Diary Entry - Jan 17, 22
I am twisted to the point where I cannot deny it anymore.
Year passed by since I last thought of you as my love,
But not one day since I thought of you.
Feelings for you are something I want to get rid of,
Easier said than done, I have tried trust me, each technique new.
Agreed that I was a bitch, I was annoying,
I was jealous and I was a drama queen.
But honey, weren't you the liar and toxic in awakening,
Breaking my heart and taking it as a sovereign.
Sixteen, an age to explore, naive and stupid to trust a stranger,
Do you know how embarrassing it is for me to tell anyone that my first love was a call misplaced, a wrong number?
Unnoticed in school, hiding in blank of insecurities,
You lied and told me I was a hidden beauty
It has been 10 years since you happened,
Your thoughts are with something I still battle.
Everyday.
When I lie in arms of my soulmate but think of you,
I just want to shout that I have moved on from you, you fucking monster,
But I will tell everyone our story now,
And hope I meet you someday so that I can give you in person my middle finger.
