~ One ~
I still remember, the first feeling I felt when I first started talking to you.
You were just like everyone else. Nice. Funny. Cute.
But today you are my everything. Everything I ever wished for.
Though that wish will never be true. It sucks.
Liking someone you can't have, seeing them everyday, but knowing that they'll never be yours.
It's the worst feeling cause all you can do is dream about and wish for them but never have them.
He ignores you but you like him. He does nothing, yet you fall for him. You miss him even though you know he's never thought about you.
But lol, today you said hi to me and I died.
I wonder what I look like in your eyes.
I sorta... kinda... maybe... might... slightly... possibly...... like you... with all my heart.
Sometimes you make me feel like I actually have a chance with you, but when I try to take that chance, you make me realize I never did.
I never had that chance to be yours.
You were my yes, but I was only your maybe.
My heart likes you but my mind doesn't. Our relationship is very complicated.
Dear heart, so there's this guy that you want me to like but I don't want to! So can you please stop beating so fast when he comes by?
Of course not, he is my first love. He will always have a special place in my heart.
I believed, and still believe we secretly like each other.
You waved at me! You glanced at me!
I love it when I catch you looking at me.
I wonder if I'm on your own mind as much as you're on mine.
Maybe not.
Cause my love to you is hopeless. I have a hopeless crush on someone I have no chance with.
I don't know why I'm so afraid to lose you when you're not even mine.
But right now, I'm at my peaks of desire!
I like you a crazy lot. You just stole my heart.
Now I want your heart because you stole mine.
I try to forget it. to leave it here. to forget you... my first love.
But I can't. I can't stop thinking about you or talking to you.
Just because we don't talk doesn't mean I don't think about you. Its just that... I'm trying to keep distance because I know I can't have you.
The more I love you, the more it hurts when you leave. Will you leave me?
Maybe.
But one thing is true... he will never know how strongly a girl once loved him.
A girl who is not pretty, not so smart. Even though there are a lot of girls better than me, or a lot of guys better than you (which is not true), I still like you and can't simply shake you out of my head.
Its like... the wind. My love to you is like the wind. You cannot see it but you can only feel it.
Loving you is like breathing, how can I stop?
By dying. Through the jaws of death. I can seriously die for you right now.
But I won't.
Cause I think... I know for a fact that you don't like me 99.9%
But it is the 0.1% that keeps me going.
Not now. But someday, someday I will have the enough courage to tell my Feelings of Love.
~ The End ~
