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There was this aura of a person that always haunted me wherever I went. I never could understand if it was my infatuation with the one I loved or was it a part of the grief that followed me around? It’s been more than enough years that I tried to walk away from my past but I couldn’t. Just how can I?
The predominant side of all that was happening had kept me captivated in its clutches and I had no means to break through it. I remember the happiest parts of my life from the past. When I was just a girl. A girl with dreams and ambitions. But who am I now?
Is it even worth it for me to be here? Or is all of this just a dream? For the first time in my life I feel so free of the only thing that bothered me. Maybe it’s better not to think of it but as I’m standing on the balcony of a twentieth floor building, I can do nothing but relax. The cold breeze entered my soul and kept my heart ignited with a passion and hunger for love. The happiness that I kept on feeling got me and made me shiver with a desperation for arousal.
The serene scenery of the moon and the half city that was visible from the balcony of the twentieth floored hotel was nothing but captivating. I can assure you, this is a perfect place for those who want to spend their honeymoon here. The shimmering and twinkling lights of the city made me feel closer to the stars. The city itself was radiating an energy that I couldn’t decipher. It was soothing and calm. It made me hungry yet it made me full.
The breeze made me shiver to which I folded my arms and started rubbing my palms on my hands. I regret wearing this off-shoulder dress. Sameer should have told me that he was taking me to a cold frozen place. I should have known that he’d want me to live in London. I landed a job here as one of the chief executives in a multinational company. Best thing is Sameer has been working in the same company for the past seven years.
The seven years with him working here and me waiting back in India brought miseries to us because of the distance. But to him I mattered the most. Speaking of Sameer, where is he? Why is he in such a rush?
I turn back and see no one in the room. I walk back inside still trying to make myself warm by rubbing my arms. Suddenly, my eyes move towards the main door as I hear the manly voice of Sameer talking. I go much closer to him and notice that he’s been giving money to one of the boys who’s been bringing our luggage's into the room.
Seeing Sameer and his sexy body makes me want to just walk over to him, pull him down towards me and kiss him deeply. I want our tongues to fight for dominance as I start pushing him towards the bed and make him drop on it. The need to climb on him and make love to him right now was creating a huge desperation in me. The chills from the imagination and the igniting urges of arousal that I was feeling made me go weak on my knees.
My heart skips a beat as soon as our gaze catches each other with love, care and lust. His eyes start to soften as he sees me but with the spur of the moment that I had been feeling made me too shy and guilty to even look at him.
My cheeks start getting warm and red. I realize that he has closed the door and has been making his way towards me. I automatically stop breathing and rush towards the balcony.
“What am I doing… oh god why did I come here?” My eyes start to water and I feel how warm my body is getting. Am I catching a fever? I stare at the blinking city and realize that I have been very shy since he came to pick me up from the airport. “Oh god.. have a grip on yourself Naina.. gosh.. Arghh stop being this way!!”
“What way are you being Naina?” I suddenly feel Sameer’s weight on me from behind. “Hmm.. is my Naina being shy?”
“Sameer.. why are you doing this?”
“Hmm.. what am I doing?” He holds my hips and starts making his hands towards my stomach. His left hand keeps on climbing my stomach.. up and up.
I hold his hand and stop him but I start moaning as he starts kissing my neck. I shouldn’t have worn this off shoulder dress. “Sameer.. we just came here, I didn’t even shower. Hmm.. Sameer please.”
“Please.. what Naina? We’ve met after seven years. All I want to do is ravish you and take you in every way possible. I’ve been waiting for you and the only thing that I want to do is make love to you.”
Ravish me? Oh that’s what I’ve been waiting for. Come Sameer ravish me.
My legs start getting weak as I hear him speak. His voice, his touch, his scent, his everything is making me wild. I can feel his hard member poking my butt and the only thing that I want is for him to enter me and make us one. Would I care for a shower? I guess I can’t.
Suddenly I feel that my feet have been leaving the ground and the grasp on my waist was getting tighter. Sameer carries me bridal style and takes me inside the room. But instead of making his way to the bed he goes to the couch and sits there. He makes me sit on his lap and begins to caress my face.
I turn to him and hold his face with both of my hands. I begin to trace his lips and nose. I begin to bring my lips closer to him. As my lips touch his, I begin to understand what I have missed over these past seven years. I begin to kiss him softly while parting his lips. I feel tears flow as he begins to kiss me as well.
Soon my silent cries turn to sobs. I break our kiss and start sobbing. He tentatively hugs me tight and starts carrying me.
“Where are you taking me? Where are you taking me?”
He replies nothing but soon makes me sit on the bed. My tears flow and I’m pretty sure by now that all my mascara and makeup has been ruined. I open my eyes to that realization and see him sitting on one of his knees. He rubs and removes the tears from my cheeks and looks down on my laps.
“These seven years away from you, Naina, have given me too much pain. I know the same goes for you too. I have hidden things from you. I know I should have told you about it when it happened but I couldn’t. I don’t even think I should even bring this now. I’ve hated myself since then and I know I’ll be heavily punished for this one day. But I didn’t want to lose you at all.”
My heart starts beating heavily and the cries seem to get worse.
What did he hide… I feel like everything is going to go wrong.
“Naina..” His voice breaks and he raises his head and looks at me. “I slept with a woman thinking that it was you.” He searches for an answer in my eyes but all I could think is nothing.
“Five years ago when I learned that Meet came to meet you in my absence, it just boiled me. Your parents were already focused on marrying you with him and I couldn’t bear that pain of you being away from me. I don’t deserve you at this point. But that day some friends of mine saw me in that state and took me for a drink. I saw a woman. Dark hairs.. soft eyes.. plump lips like yours.. she looked like you. Maybe my sanity was at stake.. it sure was and the next day I found myself with her.”
I feel a sudden pain rising in my chest. It’s too suffocating to stay here.
“But that day also was the day where I learned I can’t love anyone else apart from you. It was a mistake, Naina. It was a mistake. I love you. ”
I don’t want to lose Sameer either. My tears become a disaster but soon my mind wanders off to that day when Meet came to meet me.
“Meet kissed me that day Sameer. I didn’t tell you. I guess we’re even. Though he forced me to.”
“What? That bastard kissed you?”
“After sleeping off with another woman I don’t think you have the right to complain, Sameer.”
Sameer looks down on my lap and starts fiddling with the hem of my dress. "I just love you Naina. I can’t think of anyone else. I’ll rot if I can’t have you.”
The thought of being away from Sameer gives rise to the sudden burning sensations in my heart. I can’t too, Sameer.
Sameer soon brings a small box in front of me and opens it. “Will you marry me Naina?”
