Internal Battle

I buckle my thoughts like a shoelace as I let them race like an athlete

Sometimes I'm quizzical at my ownself

I need to sit back let the voices drown me till I suffocate

It used to be a whisper but now, it erupts like a volcano scaring me to the core

Hahahaha a melodious laughter plays in mind as my mood swings trips over

I'm abnormal I sometimes say to myself

I loose my sanity each day but I'm in clothes

I'm amazed as depression keeps banging at my door but never pays me a visit

My walls shudder thinking my demons will take over

I'm tired inside out

I'm a lion who lost its roar

I rush to my den for safety not that I'm a coward

Partly I admit but its overwhelming not of joy but of fears

I hide beneath the covers as the internal battle sweeps over draining my energy

With a deep exhale, I shut my eyes completely as sleep carry me away the only escape and I'm afraid to say its my addiction but maybe it's not.