In a blink of an eye
It feels like yesterday, but it has been eight long years and seven months already. I heard it once from an old man in the prak when I was a child, I heard him saying to his son who was of my father's age, "the year pass by in a blink of an eye". Since, I was very little to understand what he actually ment with those lines, I blinked my eyes and when nothing happened, I thought he was a lier, but now as I stand in a point where I don't really understand where and how these eight long years passed by, I recalled those memories of the old man in the park. I desperately realised that I haven't write a single letter to my mom since I left home nor did I ever tried to reach them.
Since, I left I never turned back to that place, I never thought to make a way back home until today morning. After having a tiring journey back home from an office trip yesterday. I woke up late in the morning and was trying to fix the roof of my dog's cannel, Browny was wagging his tail and staring at me as I approached his cannel to examine the problem, then I went to the store room followed by Browny to get some tools to fix his roof. My store room unlike any other store room, is a messed up place among all. There are lot many things then what I collectively have in my entire house. While looking for my tool box, I saw an old dirty bag, same as the once which was very popular back in my parents house. So out of cuotisity I checked the bag and found a picture of my family which I brought with me while leaving the house 8 years and seven months ago along with some old faded and out fashioned clothes which were the finest of what I had at that time. I was drainning into flashback until Browny started chasing the cocorose and distracted me. I put back the clothes but took the pictures out and brought it outside with the tool box. Then I started fixing the roof of the cannel, thoughts running on mind that was trying to srink me down, but then I saw my wife approaching me with a coffee in her hand. She wish me a good morning, and maybe she saw my shriking face, asked if anything was wrong. I stood up to receive a coffee and gave her the picture that I found. She understood what was going on in my head. So she hugged me and asked, "you wanna visit them right?",
Yes, I said.
It's been more than eight years since I last saw them, the time has brought me so far, I wonder what they have turned out to be.
I got emotional, my eyes got filled with tears, my wife grabbed me tight in her arms and tried comforting me saying, let's visit them soon.
With her warm hugs and comforting words I somehow gained back control over my emotions. She asked whether I was feeling okey. I look at Browny and said, yes. Browny was looking at us cluelessly. Then within no time I finished fixing up the cannel and went back in, I started reading news paper when Jeshy prepared a breakfast.
In the evening of the following day we booked our tickets to fly back to India. Our journey was scheduled after two days. We started packing the following day and started making plans. We both eagerly waited for the date of travel. Jeshy was very exited to meet my parents because she had never got that previlage. We decided to leave Browny with Jeshy parents and left on the 23rd of March. On our way to airport I looked at Jeshy and saw that exitement in her eyes, she was nervous too. After an hour of drive we reached airport, checked in and we boarded a flight. I was flying back to India after almost a decade, I wondered what India had changed into. Different thoughts running on head, couldn't read the book that I brought which was suppose to be my companion on the long flight. Look at my pretty wife, she was taking a power nap and I was daydreaming. It felt like a dream until we landed and heard the buzzing sound of the Indian street and the Indian scent on the market.
Me coming to visit my parents after these long years was giving me the mixed emotion. My head was full of thoughts that I couldn't resist, so we checked into a hotel few miles away from airport but pretty close to the city because we landed on evening. After tiring formalities on the reception, we were led to the beautiful room with a balcony attachet to it. The mesmerizing view of the city, all those lights competing agest the darkenss of the night, which would probably look like the galaxy from the eagle eye view. I freshened up and sat on the balcony with a drink while Jeshy went to sleep. I was in need of refreshment and wasn't really wanting to rest, so I started looking if there was anything bright in the dark sky that night. The night breez gave me that plesent chills which I was highly needing. Than I saw some movements in the sky, they say only few are lucky to witness the falling star, I was going to be amongst that few. That scene show much caught me up that I forgot to do the both, make a wish and video capture it. So on my own defence my thought said that sometimes it's more important to watch and do nothing.
I went back inside the room as it was already 11 pm in the clock. I landed my head on the bed and then struggled to fall asleep. Those incidents which made me leave the home started hunting me down, and me not trying to reach out to my parents in this long years started stabbing my chest with guilt. I knew that I didn't do good by living my parents in such stage but as far I knew I had no other options other then to leave them.
While these thoughts were playing on my mind I turned towards Jeshy and thought if I would not have leaved the house, then I would have never met such a beautiful soul as Jeshy. I slowly came close to her and kissed in her forehead. Her fregnence distracted me from all those heavy thoughts but I wasn't over it.
The only question that kept bother me that night was, will I be able to fix it?
I answered to my self, atleast
Let me try and fix the bond.
I went back inside the room as it was already 11 pm in the clock. I landed my head on the bed and then struggled to fall asleep. Those incidents which made me leave the home started hunting me down, and me not trying to reach out to my parents in this long years started stabbing my chest with guilt. I knew that I didn't do good by living my parents in such stage but as far I knew I had no other options other then to leave them.
While these thoughts were playing on my mind I turned towards Jeshy and thought if I would not have leaved the house, then I would have never met such a beautiful soul as Jeshy. I slowly came close to her and kissed in her forehead. Her fregnence distracted me from all those heavy thoughts but I wasn't over it.
The only question that kept bother me that night was, will I be able to fix it?
I answered to my self, atleast
Let me try and fix the bond.
