Chapter-1-Forget and Forgive?
Chapter 1- Forget and Forgive
It was just another boring Monday morning and I was currently peacefully sitting in Literature class waiting for Mrs.Nguyen, our professor, to come into class. I was staring out at the colorful trees that were swaying back and forth to the fall, cool wind. It was rather calm and beautiful to look out at the trees during this fall season. The school would hold a festival for almost every single season there was and fall was one of the many seasons’s the school celebrated. The festival was like the ones that you see in anime or Asian shows where the students gather up at one school and do different activities. Since the festival wasn’t until two more weeks, we were still only planning. I was so lost in thoughts that I didn’t even realize my best friend, Lisa Lee was standing behind me. I had almost jumped out of my seat when she grabbed onto my shoulder and made weird, scary noises near my ear.
Me-Ya Lisa Lee!
She came from behind me and laughed before sitting in the chair in front of me.
Lisa-미안해요(sorry)
Lisa was my only friend here at Yonsei University since almost everyone else avoids me because of my reputation as a nerd.
Lisa- So what was my baby thinking about so deeply that she didn’t even notice me standing behind her hmm?
Me- Nothing much. I was just thinking about the fall festival in two weeks.
Lisa- Oh.
Everything was going pretty well when all of a sudden a figure slammed their hands onto my desk, making both me and Lisa jump to the sudden action. I was honestly having a great time with Lisa but my mood changed the moment I looked up at the person that slammed their hand on my desk.
Lisa-ya Jeon Jungguk
Jungkook-my name is Jungkook not Jungguk
Lisa-Ok, whatever Jungguk
He rolled his eyes before turning his gaze back to me.
Me-Can I help you?
Jungkook-Where’s my homework?
Me-Oh, right
I went through my bags and folders before taking out the math homework he handed to me yesterday during lunch. Without a single thank you, he grabbed the papers from my hand and went to his seat.
Lisa-That jerk could have at least said thank you. I don’t know how you can handle him, Luna. Like I would have beaten his stupid self a long time ago if I were you
Me-I can’t beat him and you know that more than anyone here.
Lisa-Just because you are a nerd, doesn’t mean that you can’t beat him, Luna.
Me-I know but it will only make him bully me more if I hit him.
Lisa-I don’t even know why he picks on you the most out of everyone here. I mean there are so many people on campus that he could mess with but no he has to mess with you.
Right as she finished her statement, Mrs.Nguyen came into the room. Everyone went back to their rightful seats while Lisa just turned around in the seat in front of me.
Mrs.Nguyen-Today we have two new transfer students joining our class today so please don’t make me look bad. Please come on in you two.
Just then, the two new students came into the classroom and right when I saw the male student, my heart broke into two pieces.
Mrs.Nguyen-Please introduce yourselves to everyone
?-Hello everyone, my name is Kris Wu, nice to meet you all
?-Hello guys. I’m Seulgi Wang and I hope we can be friends.
Most of the guys in the class being their natural selves, cheered on for Seulgi and as for the girls, they were fangirling over Kris.
Mrs.Nguyen-Alright, let’s find a seat for you both
Mrs.Nguyen began to look around the room and once she found the rightful seats for Seulgi and Kris, she looked back at them both
Mrs.Nguyen-Alright Seulgi you can have a seat next to Jungkook and Kris, you can have a seat in the one behind Luna. Any questions?
Kris-Actually who’s Luna?
Mrs.Nguyen-Luna, please raise your hand.
Kris looked at me the moment I raised my hand. I didn’t want to maintain eye contact with him any longer so I put my hand down before looking out the window again. Once I heard the chair behind me got pulled out from the table, I turned my attention to the front of the class again.
Mrs.Nguyen-Alright now I have one more thing to speak to you all about. As you all know, the fall festival is in two weeks. I’m very well aware of the hard work you all have been putting into this festival along with your schoolwork. In return for all the hard work you all have been putting in, both me and Mr.Lee planned a little something for you all
Girl-What is it Mrs.Nguyen? I’m sure I’m not the only one who’s eager to know what it is we are getting.
Mrs.Nguyen-We both planned a..final exam for you all!
She laughed while the class groaned and whined upon hearing her answer.
Mrs.Nguyen-Calm down students. I was only messing with you all.
Boy-Mrs.Nguyen, you can’t joke like that. You gave us a heart attack for a second.
Mrs.Nguyen-Now for the real deal. Like I mentioned earlier with you all, me and Mr.Lee are well aware of your hard work so we both planned a…
She took a pause while looking at everyone in the class.
Mrs.Nguyen-We both planned a field trip for you all to Lotte World!
Upon hearing the news, the class went from being nervously quiet to cheering in excitement.
Mrs.Nguyen-Listen up now. This trip will be a one-week trip and we will take our leave on Friday. The bus will leave at 8:30 so be here on time or else you won’t be going with us on the bus. If you are late, you are either not going or you’re just gonna have to get there yourselves. Is that understood?
Student-네 선생님(Yes, teacher)
mrs.Nguyen-Now I have some paperwork to do so you all are free to do whatever you please just don’t get yourselves into trouble. You all know the campus rules so be on your best behaviors understood?
Student-네 선생님
Lisa turned around to face me and I stared at her.
Lisa-What do you want to do? I know you finished everything and so did I.
Me-Maybe we can go to the rooftop?
Lisa-Yeah sure
We both got up and went to the rooftop after grabbing our things and the whole time, I could not stop thinking about why Kris is here.
Kris’s P.O.V
When I made eye contact with the girl named Luna, I felt my heart skip a beat. She looks very similar to Eunha but Eunha didn’t wear glasses so that was the only difference between her and Eunha. Some of the girls from class went over to my table and began talking to me once the professor set us loose. I couldn’t stop thinking about the main reason why I came here the whole time the girls were talking to me and Luna looking like Eunha didn’t help me. I was brought back to reality when I heard the voice I haven’t heard in years. There was no way I could have mistaken that voice with anyone else. I stood up and saw Luna and another girl leaving the class. I grabbed my bag before running out of the class to catch up with the two girls. I have to make sure I’m not dreaming. I followed them to the rooftop and they both were talking with one another.
Me-Eunha
They both turned around and looked at me
?-Um who?
Me-Her
I pointed at Luna while she looked at me. I could see the hurt in her eyes. She changed so much after so long.
?-This is Luna, not Eunha. You must have her confused with someone else but just want to let you know, we don’t have a Eunha here at the school.
Me-She is Eunha.
?-No she’s not. Her name is Kim Luna, not Eunha.
Me-Eunha, I know it’s you. Others might not recognize you but I can.
?-bro stop saying she’s Eunha.
Luna-Lisa, it’s ok
It’s her without a doubt. No one can have the same face and voice let alone have a similar name to each other.
Lisa-No it’s not
Me-I want to talk to you in Private Luna
Lisa-Like heck I’m letting you talk to her in private
Me-I was talking to her not you
Lisa-OK and?
I was about to speak again but I was cut off by “Luna.”
Luna-Lisa it’s ok. I want to hear what he has to say.
Lisa-If anything just call me ok?
Luna nodded and before leaving, Lisa glared at me as I did the same back to her. Once she left, I looked at Luna who was avoiding eye contact with me.
Me-Eunha, I know it’s you.
She just kept her gaze on the ground at her feet.
Me-Can you stop ignoring me?!?!
Eunha-Why?!? Why can’t I ignore you huh?!?
She was now looking at me and I could see her tears threatening to fall down her face. She is the reason why I moved here. I want to make it up to her and apologize for my wrongdoings in the past.
Me-Eunha, I...
Eunha’s P.O.V
I tore my gaze from the ground to Kris who was already staring at me. Him appearing out of nowhere only brought back memories into my head. Tears began to form in my eyes as both good and bad memories came rushing back into my head.
Kris-Eunha, I…
Me-Answer my question Kris, why am I not allowed to ignore you huh? Why am I not allowed to forget and ignore the person who once hurt me in the past?
Kris-Eunha I didn’t mean to.
Me-You didn’t mean to? So you’re telling me you didn’t mean to ignore my text? Did you also didn’t mean to ignore me when I needed you the most? Did you also didn’t mean to call me annoying when I was caring about your own well-being? Did you also didn’t mean to cheat on me with my best friend? Did you also didn’t mean to leave me all by myself when I was sick? Did you also didn’t mean it when you said that it was only a dream when I told you I had a dream about you leaving me? Did you also didn’t mean it when you hit me?!?!?
He stayed quiet as the tears were now rushing down my face.
Me-Why are you quiet now huh? Cat caught your tongue?
Kris-I’m sorry. I know I hurt you
Me-(Dry Laugh)Do you really think your sorry are gonna do something? Kris, you have said multiple sorry’s to me before but what did you do after all your little sorry? Repeat your god darn mistakes! You constantly repeat the same mistakes you did before and you know what you’re doing too! You know you’re hurting me by doing all the little things you’re doing but you keep doing it over and over again!! Am I a game to you?!?! I’m a living breathing human being to Kris and I know how to get hurt! How would you feel if I treated you the same freaking way huh?!?!
Kris-You have the absolute right to be mad at me Eunha. I truly mean it and I am truly sorry this time.
He suddenly got to his knees while looking down at the ground as I watched his every move.
Kris-I should have been there for you when you were sad, sick and I admit to all of my mistakes. I hurt you badly and nothing in the world could ever replace or change that. I know my apology isn’t going to change anything that happened in the past between us and I’m not asking for you to forgive me right away. All I’m asking you is to give me another chance. I really don’t deserve your forgiveness to be honest especially after everything that I’ve done to you Eunha but I really want to prove to you that I’ve changed. After you left, I slowly began to realize that I lost the one person who loves me more than anything. I regret everything I’ve ever done to you and believe me when I say that I would do anything to just go back in time to change the way I treated you.
Me-Do you have any idea how much of a haunting past I’ve had with you, Kris? You put me through so much crap and now here you are on your knees asking for me to give you another chance.
Kris-I know my mistakes Eunha and as I said, I’m not asking for you to forgive me or accept my apology right away. I’m just asking for another chance to prove to you that I’m a better person now and that I want to make up for all the pain I’ve put you through. I should have treated you better than I did in the past. Take your time Eunha, I’m not making you decide right away. Whenever you are ready, please give me your response.
He got up from his knees and I saw him approaching with his arms open ready to hug me but I backed away. He smiled sadly before nodding
Kris-Just know that I’m truly, deeply sorry for everything I’ve done to you and that I will be supportive with whatever decisions you make.
He left me standing there on the rooftop alone. I stood there wondering if he was being sincere or was he just playing one of his old tricks. My thoughts were interrupted by Lisa calling my name
Me-H-Huh
Lisa-I asked if you were ok. You are crying
Me-O-Oh I’m fine.
Lisa-Are you sure? You know you can tell me anything Luna
Me-Yeah, I’m fine. Let’s head back to class
She nodded and the two of us began to head to class. It’s hard to decide whether or not I should trust him, especially after our painful past together. We both were sitting in class and Lisa was doing her other class homework while I was thinking about whether or not I should give Kris another chance. After a little thinking, I finally decided on whether or not I want to give him another chance. I got up from my seat making Lisa look up at me
Lisa-Where are you going?
Me-I’ll be back
I ran out of the class to go find Kris since he wasn’t in class when me and Lisa came back from the rooftop. After a couple of minutes of searching for him, I finally found him in the school library.
Me-Kris
He turned his attention to me and you could tell from the way his eyes looked, he has been crying
Me-Let’s talk in private
Kris-Wha-
Before he could finish his statement, I dragged him to the campus’s park.
Kris-Is-
Me- I’ve made up my mind and I’ve decided that…..
To Be Continued
