UNLITERATURE

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Summary

This is my collection of original prose and poetry.

Status
Ongoing
Chapters
1
Rating
n/a
Age Rating
18+

Chapter 1 2021

TELEADDICTION


Button scroll feel like a real ignoring my true goal Android phone has me on 24/7 cursor grows tired of blinking my sole external outlet have narrowed my rate of connection J. Wick would snatch this damned this if he knew what was once cyberspace is now e-abduction I have to rinse out my sore dry eyes every half hour scam likely will bogart before I finish my cold coffee.




EMOTIVE ELEMENTS

Thrash wind rattling gutters and roofing tiles as some do try to sleep on this cold night call it fury or the raw instability of gales do our very homes invoke disdain before the drifting clouds of night when can sky and air have its recourse on those who emit fluorocarbons from rusty mufflers the vulnerability of land-based hominids increases come winter shelters made strong and solid can endure only so much.



FATAL DRAFT

Writing is really not for me there is no inspiration found in irritation they keep saying to me ' lighten up could crumple, eat, choke to death on my own shallow entries a job search in the middle of a dull, quiet afternoon makes one want to leap out the window best hide these words far under my bed writing is a toil like uprooting a tree trunk deep in the corner of my closet and fall right smack into a crowd of aggravated nine to fivers.


CUT AND CHASE

Passion like violent overthrow behave yourself knucklehead have no idea read of the butcherings of the impure how horrible the due torment that awaits no its all b.s. you think so an interruption from the bureau of parapsychological schmoe can knock this moron off his tangent not the magma the molten flames are what burn the best.


DAMNATION DETOUR

Hold these beads decades of light deliverance out of turmoil dybbuks wait down deep so stubborn and stale little and pesky want to stomp on them until the imps whimper mostly my fault this sin is my most passionate effort I will want the fires now only when I smell the Sulphur I probably will pull my hair out.



SLEEP IS THE WORST OF ALL NIGHTMARES

You better give me my fuckin ten dollars Danny is driving us to the house fuck oh man damn can't sleep he ordered pizza yet again going out for a cig gotta get outta this fuckin house sleep is the worst of all nightmares



SLEEP TERRORS

Scream it out man damn fuck what's up why you awake nope you dreaming about being drunk that ain't nice the brain when rewired by a lifetime of excessive inebriation and when the neurochemicals ain't settled ain't no sleep if you be righteous or wicked oh shut the fuck up it's my problem I dream the nightmares of water moccasins under my bed little ticks crawling on my pillow the hairs on my arm growing teeth.



PARANOIDOID

Inward it dives numbers not five my thinking centered on fire in every form making me feel the hairs on my skin twitch tremor when will the spiders come and bite who is going to sock me in the mouth now better get up and leave when any and everything is a message telling me I am doomed.



MONEY KILLER

Itching makes me grovel see sudden omen words on rushing work van warning save money but don't care will kill cash on trash scratch off my gut telling me a winner waiting at corner store oh shit ten bucks is twenty bucks is forty up to eighty why didn't someone shoot me I have no friends especially my money no luck in my sector won't dream of taking it all back let the pain burn.



SICK LANGUAGE

Ideogram carved in my skull footprint of antidullevian predator signature meaning " here lies Bobo the Compulsive poet who will never sit still "" madness and mania go tearing up manuscripts while running to the commode hatred towards products of psoriasis plagued knuckles and flaking fingers having just scribed yet another syntax in free verse so fast cursed with thin underpinnings.


NON TENSE

I want to get out of here you hear me will smack the taste out your mouth ain't leaving serious as a heart attack you piss me the fuck off hey up there quit yer screaming you hear that go ain't going oh fuck told you I'd slap bap whap off the map the radar is capped been struck by an attack in the middle of the night by a drone armed with rockets insects can fight wars as swarms guided by remote viewed command.


SLEEP WAVES

Neuro activity on high rate synaptic outage only possible if eyes close think of safe word or mantra to lower breathing blood pressure should soon fall to delta wave state entering dream zones again habitual abuse of nicotine and caffeine compounded with internet interaction counteracts body's capacity to come down.


HELLUST

No escape it takes money blocked by crypto she wanted to use her hands only I wanted a different kind of show knowing the cost and consequences I flirted with damnation until I saw through all the false advertising shaking my big fat head saying aw fuck this



LONE DIM

How nice
All alone
No light
Warm covers
Early night
Will it be
Sleep tight
Phone addiction
Or restless twice
Up to me
I'll see
Me ok
Right now
Think how
I'll rest
Time the test
Lonely space
My kind of place
Mostly
Typically
Usually
Sigh
Will I
Ever see two other eyes
Across from mine
When the light turns off
A voice saying " good night"
Or " sweet dreams"
Or " please
" quit writing".



EMPTYING

Won't complain about it
Know I do it
Know I love it
Know that later
I hate myself for doing it
The feeling so bleak
Feel so weak
Even before but after
Why sometimes laughter
Loss so so immense
Over what at this point
Only guess
I am a temple
Housing a soul
A presence immortal
And how is that soul's glow
Now that I've emptied
Graces given to me
By the hand of glory
This thing it's not deep
This evil I keep
It is mental memorial
Can be quashed
Cast out
It can
Is it time
Is it because
I'm stubborn
Burn
Fall
Face
Darkness



NIGHT WILL

Bed could burn
Body could turn
I do squirm
So begins if I learn
My lesson given so stern
A hand cut off
A branch trimmed and tossed
A will so trained to do wrong
Rests alone with its shaking bones
Through a wind beaten night bemoan
The ache of self-control
Never think I struggle alone
Our Lord and Our Lady 1:11



DEEP WIRES

Inserted
Ages lorn
Leaving torn
My brain I was born
Normal male
Functional pale
Nothing off the rails
I was introduced
To a thing seriously unreal
Made a secret
Sowed it
Labored at it
Idealized it
Now I serve it
Want to burn it
Let go of it don't know
Like it's me
My identity
Or so
I believe
Can control
The thoughts that go
In the direction reading no
The sign saying stop
The voice saying enough
Can't eat the cake I bake
Can't

Wired



BACKWORDS

My eyes may look ahead
My feet point forward
I may walk to
It is me made blue
By pining pining overdue
An empty life in present stress
Leaves the past more to guess
When so little of it was an experience
Much of my memory be torment
Overthinking out loud I vent
The past a treasure of pain
What went wrong yesterday I blame
On so and so and such and such the same
Let it go is no easy release you know
A mind with scars unresolved issues can't grow
So remember the negatives all day and all night
When the miracle happens wake up to take flight.



POISON PLAY

They first
Are nice
Seem normal
Yeah right
In time
Notice
They never
Take your side
Or stop their talking
To hear your input
Most devious
Is when
They deny
An honest response
To when you share
A cherished secret or surprise
Acting dumb or indifferent
Leaving your mind with resentment
The disrespectful despising boundaries
Hating to be told 'no" by you
With ears only open to a 'yes"
We victims live with their poison
Litanies of unjust memories
And the countless cost of codependency.



SKIN SO THIN

I wear buttons
On my coat
On my shirt
On my skin
Like people see them
Mean people
I think of myself as nice
As kind considerate maybe good
Others like alcoholics napoleonics
See me as some easy prey
Unable to retort their barbs
I fall victim to consternation
Without the wit and spontaneity
To Come back so snappy
Hating my personality.



AT A PUZZLE

Could it be
ADHD
The scars of drinking
After effects of heavy drugs
Or am I just too nice
I don't command respect
The subject is changed
When I strive toward solution
A mask under which may hide
A belligerent borderline
Disorder spat in questionable
Ferocious tosses
No answers yet
Hope for a good night




THOUGHTWAR

It continues
Always brews
Introspective bad news
Hate when these thoughts eschew
Whenever I am carnal then I think them too

Have to chase the thoughts I fear
They rise so quick get them out of here
Here being my mind a place so weird
I call to the angels for aid the thoughts disappear

Prayer best power against any evil
I am a sinner only mortal
My mind is inclined to think like carnal
My soul and spirit no they desire what is eternal

This war of attrition this mental battle
Will not end until
I pass from this life unto my immortal
State that I hope to be perpetual.



SLEEP LESS CARE MORE

At night at idle
Pacing all while
Internal battle
Returns royal
No rest no denial
I care too much about little
Imbalance chronological
Take my pills on schedule
Still waiting for some upheaval
To rattle the status quo
Rid the world of silent woes
Or change the paradigm as it goes
My unhealthy diet my vices I know
Don't help my sleeping patterns to roll
As they should so what now
Almost the dawn then how
I can sleep the morning yeah wow
Some wacky life I lead it is below
The normal the common the sensible
It's the life I have the years left to me
I'll do something with them we,ll see.



WHEN FEEL GOOD

Smile on face
Laughter in place
Light is my pace
The sunlight is my ace
I sit still and do not race
My thoughts go slow under grace
It is a Thursday my day o happy me
I care nothing for grumbling misery
There is a God who blesses freely
His Son and His Spirit moving universally
The peace the joy the serenity
The sharing of little things
The new month the season
The coming holiday
The TV off the quiet house
The full stomach
The day half over
The mood I am in
No guilt no shame no bitterness
No frustration no need to get even
No dwelling on sin
If this be all a miracle
I may just be in.



THE DARK BEATS

My heart so heavy
Pumping out many
Beats of agony
As I dwell on misery
Do I love this pain
Of things I can't change
Not trusting in Jesus who gains
From every loss I strain
Pump pump my atrium
Working harder than medium
My poor heart building in calcium
As I stress stress in vain ad nauseum
I write to release the frustration I repeat
All the day and night living so in heat
Feeling steamed and fumed
Why why was I used
Enough I will now refuse
To whine about milk spilled
When having had more than my fill
Of anger so much it kills
The energy in the graces and blessings
Bestowed by God in His understanding.



IF THE NIGHT WAS KIND

I lay here

My mind a battle zone

This home

Like a dead man,s bones

The energy here drains and I roam

From my room to the front door

Or I toss and turn the more

In my head the sores

The scars that won't leave

So easy to focus on negatives

When having suffered so much to grieve

Am I a person with no power

Truly a coward

If the night were so kind

To send me a dream this time

Of a different life where I

Did everything I had wished I had

To heal my memory of all the bad

I might wake tomorrow

Lacking sorrow

Smiling

Not caring

Forgetting

Believing

In forgiveness.




The All Night Man

Master Phone
Dark Home
Again alone
Oh my bones
I hate my poems
So I groan
Lie here and moan
None with me to be known

Night long lonely live it
Until I'm sleepy
Drive myself crazy
Compulsive poetry
Rhyming silly
Off the tip of my head
Soliloquy
Oh mercy

Fun maybe
Me angry
Life unsatisfactory
No money
Pockets empty
The night like the day
Not busy



AS OLD

Since long

That wrong

Has gone

On and on

Now come on

Put an end

Hate the sin

The goal to win

There is heaven

Joy and freedom

Pray and be done

One day

Comes

The Illumination



OVER IT ALL

Years ago
Was the toll
Paying much to know
Friends as friends no
Their fee was so
Money abuse or ohhhh
I was last lowest lamest
Weakest worthless
With a memory too perfect
Not so mad at them
At myself because then
The afterthoughts cringe
My mind and skin
My list of losses
Oh where do I begin
The pity party what a sin


PRAYERS

A power not simple
Words giving miracles
If said with immovable
Faith anything possible
By the Divine Mercy
Jesus King Mary most holy
Their power and intercession




PAST DOOM

I am the face

Ever looking about

Ever looking behind

Knowing only one

Side of time

My past so unresolved

So much I want

To change n revolve

Through another go

Another chance but no

Done is done is life's run

Doomed I am to have sung

A song of mourning

For chances went slipping

Too old a story worth telling

My memory so unquelling

Learn the let it go spelling

Before I lose my mind

While yelling

How unfair

Being here

Empty as the air

Not easy to not care free
Saving us and our world see



TAKE THE TRIGGER

Lord Jesus my King
If there is one thing
I need to bring
To your cross and leave
Are these triggers which cling
They make me bitter and I spring
Into bouts of anger unnecessary
They may be my own cross i carry
Don't want to look angry
Want serenity
Your peace from you Jesus


COLD BYE

Gotta go itz cold hide get warm see ya next spring in a few months when the weather thing rolls around n it ain't so brisk so chilly so nippy so nasty so ennh bye bye see the sky cloudy grey all day n night no stars no lights what fun is that I'm going to my mat splat


STUCK

on my phone sick too often need help nailed to where I'm laying got a real problem too many what is wrong don't ask yourself so stuck in yer ways maybe go on a diet order takeout after midnight yer that out of yer mind at least at this point in time.


NIGHT ME

Walking streets morphing into mad moon creature owned by my phone hopping apps finding everyone else gone feel odd but loving the quiet dark the strip mall parking lot is mine to wander will I meet danger or perhaps drop to the cement fever dreaming of some scary morn.



FRONT ROOM SAFE

Here quiet me my phone alone no screams from night terror man snoring in the abyss of the suffocating subconscious I wallow in idyllic insomnia caring nothing for any sheep leaping over my couch until I doze into dream mode and drop my device where it's lost.



HUMOR

I ask expect am excited anticipate I even demand no I am confused perplexed annoyed irritated discouraged aggravated I've had enough u could have humored me just once and I might be calm I believe u intently denied what I was hoping for.


COMPRESSION

On my bed for hours on end reluctant to move flattening flattening into a pancake of a person someone take a spatula and flip me off.


AGITATION

Tap it off press it out tweet away pain and loss of power born a sucker under a bad sign saying this one has no spine wait did I surprise you with a jab to the nerve oof here comes the reboot you're weak im right always take it accept it live with it get over sick


MIDDLE O' NIGHT

Here on couch me do scowl n drown in negative lies told by me from my mouth to my mind the rest of the world may be asleep I keep awake what be at stake my nerves and cars on the road outside swerve I will be this melancholic all my old days my ways be had.


HALF THIS NIGHT

Midnight hour ticking down still no sleep to be found in my eyes all dry sore and tired looking at this screen and not the world around me I see lights turned off everything dark I'm too lazy to move anywhere if I don't doze off I will lose my mind n disappear


INTERNOPE

The insanity of internet dating leaving deadly viruses on my phone infecting my focus puffing me with a level of delirium I even see to be ludicrous time to smell the coffee as much as drink silly seductive lies warping where I think Idk now love by cyberspace no hit.



UNTEXT

E-meaning delete doc
Save copy image prop
Nanotime chronobot
Artificial intelligence got
Deadly articulate on the spot
Cybercosmic construct
Concept too high minded
Language by linkage
Heat overloading plug
Touchscreen going red
Press power off
Soon or shutdown
Quitnow