The Car would not stop. Obviously 'the brakes were failing. This was obvious. She was just to high to care she welcomed death. she was tired and could not go on another day. She was done! Not one more minute not one more second. She couldn't breathe she was was suffocating on her own air.. She would miss her kids and her mom and sisters but She had things in place. she was at peace. She had made peace along time ago.. A long time. Time was what was on her side . She just didn't want it anymore.. -
The wheels continuously turned . In and out of consciousness. Wheels turning. Lights blaring. Blurriness. Wheels burning ,flying straight to hell.
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Mom? Mama? Mommy?!!!!!”. Something about hearing a child call out the name mommy makes heads turn every where. Doesn't matter where you are _ grocery store skating rink malls, most woman turn around and look.' coming around.... Trying to focus........did I take the chicken out of the freezer ? John's basketball. cleats? Wait a minute John is 28 years old.. And for the love of God is that a dr looming in front of me?. Ive been feeling a little crazy lately but am I in the looney bin? I always did like that movie One flew over the cuckoos nest I had seen it upteentimes and never got tired of the ending. I just wished for a different outcome. Every-time. it always. Ends the same. My thoughts feel scrambled like coming down off of really bad stepped on coke. At least in my experience. On my God the pain - darkness.
