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i thought it was a good idea to live my truth… even now i feel like i have to hide… comments get passed around… i get looked at up and down… then you make me cry…you tell me just be ladylike but i’m not of that kind… say i’m just confused… list all the reasons why i’m not valid while the other one just stays quiet cause it’s better to say nothing right?... now i’m way too scared to tell my sister cause i don’t need more criticism… mother and father i don’t think you understand that i was really scared… all i wanted was to feel accepted but what do you care… the day i did it i felt like i had disappointed our family name and it's not like you made me feel any better; you told me just to go to bed… i stayed up for hours sobbing cause i very much regretted what i just did… i felt like i had to be sorry for who i am… 2 weeks later i’m lying in bed hating who i am cause i wish i was born different… i stayed in hoodies, cried at night, and thought of ways to make myself feel better till this dysphoria passed…i thought about bleeding my pain away… i thought about how i could make this any better… cause everyone says it gets better… so do i just wait?
