It hurts

I don't know exactly how I feel now, but it hurts so much.

I feel lost, as if I walk on a high edge and I fell at any moment, I feel like inside me a wound that I don't know how to overcome, my dreams faded and they became a mirage and I look at it from afar, all those I loved in my life did not love me enough, I did not feel all my life that there are those who want me forever, I did not feel that anyone I can come to to fill my heart pain, I feel terrible strange and as if this world with its sea and sky does not suit me, I have not yet found a suitable place suitable for my sorrows. I feel tired of everything as if I am I no longer have enough energy to continue, I would like to rest a little, to regain my passion for many things and start again without fear of the future, I want to find what was lost from me next to people from whom I have only pain, I desperately want to find my way after all this chaos that surrounds me from all sides.