How it was before

Here I am, walking through the halls not so aware of my surroundings. "So.. are you okay, Valerie?"

"I'm fine." "No.." "tell me tell me tell me!" He repeats.

"Just let me be, I'm fine okay?"

"Please stop asking." I start to walk away walking slightly faster than before, leaving my only best friend - Avery, Behind. I realized I had made my only friend sad. Which i didn't mean to do, I was just stressed, and I only know he's sad because if he wasn't, he would follow. I felt bad after I saw him just stand there, I really shouldn't have taken it out on him.

But I decide to keep walking thinking about how and when I'm going to apologize to him later. "excuse me." A voice says from above. For a split second i thought that Jesus sounded like some boy at my school, Blake. "Sorry."

I step to the side as he walks past me, making everything around me spell different than how it was before he walked past me.

I turn around to look at him as he's about to turn the corner. I decided to just keep walking.

I then decide to apologize to Avery because he's really my only friend. I run to his dorm and knock on the door. When he answers the door I let out a sigh. "I'm sorry for what happened earlier, I shouldn't have treated you so badly." Is all I can make - out. "it's fine." He shuts the door. I sigh once again and decide to just leave him alone, I've made him mad/sad enough already.

It hurt me seeing him hurt, that was the first time he's gotten mad at me in an extremely long time. I'm just afraid of losing him. And to be completely honest i thought I would.

I walk to my dorm frustrated about how bad that made me feel seeing him angry at me.

Once I enter I slam into my bed and scream my eyes out. (I know, you might read this and think I'm over exaggerating, please, I'm not. He's been my only friend since we were in the 2nd year.

We're now in 5th. Think about it, that's a really long time. )

My eyes then started to tear up. me thinking about it made it worse. Knowing that I might possibly lose him and then seeing him move on within the next 2 days makes it even more worse. I just couldn't do it.

I stopped the crying to a knock on my dorm door. I get up and look in the mirror before answering. I wipe my eyes to get rid of the tears and answer it. It's Avery. "I'm sorry. Maybe we should distance for a little bit." "I- I mean um okay." I shut the door. Then go back to crying.

Now HES the one overreacting. He's gonna distance himself from me because I got mad at him once?!!? ONE TIME?!??!

I just wish that the things going on between me and Avery went back to how it was before. But of course, not all wishes come true. And that hurt.

Instead of being a little baby I just get up and walk out of my dorm. Because I don't need him anymore. I'm gonna move on. I look around and see him with Blake. Never mind.

I'm gonna be a little baby.

I turn around and walk back into my dorm, before shutting the door a foot blocks it. It's this girl named Ava. "What's wrong?"

She looked at me. I knew her but I never talked to her, never really considered her a friend. I tell her everything and allow her into my dorm. "What?" "Why would he even do that?"

"I don't know."

"I never liked him anyways." She says, looking around the room curiously. She gets up and looks in the mirror. "What's that?" She quickly turns around and runs to me, pointing to my arm.

"A scar." I reply.

"Don't tell me.." she discontinues. "No." I say back.

"Good." She smiles. Her smile was beautiful, she was so confident about it. Me? Not me. I'd be the exact opposite.

She gets up and grabs the door knob, refusing to leave for a second or two. "I'll be back." She rushes out of the room. "okay.." I reply silently as the door shut.

Later in the hallway:

I'm walking through the halls, alone. 'I need to make new friends.' I think to myself. I turn into my class and see Blake, he's sitting on the empty seat next to mine, right in front of Avery. I decide to think of a plan.

Making Avery jealous would be pleasurable. Seeing the smirk grow on Blake's face would be hilarious.

I walk over to him with my stuff and sit down. "Hey." "Finally talking to me?" He lifts his head.

"I guess so." He smirks. So far so good. But not really. I think to myself and question on why I was doing that again.

I decided to move on, I don't need Avery when I can make new friends. Then a girl walks in. I turn to look at her and she's gorgeous. She sits next to me and smirks. "Hello. What's your name?"

Out of all the years I've been at this school, we've never encountered each other, though us both weren't new. "Valerie." I say hesitating.

Her names pansy, she's friends with one of the most popular boys at this school, which is odd, I've known the popular boy - Draco Malfoy. Since I've been at the school. Never heard of her, Avery and I would make fun of that Draco kid all of the time though.

Shortly after we became friends. Best friends, I forgot all about Avery. Left everything behind, until a week later.. when one day,

I was walking with pansy and our friend Blaise. we walked into Great Hall which was where A lot of people were at the time, reminder this was at least 30 minutes ago, still embarrassed.

We walked in and we're standing around, only because we wanted to sit down some where we just didn't know where at the time. All of the sudden Avery goes to the front of the room with an oddly familiar book In his hand.

It was mine, my book, specifically my diary I had gave him in 3rd year, it had all of my deepest secrets, photos, drawings.. basically a lot of stuff I didn't want people to see.

At least a few days before this had happened, I had told Pansy and Blaise about it, basically making fun of myself. Blaise looked at me in a worried look. And pansy gasped. "Oh my god that's your diary!" She scream-whispers.

"Oh lord." Blaise says speed walking to a seat.

"Well hello ladies and gentlemen." Avery gets everyone's attention saying that.

My friend Cedric looks at me smirking. He considered me as more than a friend. I've never thought of him that way.

Everyone turns their attention to Avery and Avery talks about how the book is mine, and how I called it a diary. Almost Instantly I get so embarrassed, pansy hides me and Blaise gets angry.

Avery then talked about how he was going to be reading it out loud and showing everyone.

"Where's the professors?" Pansy looks around.

Blaise stands up. Before reading it out loud, Avery turns his head to look my direction.

He then started reading it. He talked about my crush on him In 3rd year. I had completely forgotten that I had gave that to him.

He talked about my Self Harm, my suicide note.

He then showed everyone a photo of my mother's grave, causing some gasps, giggles and maybe even some tears from the people around me.

I was so embarrassed. I was disappointed. And I was severely stressed. I couldn't believe I gave it to him, nor could I believe that he would show & tell anyone! Especially half of the kids there!

But Blaise and him ended up fighting, he ended up In the hospital wing. Draco came up to me afterwards.

"I'm sorry." He looks down.

"You? Why would you be sorry."

"Because that's embarrassing." He laughs walking away.

"Oh..." and I thought people could change, I was so stupid, especially thinking that HE could change after bullying me since 1st year.

I felt stupid, and embarrassed. Half of the whole school knew everything I wanted only Avery to know.

By that time, I thought he had moved on! I definitely did, but he didn't? I'd practically forgot all about him at the time. I didn't want to leave my dorm for nearly everything.

I stopped thinking to myself as I looked in the mirror. Someone had knocked on my door.

After I got up from my desk I opened the door.

It was Avery. And right next to him is Blake, I mean of course Avery decided to do that to me! It's Blake he hangs out with.

"Sorry about your mother's death."

"I- what?"

"Remember what Avery said."

"Oh." I was about to tear up. I had just forgotten about it.

"It's fine." I shut the door on them. And I know that I couldn't hide forever. My friends came in later on and we got lunch, which I didn't forget about it then either. It just - Avery was my friend for an extremely long time, the only reason he did that to ME was because it happened to HIM. If I didn't he wouldn't have even thought about doing it.

I went out of my dorm and was walking through the halls. I turned a corner and made my way to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror and left, I only did that because I walked into the wrong room.

I walk into the room right next to the bathroom and I have a seat in the small room with a table and 2 chairs on opposite sides. Michael sits on the other.

Michael's like dumbledoor, except not as old.

They never really got along either. Michael was an incredibly wise person, and knew a lot of information about all of the students . even ones that he never talked to. He has to know that because if anything happens or if there's 2 people or more with the same name, and he has to have a meeting he would know which one it is. at least I think that's why anyways.

I asked Michael about why everything was happening. He said it's because of jealousy, at the time it was like a week after I had stopped being friends with Avery. So the only reason he hadn't forgotten - well, maybe he has but he all of the sudden remembered. - was because he saw me, and I've moved on.

Avery has Never gotten jealous, so obviously I was shocked. Well, Avery has gotten jealous, just not because I would hang out with other people?!

I knew that I was never going to forget about it.

It's only 6:47 pm and I'm still super bored. I walked out of my dorm and made sure to lock the door behind me. I was walking through the halls when someone came up to walk next to me.

"Valerie, nice seeing you." They say to me as I continue to walk. Without me looking over at them, I reply. "Yeah." "What are you mad about?" I tell them everything - well, almost everything. Until I actually look. And it's draco. He chuckles when he sees me look at him. "Stop it." I groan.

"Fine, cya around." He winks.

I made it to pansy's dorm and ended up spending the night. When I was there Blaise came to, seems like he had the same plans. Pansy was planning on taking a trip, seeing as it was almost Christmas break. Blaise asked her if he could go with her, and of course pansy agreed. "You coming?" Pansy turns her head towards me. "I mean, it's up to my parents." I knew they would say yes. Pansy nodded and Blaise went to the bathroom to change.

He came back and got ready for bed. "Already? It's only 8pm." Pansy says. Blaise looks at her confused, "what?". "Why are you getting ready for bed just yet, you don't normally sleep this early." "Oh, I'm just tired today so." "Eh I get it." She replies.

At 9PM I get up and get ready for bed. I comb out my hair for tomorrow, but I put it up in a bun for the night. I brushed my teeth and got changed into some pajamas. Blaise thinks it's funny to prank the teachers and had asked me and pansy if we'd want to do it with him tomorrow, pansy and I said yes. All three of us do everything together. Pansy gets ready for the night as well.

once we're all ready we set up our "beds" and we go to sleep.

I woke up in the middle of the night to this loud crash, I checked to see if anyone else woke up from it and pansy and Blaise heard it as well, at least I know I'm not going crazy. We get up and look around because it did sound like something broke, so we were gonna look for it. Pansy tries to turn on the lights and it doesn't work. "Powers out." She says. "Dammit." Blaise replies. He then puts his hands out in front of him and slowly walks walks forward. Once he reaches the counter he slowly pats everything on the counter. Pansy chuckles and turns on a flashlight and points it towards Blaise while handing him one.

"Yo what? I thought flashlights don't work without power." "Stupid bitch." Pansy says to Blaise. Blaise turns on his flashing and walks around. We all split up and all the sudden "OW." Blaise yells. Me and pansy run over to him. The window was broken, and Blaise had accidentally stepped on the glass. Pansy attempts to pick up Blaise but fails, and she falls and gets a million pieces of glass in her stomach.

"OH SHIT" Blaise yells. Pansy just lays there and whimpers. Blaise quickly takes the glass out of his foot and swears under his breath. He picks up pansy and sets her on the couch. I run to get some rubbing alcohol. I kneel down in front of pansy and look over at Blaise. He nods and pansy shakes her head. "I swear to god Valerie don't!" Right before she could finish her sentence Blaise pulls out one piece of glass and I pour alcohol on the scar. "FUCK." Pansy groans. "Shut up, it's gonna be over soon." Blaise replies. "FUCK YOU BLAISE." Pansy yells.

After we finished pansy lays on the couch as if she had just been murdered. Blaise try's to turn the lights on and it still won't work. Powers still off. Pansy sighs and gets up slightly. Blaise continues to look around to find the power generator.

"We don't have one." Pansy says. "What?" I look at her laying there. "A power generator." "Why don't you have one.?" Blaise says replying to pansy. "Well, we do but it's not in here. Everyone's power must be off." I go to check and she's right. Blaise calls someone to repair the broken window as i leave.

I turn on my flashlight and point it around. "Hey! Where's the power generator." Draco says. "That's what I'm looking for." I say back. I signal for pansy and Blaise to stay there before shutting the door. I walk past draco and he follows me. "Why are you following me?" I question.

"I need to protect you." "No." "I need to protect me." I say. "Nope." I groan and roll my eyes as we keep walking.

We walk all the way down the stairs and into the basement. We split up and all the sudden all of the lights come on. Draco smirks and walks over to me. "See? I did it." He winks.

I roll my eyes and reply. "Sure." We walk back up the stairs and we see Blaise. Blaise looks at Draco in total disgust, and Draco gives him a dirty look.

He waved me goodbye and I ignore him.

Blaise asked me why I was with him, and I told him about how he was the one who fixed the lights, not me.

Afterwards we all go to sleep :).

But waking up was the worst thing ever, I refused to wake up so many times to the point where dumbledoor had to come get me, I refused to get up then too.

But eventually I realized who it was trying to wake me up so I got up.

I went to all of my classes trying my hardest to avoid Avery, and surprisingly everyone at school acted like what happened with Avery DIDNT happen.

A/N: so basically, I kept updating this because I wanted it to look longer, I'm going to continue on my popular story's and stuff like that so yeah!.