To Be in Love
I am twenty-one
And I don’t know love
Familial love I have
Love from friends has sustained men
But never have I known true love.
The love in which your heart beats quickly
Almost out of rhythm.
The love where all you want is to be surround by them
The love that excites and scares you at the same time.
The love when you would do anything for them
The love that would ruin you for anyone else
I’ve liked, deeply
I’ve seen and been treated to a few
But I never said anything
Too scared to say how I felt
Too sacred to hear his response
Too scared to know what it would be like
I fear love
Yet I want.
I want to float in the clouds,
Feel a rush like the ocean’s tide,
Cascade down a waterfall,
Fly anywhere
With him. Whoever he may have been.
But for now, this does not seem to be in the cards for me.
So instead I’ll float away
In my dreams,
Where I lie in his arms.
Float through his sky,
Swim in the oceans he does,
Free fall within his love,
Whenever, wherever.
It is all I can dream,
All I can hope for
But what I cannot grasp.
