel safe and that it was okay to be me around you, you never judged me
But what I hate about you is that I was in love with the person who you use to be
Maybe I’m not even actually in love with you
Maybe it’s just an attachment
Because you had your own darkness and I was lost in the dark You showed up out of no where and made me feel a happiness that I haven’t felt in so long
I yearned for it I use to miss how it felt being loved
But now it’s something I hate the most
Because someone like me doesn’t deserve to be happy
