Love
I always thought that love at first sight meant that, you first see someone and you fall in love with everything about them. when i was in middle school i realized that, i dont believe in love at first sight, why you might ask?. well i dont believe that you can look some stranger in the eye and fall in love with them, i feel like you fall in love with the IDEA of them. the moment when your eyes meet isnt the moment where you realize that "this is love" no its the moment where you notice someone out of multiple others. thats not love, despite how romantic it may seem love at first sight is simply impossible. you dont know that person yet you look at them and you "love" them. i still believe this today, i get called out for it but its just my opinion of course. You might be thinking that a middle school girl doesnt know anything about love or romance but im in high school now, my last year to be exact. As a middle schooler i was the quiet kid with nothing to say, i hated social places, i loved being by myself all the time, i hated bullies, i loved reading, and writing, and something i hated most, Love. im not this huge Anti-Romantic, in fact i have always loved romance, the sight of it, the thought if it, and the feeling of it... but i hated fake love. i hated watching people go around acting as if they loved a person for anything but their looks. i get it looks can be apart of a relationship but why would you choose a popular kid who bullies others and who will probably grow up to be abusive over a smart kid who is funny, has alot in common with you, and is actually quite cute. there is a difference between like and love. when you like someone, you are obsessed with the idea of someone or that specific person being yours. when you love someone, you are willing to drop everything and run to their side when needed but of course not every relationship has a happy ending. some end some stay the same and most of all some grow to be toxic and abusive. i love love, but love shouldn't be something just destroyed by society. Love was meant to be a form of art, creativity... romance can be sexual, physical, verbal, corny and majestic. anything can happen in the course of love but modern society has deemed "love" to be used and manipulated to fit the perfect standards of a "power couple" or a good relationship but will we ever really know what a good couple is?... what defines a perfect couple? is it the way they dress? they way they text? the way they introduce themselves? how open they are? the popularity? will we ever know? no of course not. in my overall opinion i believe that love is when you can look into someones eyes and see your future with them, you can see them and their purity and see their hurt. Love is when you savor every moment you have with each other, when you can hold their hand and feel happiness and when you hold them in your arms and feel comfortable and safe. of course i wouldn't know how love feels but how about we talk about a different type of love. i never even got love from my parents let along the people i lived with. the only person who ever loved me was my little cousins and my sister my own reflection hated me let alone my entire mind contradicted everything i wanted. every time i was happy it felt like a painful hard punch in the chest and stomach multiple times but anyways let me not ramble about how painful happiness is for me instead let me point out a different type of pain.
