The forever sleepover

On the first day of school, summer went by in a flash, it always seems that way especially this year. Stupid Covid kept me inside for the summer. Fuck covid. It’s not like I had many friends to hang out with anyway, but I’d rather be at home alone than go to school and have to wear a god damn mask breathing the same air all day.

“Kylie get out of bed! you’re gonna be late on your first day.” My mom yelled from downstairs

Me “FINE!”

I’m not in the mood for today to be the first day of school, not to mention I woke up with a headache. But I guess I’ll get out of bed.

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I get out of bed and grab some clothes to Change inti for the day, I grab some light blue skinny jeans with a plain white t-shirt

After grabbing my clothes I walk to the bathroom and turn on the shower all the way left and let the water heat up. While waiting for the water to heat up I get undressed first taking off my shirt. I look myself in the mirror with my shirt off. I flex my stomach so I don’t have to see the disappointing chub on my stomach, I’m not fat but I hate that my stomach isn’t flat, I wish I could just lose weight but for some reason, I can’t, I will for a while but then I stress eat.

I finish undressing and look at my thighs, I don’t like them, most girls I think would be happy to have bigger thighs like me. I don’t like my thighs it’s not the size of them but it also is, I don’t like how I have stretch marks up the inside of my thigh, it makes me feel insecure even when I let no one see.

Once I stop looking at my body in disappointment I open the shower door and walk-in. The hot water and hard pressure feel nice in my body, the warmth runs down my back both waking me up and relaxing me. This will wake me up for the day.

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I finish up washing my body and open the shower door so I can grab my towel and dry off, instantly after opening the door the cold air hits me giving me goosebumps. I forgot how cold it is out of the hot water.

I dry off my body and walk over to my clothes sitting on the bathroom counter, then I get dressed first putting on my underwear and sports bra. I again look at myself in the mirror with just a sports bra and underwear on.

“I guess my body’s not that bad,” I say to myself looking in the mirror with my body turned to an angle.

After looking at myself in the mirror for about a whole minute I put on my jeans and t-shirt. The black tight jeans show off my curves perfectly while my white t-shirt hides my stomach.

I look back to the mirror fully clothed. I look into my green eyes and zone out in my thoughts and nervousness about the first day of school. I look away from my eyes to my long hair getting my white t-shirt wet.

To prevent my shirt from getting even wetter than it is, I get my towel and dry my hair the rest of the way.

“Time to get some breakfast,” I whisper to myself walking out of the bathroom.

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After eating a banana for breakfast I grab a constellation sweatshirt and put it on, then I grab my keys and throw my backpack on my shoulder.

“I’m leaving for school mom!” I yell hoping she hears me.

Mom “ok don’t forget to grab a mask, I know it sucks but the school requires it.”

Damn, I almost forgot about that. Stupid Covid.

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