Little Me

“Girl why are you working two jobs? Everyone knows you don’t need to.”

“Well I like to be safe, and I don’t know. I don’t want to be alone with myself a lot.” I put up the size zero pants and head over to the shirts to put up a pink bleached shirt that smelled like the remanence of its last user. Snapping out of my thoughts I hear the ring, signaling that a customer came in.

“Hello, welcome to American Eagle.” I hear a thank you and just leave them be. Walking back to the cash register I cheek the time and see I have five more minutes before I go home. Home, where I can be who I truly am. No one knows and I’m glad, because I’ll be judged and made fun of. I might even be called gross and disgusting.

Looking around I see the customer coming my way and smile politely before checking her out. Not even five minutes being in here she had three shirts, two pants, a very cute skirt, and a pair of flats. She knew what she wanted. Packing her things in the bag, I hear another person come in. Glad I’m going soon; I need to destress. Passing her bag to her I smile and repeat the same thing I’ve said a million times.

“Thank you for shopping with us, come back soon.” With that I look back at the register and clock out. I can be free soon. I take off my set keys and walk over to the guys section to give it to another co-worker. Upon seeing him I walk over and set the keys on a pile of shirts.

“Here are the keys to lock up. I’ll be back Thursday, for your shift.”

“Oh, thank you a million girl. I don’t know what I would have done if you said no. Me and Dylan have been waiting to go out since he’s been busy lately.”

“Oh no problem, it’s not like I do anything anyway…or see anyone, really.” I say while playing with my fingers in front of me.

“I’ll cover for you whenever you want.”

“It’s not a big deal, but thank you. See you later Sam.” I go to walk away but he pulls me back and gives me a mischievous look.

“Did you see that hottie that walked in? Girl I swear if I wasn’t with Dylan, I would be all over that.” I smile and give a little laugh. He’s always saying crazy, funny things.

“I didn’t see him, but you also say that about a lot of guys so.” I trail off and pull my hand away from him.

“Oh leave me alone. Have a good day Rosalyn.”

“’Thank you, you too.” Walking out I smile at others but mostly at the fact that I’m finally going home.

Finally, back in my home I take off my shoes at the door and head to my room to change. Switching pants to shorts, socks to thigh highs, shirt to cute pastel tie dye big shirt. Now I’m comfy and I can watch Miraculous Ladybug.

I wish I had a miraculous, I think I want the tiger because it’s cute, or even the goat. I could help Ladybug and Cat noir defeat bad guys and help them get Hawkmoth. He’s a big meanie and doesn’t care about anyone but himself.

I get my laptop and carry it back to the living room. I go into my kitchen and get some crackers, gummies, a juice pouch, and set them by my laptop on the floor. I run back to my room and get Nala, my white tiger stuffie and a blanket. I know Nala is a lion in ‘The Lion King’ but she just looked like a Nala to me.

Finally ready, I turn on my tv and put on Miraculous and then open my laptop to talk to a special friend. I also go to my phone and say hello to my friend Salem. She knows about what I am, and she accepted me. She is one too though, but not as much as I am. She says it’s just a bed thing, which is code for playtime.

She has a boyfriend, Jack, that she met online. She also says he’s the best thing that has happened to her, and that I should get on. So, I did and that is where I met my special friend. He’s really nice and makes me feel mushy sometimes. He makes me feel special and he cheers me up, when I have had a rough day.

I think he’s a daddy, but he hasn’t put what he is, or what he wants. I don’t know how he found the cite when it’s called dlmeup.com the ‘d’ is for daddy’ and the ‘l’ is for little. It’s cute, a little catchie too. A month after I joined, I found him. His name is ghost and has the little orange Pac- Man ghost for his picture. Maybe he has a thing for ghost play. I don’t judge though.

Jumping when I hear my phone ring, I look up and see that it was just Salem.

“Hello?”

“Are you really watching that show again?” Is it that loud?

“Yes… I like it.”

“Ugh I guess, but anyway, are you okay to go out this next Saturday?”

“Um yes? What is Saturday?” I ask sheepishly

“It’s Jacks party. Well the part he has to go to remember, I told you about it?”

“No..” I can just see her shake her head at me with a sigh coming through the phone.

“The people that he built the house and little clinic thing threw the company a party. I’m his plus one, but you’re my plus one since he’ll be too busy getting more jobs with other people going too. So be free at about eight thirty so we can get there at nine.”

“Okay, and what do I wear?”

“You can wear whatever you want, you sweet girl.”

“Okay. Thank you for inviting me.”

“No problem now go watch your show.” As she was about to hang up, I get a little ding from my laptop telling me that ghost has sent me a message.

“You talking to someone?”

“Um…just a guy. He’s my friend. Remember the one I told you about?” I say quietly, feeling like a kid that got caught doing something bad.

“You just need to be careful okay Rose? I didn’t just meet Jack like that, there were so many guys messaging me, and trying to take advantage of me. There are a lot of fake people on there, that just want a cute little like you to take advantage of. Just be careful okay? I remember the guy I’m just a little cautious since he doesn’t have a picture of himself and he don’t say if he’s a dominant or not.”

“I know, and okay. I haven’t said anything to him, or done anything. I promise.”

“I trust you Rose. Now go be a little.” I smile and wiggle in content.

“Okay, bye Salem!”

“Bye Rosalyn.” I hang up and see what ghost said.

Ghost: Hello little one, how was your day?

LitleBud: It was okay, a little more stressful but okay. I’m home now so I’m good.

Ghost: I’m glad to hear that. You watching Ladybug?

LitleBud: YES! It’s the episode where she meets Luka for the first time.

Ghost: Well I haven’t seen that far little one. No spoilers please.

LitleBud: Oh! I’m sorry, I won’t say anything anymore. How was your day?

Ghost: It was good little one, wish I would have heard from you though.

I wiggle in my spot and little butterflies go everywhere in my stomach and branch out.

LitleBud: I just don’t want to bother you, or get you in trouble. Plus, you’ll get bored of me, if I do that.

Ghost: Well you don’t and I’m asking for it. I’ll never get bored of you little one.

I smile and just don’t reply. I look up and see that the scene is where Marinette goes into Luka’s room.

Ghost: Sorry if I scared you off, I just know what I want. How about I give you my number or even skype and we can text on there.

Ghost: 588-5939 Clyde E.

LitleBud: Are you sure you want me to have them?

Ghost: Of course, I do. We’ve been talking for a while now, so why not. I trust you; you don’t seem like the other girls on here.

LitleBud: Thank you? Okay I’ll do both so...bye?

Ghost: Bye for now little one.