Chapter 1
Today. Today I feel sad and lonely. I feel trapped by my social anxiety. Why am I so shy? Why can’t I just say hi or smile? I just don’t understand. I want to be normal without all of these thoughts going through my head. I want to have normal friendships and just live. Without feeling judged or hated by everyone around me.l I wish I could just talk like a regular person without constantly shaking. Without feeling like I’m boring or a burden to others. I just want genuine friends. That want to be around me. But I feel like I cant trust due to prior relationships. I just shut off around people and it feels like it will never stop. I don’t want to care anymore. I don’t want social anxiety anymore. I want to live.
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