Prologue
I didn’t expect my admiration for Edward von Gunther would turn me into a delusional little idiot who kept chasing him all around town, begging to be loved.
I was so blinded by my so-called love for him that I refused to see that I was being reckless.
To almost hurt myself because of a man who wouldn’t even show an ounce of care for me, how stupid could I be to still love and cherish him after everything he had done to me.
I thought I couldn’t love unconditionally…that something like my father’s love for my mother was nothing but a rare occurrence and that it could never happen to me. I always looked up to them and wished I could have the same relationship—honest and faithful. But meeting Edward and forming this one-sided love for him helped me open my eyes. I wished for things that he couldn’t give me, and ever since then, I’d been blaming myself for baring my soul to him.
If not for my best friend, Matthias Blaise, I wouldn’t be here.
I—
I woke up from my trance when a cup of hot chocolate appeared in front of me. I clutched the blanket closer to my body as I wiped my already dried-up tears.
Matthias sat in front of me, his eyebrows furrowed deeply.
“You’re stupid, you know that right?” he said. His glare could cut right through me, and it scared me to see Matthias like this.
He and Edward were the best of friends, and I ruined everything for them.
It was never my intention to cause a rift between them. Matthias never had any friends aside from me as he was locked up in their house for half of his childhood years. And for me to destroy that friendship because of my obsession with Edward, how stupid indeed.
Matthias was right.
I am stupid.
I buried my face in the pillow and cried again.
As much as I hated myself for causing too much trouble, I couldn’t help but throw a tantrum every time I see Edward getting close to another person, be it a woman or a man.
He’s just so damn handsome and cool. People couldn’t take their eyes off him whenever he passed by. His soft brunette locks, dark brown eyes that resembled his late beautiful mother, and of course, his perfectly curved nose and strong jawline—Edward was the definition of hot and perfect.
Fuck.
I’m missing him even more even if it only had been a day since we—
I jolted when my phone rang. I quickly picked it up, as it’s the ringtone I set up for whenever Edward calls me.
I caught Matthias rolling his eyes at me but didn’t say anything as he had seen this scenario every twice a month.
“Hello?!” I screamed at the phone, my heart beating hard.
There was a long pause before Edward let out an exasperated sigh. “You’re at Matthias’ place?” was the first thing he asked after we fought for hours the other day.
I gripped my phone. “And what’s it to you?” I snapped. I had to act like I’m still upset with him. I’d be the dumbest person on Earth if I let him—
“Come back. I need you now.”
The table clattered as I suddenly stood up. Matthias tore his attention away from the book he was reading, giving me a disappointed look.
“I need to go,” I said.
As I ran out of Matthias’ room, I heard him say, “what an idiot.”
I didn’t care though.
Edward called me and I had to be where he was now.
Or else I’d lose it.
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