Hide Me

I can see how he is insanely smiling as we are unbelievably together. He is in awe of us and very much under the delusion that love is a straight path. The breeze is gently tickling me as I hold him tighter and his hand holds my hand to give the smile that I saw. I am just taken aback with that one act he pulled. The way he holds my hand and just admires the time he is having. I really wish that this could be true. This feeling, this emotion, this dream and everything. I am waiting for that smile which will drive me crazy and he will oblige because he knows that I can get through any storm just with the curves of the ends of his mouth. I see the entire world holding on to someone’s fingers, waiting for their smile to come home, resting onto someone’s shoulders with complete entitlement. I wonder when will I.. well I don’t know if it will be the same as the world’s or different, but I sure know that he will never depart my heart after arriving in it. I know that I sound like a typical teen but I am 16, and I’ve only liked one guy since I was 14. Never had the courage to walk up to him and tell him the same. But the only thought that I might never have the courage to do so makes me think that I need someone who makes me feel that now I am safe to move on and my wait was worth for him.

Suddenly I snap out of my thoughts and I see that an hour of the movie is gone. Wow, sometimes imagination takes you everywhere except the present. There were a hundred messages in the chat space available. The one scene in the movie took me to heaven and I literally forgot about the movie and the now very worried friend I was having a Netflix party with. “Oh, don’t react so panicky now! I am here.” I typed in the chat box and soon she bombarded me with her thoughts which she knew were mine. My phone buzzed on my comforter and without even looking at the caller ID, “Not another one of those ’He is not good for you’s!” I begged as Sia anyways went on. “Look, I know right now it seems irritating and over-protective of me. But both of us know that that’s how it’s all gonna end up. You get lost in these awesome moments and believe that he is gonna give it to you but... as much as it would hurt for me to burst that bubble of

delusional happiness, you really gotta move on!”

Frustrated with all the ‘move on’ dialogues I confess the worst to her. “We both know I have tried really hard in the past but I couldn’t. And I can’t really help it now. So, now instead of listening to these lectures every hour or trying different methods to distract myself from him, I am just gonna wait for him. I am not gonna try doing anything stupid, just wait for him and maybe, maybe then I will break my own heart and move on. I might take time and possibly a lot of energy, but trust me, I know every moment is going to be worth it.” I start to calm myself down when it comes to the last bit and breathe deeply. At this moment she is awfully quiet which, knowing her well, comprehends that she realised that it is the truth.

“So, are you going to the party tonight?” I asked her in the intention to cool the scenario down. “Ya, you?” I didn’t even have to answer that one. She knows that parties means dressing up which I for one, hate doing. I hang up on her and decide to check my chats. Disappointment crosses my face again like every other time. No texts from him. I release a small sigh and reach the rooftop along with my headphones. The wind sweeps my hair from one end of my face to another as I enjoy the weather and the music. After around an hour, I get down and find my way to the shower. A knock on my bathroom door threatens my calm and I hear my mom from the other side of the door calling out to me and knocking harder each time. I turn the water away and decide to finally listen to what she has to say so important that she disturbed me in the strictly do not disturb time, Shower. “Riha! Riha?” Vexed after a long screaming session I answer and ask her to carry on with why she came to disturb me in the first place. “Well, you are not doing me any favour if you get out of in there fast, you know we have to leave in 20 minutes.” Irritated by the instructions of the adults’ get way 101, I went on screamed, “Fine!” I let out a deep sigh and come out of the bathroom quicker than even i expected.

I walk out and and sink into the couch until I realise my mom is staring hard at me. “You know, you give a call if anything, I mean even if you aregoing swimming at one of your friends’.” She stresses on the swimming at friends’ part hard as I let out a small mischievous laugh since I know the incident she is pointing out clearly to and now she is staring with wide eyes and hands on her hips, definitely anger is boiling inside her right now. “Sorry.” I say as I clear my throat, reach the glass of water on the centre table and sip the water mischievously smiling. “Now, the boys will be staying over and you know, Keisha is staying over too to look after you. Money is in my cupboard, will text you about the keys on my way and be safe.” She comes closer while greeting me to be safe and kisses my forehead while cupping my face in her sweaty hands. I finally manage to keep a straight face at that gesture and bid her a goodbye whilst escorting her to the car along with dad and our neighbours.

God! It’s going to be so awkward?.. being around him, Dhairya, all day in the same house. It doesn’t really make a huge difference since we are neighbours anyways. But? but- The terrifying but. Until I turn to the elevator, it’s gone. So much for not doing anything stupid! “Shit!” I scream as I finally come to a realisation of my situation. My parents are off for a vacation along with my big ol’ crush’s parents and I am stuck in my house with my crush and his brother. Aarya, I hope at least you are a lot easier than your brother. Phew.