Uncage The Mysterious Soul

Like a seashell, I remain on the ground,
Some notice and pick the best ones,
While some are left around.
I feel I am the left one which no one cares about,
I have been picked once,
But thrown back to the ground.
I feel I am the worst surrounded by the best,
Like a seashell which is lying on the beach,
I feel so alone, untouched and beyond one's reach.
I still feel lonely when I have everyone around,
I am diving deep in my agony,
I am waiting to be found.
Care for me before I am buried in the ground,
Otherwise, I would be merely lying,
Like a seashell on the ground.

BOOK

I see many customers pass in front of me,
Some just ignore,
Some pick and look at me.

They keep me back on the bookshelf,
A place where I am destined to be.
I promise to be a good book only if you give me a chance to be,
Stop judging me and have a close look at me.
Then you'll know the words inked on me.
I am sure that you will like what is in me,
I can be a best friend only if you give me a chance to be.
I see the best-selling books and imagine myself there,
I promise to be close to your heart,
Only if you open and read me.
I am lying all alone, with other books,
I am worthy only if you just open and take a look.

MY LONELINESS

I am so alone, walking on a lonely street.
I am exhausted and tired are my feet.
I feel like I am invisible,
Because there is no one to talk to.
I feel ignored, unnoticed and abandoned too.
Am I so bad that I deserve this isolation?
Then tell me why I am not being involved in any situation?
If I behave the way like you do,

I hope only then you will understand the pain I am going
through.
My pain is not temporary,
It is deeply rooted,
I am trapped and bound in my seclusion,
I am submerged in my agony.
I am so much in pain,
That you all have no clue,
At last, I tell you not to pity me or show me your sympathy,
If you really do care,
Then save and help me.

ONLY RAIN CAN UNDERSTAND
MY PAIN

Why does it feel like it is going to rain?
Does sky feel my pain?
The thunders will be my rage,
I have to shut my heart in a cage.
So that it doesn't feel a thing,
I am fed up being nothing.
These murky clouds depict my state of mind,
They are blurry and so they are of my kind.
When the clouds couldn't hold the rain,

I would be overwhelmed thinking rain understands my pain.
Rain pours from the sky like my tears,
My mind couldn't hold my biggest fears.
That's how I have fallen,
The reason why I love rains.
I can feel the sadness crawling,
Only rain can understand my pain.

MIRROR AND ITS REFLECTION

My scattered self, I see, in a crystal mirror,
Reflecting the only emotions I want to show,
Noticing the face on which it appears,
Taken aback by the emotions, hidden from the glow.
When I smile it acts like me, it knows me so well,
I reflect myself; it gives me hope like a story untold,
My reflection cried along, it was there when I yelled.
Reflections are memories of a soul to behold.
They are always there for us, even when we are alone
Only if one finds to admire the values in oneself
A mirror reflects the treasures for which it shone.
That treasure is not gold or silver; it is your own self.
Broken down by unaccomplished dreams,
Hiding my own eyes filled with silent tears.
Patience was measured in my heart with screams,

Only because I want to, mirror hid my emotions and fears.
Now I see a smiling face, trying hard to hide what I actually
feel,
Fed up with all the false hope and unknown destiny,
I am lost in my own world where everything is unreal,
Maybe that's why I reflect the true self because I want to be
lost in ecstasy.

I WANT TO WRITE

I want to write,
Which everyone can relate themselves with.
I want to give them the feeling that they are not the only one.
I want people to read and feel that they are not alone,
I want to write words which echo in their heart.
I want to dive deeper in person's mind,
Just to look what's inside their thoughts.
And then I want to write,
Every detail about them.
The pain they've struggled,
The fame they've gained.
The mercy they have begged for,
And rose up higher despite their vain.
I want my words to play in people's mind,
I want to write such songs,

Till I realize my own worth,
I would be long gone.
In my entire life,
I seek a place where I belong.
I am fed up with people who think that I am always wrong.
I want to write my heart out,
So that my pain could be shared,
There is nothing I feel,
That doesn't require attention and care.
I want to write about other's miseries,
I want to write about their cries,
I want to dig out the truth,
And want to free people from the lie.

ONLY FOR ONCE

Only for once if I could forget my sorrow,
I would want to live in joy not caring about tomorrow.
Only for once, I want to dance and cry tears of happiness,
I want to end the choking venom of sadness.
Only for once, I want to feel what it feels like to be care free,
I want to burst the bubble of grief and want to be the real me.
Only for once, I want my inner self to feel pretty,
I want to end the feelings of being guilty.

Only for once, I would want to live life without regrets,
I want to live every day without being upset.
Only for once, I want to forget my every trouble,
I want to bury my strife and end my struggle.

PHOTOGRAPH

A series of emotion a photograph carries,
A memory of many events,
Lying trapped in an album,
Untold stories remain a mystery.
Never thought pictures can break us,
Never imagined all will be left would be just images,
No matter how much I cry seeing them,
They never change nor does the time.
Passed down from generations to generations,
They just get old,
Some miss them for a day,
And forget them once it gets folded.
Never knew snapshots had so much power to make people cry,
Or maybe the image of the person it does,
Photographs hold a value,
For the treasured memories in us.
They say capture the happy times,

Forget the sad ones,
Who knows what the time will bring?
Time decides whether a photograph is a happy or a sad one.

SEASONS

Pleasant weather makes me cheerful,
Sun's bright, spreading its rays on flora
And flowers bloomed.
Chasing butterflies with my little fingers,
That's when I knew, it was spring.
The rays of the sun were severe,
The breeze was no more pleasing,
It was intense heat outside,
Leaves faded from emerald green to pistachio.
All I wanted to stay at home.
Mother allowed me to eat ice-cream as much as I liked,
And told me there is no school.
That's when I knew, it was summer.
Sometimes the weather fooled me,
I played with shadow when the sunlight hit me
And later it was gone,
I noticed it was sunny and cloudy at the same time.
And water from sky poured down.

Blue sky was not to be seen,
Light flashed, it scared me and I cried.
Mother told me it was thunder
And one day it will stop raining.
I watched the drops on my window pane,
That's when I knew, it was a monsoon.
Curled up and brittle, the petals of the tree were,
All the chlorophyll was lost,
They fell and untidied the lawn,
I piled them up, clutched in my little hands
And threw them up,
That's when I knew it was fall.
Trees stood bare while it snowed,
I played with the snowballs;
Admiring the mist arise from my mouth.
Mother made me wear warm clothes,
Saying it was very cold outside.
Sitting in front of the fireplace
And curled up with a quilt,
I snuggled in my mother's lap,
And she let me sink into sleep.
That's when I knew, it was winter.

CHRISTMAS SENRYU

Shiny silver balls
Hung amidst golden ones on
A huge Christmas tree
Gifts of all sizes
Lay below the Christmas tree
Beside the fireplace
Children excited
Happiness spread all over
Wow! It is Christmas.

COLD FLAME

Surrounded by emptiness and silence,
I bring you light when you are in darkness.
Afraid what lies in pitch black room?
I erase your fears.
You carry me along,
I help you seek out things.
You use me and forget,
While I burn for you.

I am no great soul,
I am a candle who lives for you.
My flame keeps me warm,
Because I am surrounded by cold people like you.
I burn to brighten your day,
I am so selfless.
You blow me when someone else brightens your life,
My flame quivers
And then I feel cold.
I am still ready to burn for you again,
Because I am remembered as the one who lights the darkness.

THUNDER

The lightning struck;
Terror spread
All over the city.
The rage of the cloud
Broken by the thunder storm.
Flashes and cracks of light depicts
A complete broken sky.

UNVOICED SCREAMS

In the darkest hour,
I lay awake.
Flashing memories and thoughts meet me,
They whisper melodious songs of heartbreak.
Scattered, broken, unfulfilled my dreams are,
My unceasing emptiness bounds me,
I have been strong for very long,
Now I cannot bear the sadness within me.
Despair and memories haunts me,
Telling me that we will not be together in this life,
I want to live another life with you.
All the promises I want to keep,
Life, with a bit of happiness, I want to seek.
Sadness ruptures from the depths of heart,
Not in this life, but another,
I want you to stay with me till the end.

AWAY

Walking alone in a desert,
Trembling and tripping but not stopping.
Lost and waiting to get out from this mirage of the oasis.

EMBRACE YOURSELF

My smile amuses all,
But I feel confused.
My grief traps me in a wall
And my heart is bruised.
I wish I could smile
amidst all my tears,

At least for a while
I could erase my fears.
One day, I want my smile to be the precious
It is with it that I look
Oh! So gracious.

BEHIND MY SMILE

Behind my smile, resides my broken self.
I am filled with regrets and guilt,
My smile is a disguise,
For others to believe it.
Behind my smile, are tears hidden,
They successfully deceive others.
Behind my smile are the days I suffered,
Mourning and spending sleepless nights,
Thinking about how worse it has been,
Despite I am scattered and hurt so bad,
The best I can give others is my smile.

PAIN WITHIN

When I am happy,
Everyone notices, that I am happy.
For some reason,
Whenever I cry,
There are only my tears and me.
Every one fails to see my pain, my sorrow,
Always I hope it will end and life will gift me a tomorrow.
No one sees me when I cry,
Because maybe I don’t cry aloud,
I cannot forget how hard I may try,
Those memories revolve and kill me from inside.
I laugh aloud,
Hoping that the pain I feel may heal.
Everyone see that I always laugh,
What do they know?
I also burst into tears.
I am also a human,
But maybe with a cold heart.

A BARREN LAND

I am abandoned and barren.
I simply exist and is of no use.
Twigs and trees withered away,
I am a land without rain.
My path is muddy,
No one comes my way,
I am left untrodden,
People shoo me away.
I am a land.
Unchosen and isolated.
Darkness is my faithful companion
And loneliness- my other half.
Not even trees see me worthy to grow upon
I feel so useless,
No traveller crosses my path
Are they so ruthless?
I exist since existence,
I feel I have no purpose.

I breathe in the essence,
Restlessness fades away.
Other than my tears,
I like raindrops on my face.
I look up the sky,
And open my arms to embrace it.
It makes me forget my sorrows for some time,
I feel alive to greet it.
Rain never fails to charm me,
It surrounds me within.
It fills my heart with happiness,
It is my faithful friend indeed.
The love and joy from it I receive,
The fragrance hold me its captive,
It arrives to see me suffering,
To hear my woeful songs,
It is rain who has been with me all along.

FRAGRANCE OF WORDS

Wrinkled, delicate, but most beautiful
The petals of a flower appear,
Soft as the touch of a wool
Flowers are always dear.
Trapped inside a book
One preserves them for remembrance,
Behold the beauty; have a look
Also, pleasing is its fragrance.
Many flowers, for different occasion
Symbolise death and also passion,
They bring joy to our hearts without any reason
Ever blooming they are, filled with compassion.
Detached from the stem, petals lay above,
Does one need a rose to express their love?

PETRICHOR

Green meadows and misty rain,
I wished I stayed there forever.
Everywhere greenery I see,
I felt solaced in that pleasant weather.
It made me happy from within,

The unforgettable fragrance of petrichor,
Oh! That earthly essence,
It made me lost in its presence.
It still makes me relieved,
Making me feel more pleasant.
Unforgettable are those sceneries,
I am living them in my memories,
Amazing was the experience,
To be surrounded by nature,
To be liberated from the glitches of pressure.

ANOTHER CHANCE

There she was adoring him,
Wanting to see him happy,
She wanted to erase all his pains.
And he was so stubborn,
He cried, but in front of her managed to keep a smile on his
face.
Him and his broken heart
She wanted to fix,
Wanted to see him happy once again,
She never bothered to be his next pick.
She smiled and laughed the brightest in front of him,

He too smiled but his eyes were dim,
Holding something in his hand he walked away looking at it,
She stood there alone thinking how to repair his broken strings,
She didn't give up and stood next to him,
Her faith of making him happy quivered,
She saw him shedding tears holding a ring.
She didn't want to make him alarmed,
Without letting him know she was gone,
She suffocated and suffered for every tear he sheds,
She was unaware of the facts which lay ahead.
He was broken but didn't want to let her know,
Why doesn't he express his feelings?
What is that he couldn't let go?
She shivered in cold that night,
Unaware that he was watching her,
Now she hid her tears and smiled in front of him,
She knew the pain of a broken heart
She suffered and so couldn't bear to see anyone else suffering.
That's why she wanted to see him happy,
That was the stop for her eternal journey.
He was broken too,
But neither of them didn't know.
His hands had the cuts of the blade
A girl left him,

He was scattered and was left alone.
He wished he died than to live in that pain,
She sighed and thought once she felt the same.
Both were a perfect match
Only if they could see,
They cared about each other
Forever they wanted to be.
Both were surprised for their past story they hold,
They realized it was gone in past and now they have to be bold.
Holding each other's hand,
She was in glee,
He smiled now how once she wanted him to be.
He felt warm by her care and concern
She felt relieved she could erase a person's pain,
She smiled seeing him smile once again.
He said her concern made him drawn towards her,
She is unique,
He felt thankful for that person who let her go,
She was happy for she has managed to mend his broken
strings,
She felt like the luckiest girl ever when he expressed his
feelings,
Their relationship of care and concern was the first stage of
love,
They felt they were on top of the world,
They felt so above.

They were happy only because they noticed a door of happiness,
Rather than to still mourn for their loss,
They had hope and gave love another chance.

MUSIC BOX

Oh! Such sweet music,
It is a musical doll,
But trapped in a box.

A BLANK LETTER

Sitting opposite to each other,
They sat together,
He held a letter in his hand,
They didn't know where their story would land.
She was eager to read the letter,
She was excited,
To see what that letter held,
He sat there patiently,
Adoring the beauty she beholds.
He gave the letter to her,
And ended her curiosity,

She was shocked to find,
There was nothing she could see.
In a surprise, she looked at him,
And he replied, 'That's my life without you'
She was amazed and happy,
Her feelings she couldn't control,
Seeing her happy he was consoled.
'My life is a blank letter without you,
I want to fill the days together,
Whenever you are not around that's how I feel without you,
You are my sunshine in the dark weather.
You are my words, my feelings,
Oh! Darling, you are my poetry.
Whenever I meet you,
You blind me with your beauty,
And leave me speechless
Creating a cause to leave the letter empty'
She smiled, she shed a tear,
She preserved the letter forever,
She engraved his words in her heart,
She wished they never get apart.

MY VIEWS ON LOVE

There was something I began to miss,
It remained just some things,
Because there were many things I missed.
Lots of things I got to say,
But got no shoulder to lay.
My feelings remained till myself,
Because there's no one who can understand me my way.
People say love till you live,
I think they don't know;
You daily die, if you love, till you live.
Rather be loved, instead of loving;
Because you gain love, instead of giving.
Lucky are those who find someone
Who be loved, however, they are,
They feel they are together;
Even if they are far.
Find someone who loves you for who you are,
Search for a pretty heart, instead of a pretty face.
It is the morals of a person which remains,
Sometimes a pretty face may lead to disgrace.
Look for the nature of a person, not looks,
Because if you love a person for its nature,
Love is what, you retain.

LET ME KNOW

Just tell me, you love rains;
I'll take you to a waterfall.
Just tell me you like roses,
I'll get you a bouquet.
Just tell me you love chocolates,
I'll own a factory,
Just tell me that you love me,
I'll get all of them...Every day.

SEASHORE

We were near the seashore,
Looking at the setting sun,
Waiting for light rain,
And lots of fun.
You stood behind me,
While I searched for you,
And when I turned around,
I could see stars few,
You suddenly held my hand

And said that you love me,
Then, I looked in your eyes
And said I know it already.
In that dark night, your smile-
was the brightest which you gave me,
I know that was so good,
As ours is a true love story.
Then felt like God heard our silent wish,
Because it rained.
It was the best fun to get wet,
Some day I will make it true and live it again.

CUPID'S ARROW

The world is in an illusion that
A cupid's arrow sows pleasant feelings of love in one's heart.
The feeling of love is enchanting,
But the scar of pierced arrow remains in your heart forever.
All it takes is an arrow to strike love in your heart they say,
The venom of love then enters the innocent soul and then starts
the raging fire.
Love ignited from both souls, is a true bliss.
Then comes the tantrums, doubts and insecurities.
Love flies on the feathers of a flying kiss.

Unrequited love is hard to deal,
Feelings of love in one's heart is hard to seal.
The pain of the pierced arrow is now to be felt,
Let it be admiration of values of a person to bring the feelings
of love,
Not an arrow.
Love brings a hundred days of happiness
And a thousand days of sadness.
Now the arrow of love strikes deeper,
Pain turns to torture,
It all starts with an arrow,
Today's joy and peace is stolen
With no hope to live tomorrow.

UNHAPPILY EVER AFTER

Why is that every boy who loves truly
Finds a girl who doesn't value his love?
Why is that every girl who loves faithfully
Finds a boy who shows no respect for her love?
Why is that when both love each other truly
The world doesn't allow them to be;
Suppressed by the domination of helplessness
They stay apart and live unhappily.

ONLY YOU

Days I spent with you are like the days of spring,
When I was separated from you,
The sky cried along with me.
I am living a wretched life without you,
I am cold and dead,
It's like winter forever.
I want you to thaw me,
Tell me you will stay with me forever,
It is only you my mum,
Only you can change my winter to summer.
Hold my hand,
Blossom love in my heart,
Show me you still care.
Change back the winter to spring,
Only you can do that,
I don't know what tomorrow will bring.
You are as pleasing as spring,
Your rage is summer blaze,
Now, you too feel cold like winter,
When I am away from you,
My eyes are like rain.

DAYS OF HAPPINESS

As I watch the kids playing out,
I observe and notice the smile on their faces,
I wish they be happy forever,
I wish they stay joyful in every time of their phase.
I wish no sadness touch their lives,
I wish they shine forever.
It is the most beautiful time in one's life one would say,
It's the time of their childhood.
There is something unique about kids which draw my attention
towards them,
I hate when they annoy me,
But yet they make me happy from a distance.
I wish they remain happy forever,
I wish I stay happy in my reminiscence.

CHILDHOOD

I miss those days when my tears stopped abruptly
When I was handed a chocolate bar,
Nothing was as soothing as licking ice creams and sleeping in a
moving car.

Where are those days?
Where are they gone?
It seems that I grew up,
And now I have to be strong.
Broken crayons made me cry a thousand tears,
And now it's much worse,
Where are those days?
Where are they gone?
It seems that I grew up,
Now, this is where I belong.
There were many to look after me,
I was never alone with my toys,
Today, it seems a mystery to find a single joy.
Broken toys were easy to fix,
Rather than broken hearts.
My childhood is over,
Now, this is where my story starts.
Where are those days?
Where are they gone?
They are now a memory in my mind which I have to get along.
Floating bubbles were so much fun,
And also those ping pong balls,
They rose so high,
Making me feel higher.

I would startle at the burst of a balloon
And then I would cry,
My tears stopped abruptly,
When I was handed another toy.
It was nice being a kid,
Why did we ever grow up?
We had so much fun,
Now why we just want to give up?
Hold on, live like you are young,
Live in the memories of your childhood,
Sing those songs you left unsung.

MUM

I understand everyone shares a different story,
I can feel the pain one suffers,
Life can be easier if one neglects worries.
But my mind revolves around memories and I make my life
tougher.
Each time I see a kid with its mother,
My heart whispers a question to me,
'Did your mum ever look after you like this?'
I become speechless and say 'I don't remember'
You are so far away,

How you are - I have no clue,
I wish you were with me,
What was my fault for which I lost you?
Oh! Mum, I feel forlorn,
Come and console me,
I weep like a child,
Come and heal me.
My life is incomplete without your presence,
I have no hope that I may be with you.
I smile but I cry tears in your absence,
Your love and concern in my life remains due.

LIFE WITHOUT YOU

You were gone leaving my heart wrenched,
My childhood with you I could not sketch.
My little hands couldn't stop you from leaving,
You are gone mother, still, I feel I am dreaming,
My innocent face you ignored and went away,
Why did you leave me?
I know you wanted to stay.
My tears were easily ignored by you,
You don't know how I am living without you,
I wish I had a perfect childhood,

But my life was filled with tragedies,
I want to bring you back,
But I cannot,
You wanted me,
Don't tell me you did not.
Was there any sign of sadness when you left?
Or were you happy?
I am so restless to see you mother,
Feels like being your daughter is a tragedy.
What was my fault for which I lost you?
Couldn't this life be renewed?
You gave me this life mother,
But without you in this pain, I wither.
Every time when I look in the mirror,
My reflection looks like it's you,
And when my hand reaches to touch,
I realise you are not here,
Happiness for every one you are,
But you are my tear,
Everyone is so close to their mothers,
But you are not here.

EXISTENCE

I am not living,
There is just my presence here,
Now, I just exist.

YOU WERE THERE

I like to see you in my dreams,
At least there I meet you,
I wonder you miss me like I miss you,
I am lying here wide awake shedding tears,
I wonder you are sleepless there and missing me the same way,
I am all alone, come and hold me tight in your arms mother,
I want to see you again in my dreams tonight.
I remember the dream of yesterday,
I couldn't believe that you were there,
I hugged you and cried in your arms,
And now you leave me scattered today.
I can't sleep, come and whisper those lullabies to me,
I weep like a child, come and comfort me.
All I want is you, mother,

Only you can brighten my life,
I see no way to see you,
Please put an end to this unbearable strife.

YOUR EXISTENCE

You are miles far from me, we have to be this way.
Situation was such we had to be away,
You are my mother, that's all I can say,
I miss you more today as it is your birthday.
I know not how you are,
I am yours yet you are far,
You left, leaving me with a scar,
And cause me to struggle in a never-ending war.
All I pray that every happiness finds you,
And give you a chance to be renewed,
I can never understand the pain you have gone through,
Being far away, all I can do is wish you.

LIVING WITHOUT YOU

I wish I could see you,
I wish I could meet you.

Every time I weep in memories of you.
I know my words can’t reach you as you are miles away.
You don’t know how I feel,
I wish I could hold you in my arms
And cry the loudest on your lap.
I wish you were here along with me;
Every day, every time.
Whenever I return back home,
I wish you be waiting for me with a smile,
Whenever, I do not speak and feel low,
I wish you had been beside me. Every time.
I wish you were here to wipe my tears,
I wish you were here to help me overcome my fears.
If you’d be here,
I would be the happiest,
A strong daughter of yours,
I would feel complete,
I would be confident.
But now without you,
I feel broken and drifted apart.
I am scattered in pieces,
Each day I spend so hard.
My happiness has gone along with you.
My life is incomplete without you.

I wish I could have you back,
Now it’s just impossible;
There are lots of things I want to say,
So many years have gone by,
And my tears have dried away.

DESPAIR

The more you laugh,
The more you cry,
I am fed up,
I am sinking in sadness,
No matter how hard I may try.
Neither I have strength to cry,
Nor I have the courage to smile.
Seeing everyone happy makes me hurt,
Unable to see myself among them,
My tears never leave me,
They are my precious gem.
It even hurts when I close my eyes,
There is no one to console me,
Or to hear my silent cries.
I have no words to express how I feel,
In this eternal sadness forever I deal.

There is no feeling in me which seems real,
There is nothing in me which can be healed.

PEOPLE AND PLACES

There are places I've been to,
There are scenes I have seen,
Time is never still and enough,
To go back to places I've been.
Sometimes I wonder,
Where are those kids I saw on the way?
I can never see them as they are miles away.
What about those faces I saw smiling?
Are they still happy in the lives they are living?
What about those I saw suffering?
Did they find out their purpose of living?
What about the people I saw sitting alone?
I cannot know,
A bitter truth it remains,
To never see them and not to meet them again.
One can go back to those places they have been,
But cannot meet those people they have once seen.

When you travel and meet people, don't you wish to see them
again?
Do you long to go again to the places you've been?

GONE ARE THE DAYS

For too long my eyes have waited for you glance,
For too long I have waited to meet,
For too long I remembered the words to tell you,
For too long I have dwelt in memories.
If only I saw you, I would say,
If only we could meet,
If only we had some time,
If only we could stay.
I have regretted,
I have missed,
I have sinked deep,
I have weeped.
Now I don't wish I had you,
Now I don't want to repeat,
Now I don't want to think about,

Now I don't want to grieve.
Now for too long I have loved,
If only you cared,
Now I don't want you,
Let my life be unrepaired.
With you being away,
I have learnt; I have grown,
Grateful to all those
Who held me while you were gone.
You gave me birth
And left me for others to bear.
I do not love you,
It is the relation I love,
I do not want you,
Gone are those days.

STAY

In another life,
I will stay,
I am sorry my mum,
I had to go away.
I cannot forget your pleads,

How you begged me to stay with you,
I am helpless,
I cannot be with and without you.
I understand if you cannot forgive me,
I had no other way,
I am not so privileged to hear for the last time
What you have got to say.
I pray to be with you in heaven,
At least there I want my wish to be fulfilled,
Not in this life but another,
I will stay.
Please understand the situation,
For which I am gone,
Not in this life but another,
I will stay with you for long.
I am helpless,
I have no other option,
My words have no meaning
Without the pain of losing you.

I am sorry my mother,
I am going away,
With you is the only place
Where I cannot stay.
Forgive me, for I had to go,
Understand my situation,
This is life I feel,
With all serious complications.
My heart is heavy in your love,
Still, I feel empty inside.
It was with you that I felt above,
Before dying, I have already died.

A PLEASANT MORNING

The nature has awoken;
And so have I
My dreams have broken
And here I lie.
The night has end giving me a warning,
It invited me to admire this pleasant morning.

Golden ray of sunshine,
So warm and tender.
Kissed the dew drops and the grass,
Into morning sunrise surrenders.
Flight of colourful butterflies,
So light and enchanting.
Absorbed the aroma of the flowers,
Diffused the scent in this morning.
Chirping of birds,
So melodious and soothing.
It compels me to wake up
To admire this alluring morning.
Sunshine finds its way towards me,
Colourful butterflies touch me,
The birds sings in my ears,
It is nature that I hold dear.

RAINY NIGHT

This rainy night makes me cold,
It makes me feel numb and weak.
My smile is gone and sadness beholds,
Only some happiness is what I seek.
My world has drifted apart from me,
And I am trapped in my own isolation.
Their actions have made me this person;
I forgot whom I used to be,
I have no joy and they tell,
I am the cause for my own destruction.

LIVELY DEATH

I see fog everywhere,
It resembles my confused mind,
I am standing on a cliff,
Still I don't feel high.
You are along with me crossing the bridge,
On these high and risky mountain cliffs.
I may lose you I fear,
I am glad you are here,
The cold wind shivers me,

Still I can't feel that warmth of you being near me.
I may lose you while crossing the path,
We took this risk to prove our love,
I look at you, I shed a tear,
This is not about facing our fears.
Time is little and here we stand,
I jumped down the cliff holding your hand.
Now I don't fear losing you,
I am sorry I couldn't survive being away from you,
I am sorry that I didn't let you live,
Here we are, falling down the cliff.
I am glad I loved you till the end,
At last, I became weak to bear life's bend,
Again I feel solaced in presence of nature,
I feel happy we die seeing each other.
Maybe we will be happy then,
After we die till the very end.
Because I can’t live without you.

MOTHER

I silently, secretly weep a tear.
I wish you were always here.
In this terrible pain, I wither.

I want to be close to you, very near.
The distance between us became my new fear.
I want to live a life along with you in cheer.
I know, for you I am always dear.
My screams and shouts you could never hear.
I am miserable, as you are not here.
Oh! I truly miss you mother,
I will always love you forever.

DEEPEST DESIRE

I feel like a child, because when I return home;
I want you to hear all my stories.
I always wanted to light up your world with fame and glory.
All this will be an imagination mother,
As for me, you are a mere memory.
I want to cry the loudest on your lap,
I want to beg forgiveness for the pain and tears I have given
you.
I want to change my past,
But, I wish I could.
I want to hold your head up high,
You were the one I could call mine.
I am so far away from you.

I can just hope that you are fine.
I want to tell you everything,
I want to show you how bitterly I cry.
Now you just can't console me, mother.
Years have gone by,
Now it’s too late,
I have just realised now,
And today I accept my fate.

STAR

In the dark sky, there was a star,
Looked near but yet so far.
Seen by all, wanted by few
People say, you see that daily. What’s new?
Looking at stars says something
For me, that's a presence of missing.
So, that's why I ask myself, "Whom do I miss?"
My heart knows it and yet it questions,
It is my mother whom it misses.
It’s such a pretty sight to look at stars,
Would you care to have a look at your star, mother?
My life is empty without you,
Like a night without any star.

A STAR AMONG MANY

I was a star for my parents,
They named me one.
I brought light to their lives
I felt warm with them; they are my sun.
I lost the major ray of sunshine,
She was my mum.
She drifted away from me,
Every day was a light year
And my life a black hole.
My starlight has lost the source to reflect,
I, a star wishes to see a star,
Waiting for a falling star to wish upon,
My wish is fulfilled when the comet falls.
For I hope my mother will fall for me as a shooting star.
I wish that my life is filled with galaxy of happiness,
In which a tiny star I remain.

MORNING STAR

She hides her pain really well,
When her happiness turns to sadness you can never tell.
She has seen worse days,
Her life changed her mind in a state of haze.
She lost all her hope,
Her extreme emotions she couldn't cope,
She was left alone all by herself,
No one knows her than my own self,
She suffered in silence,
There was no one for her guidance,
She was blamed by all,
She blamed herself for her fall.
She was dead inside,
She felt alone to have no one by her side.
She has spent miserable days,
Till today she seeks a perfect place.
Every good thing in her was forgotten,
Even she forgot them,
She started to hate herself,
In her melancholy, she was engulfed.
Her smile is lost,
Her heart is still covered in frost,

Her life is messed and shabby,
She just wants to be happy.
She still hopes for the better days,
She hopes she will fit in a perfect place.
She smiles even when her heart is in scars,
Each day she rises up in hope;
For her name means morning star.

WRITERS’ DELIGHT

Every time when I am trapped in my loneliness,
My emotions I write,
When there is no one to comfort me,
My words solace me and stand by my side,
A moment of joy I gain,
When I complete writing,
Words are a writer's best companion,
In time of happiness and darkness,
Words create music in a writer's mind,
Their words flow on paper,
Like the wind flows and glides a wind chime.
Words of wisdom enlighten us,
Words of praise amuse us,
Words can make us happy and also can break us.

Such powerful are words,
Make sure to use them wisely,
Words are what which makes a poem shine brightly.
Since these years I've realised,
Words made me gain confidence in myself,
They have shown me a path of light,
I follow this path to make my future bright,
I am lost immensely when I write,
Oh! What can I say?
Words are a profound delight.

GIFTED WORDS

When I was suffering,
When I had no one by my side,
When I was silently screaming,
When I just wanted to hide,
I was gifted with words,
With so many thoughts in my mind.
When I wanted to end my life,
When loneliness surrounded me,
When I saw no cure for my strife,
When I didn't want myself to live,
That's when I weaved my feelings into words,

That's when I rose up conquering the floods.
When I had no hope of meeting you,
When I was sure I am no good,
I gathered courage and consoled myself,
I was stronger than before,
Because I had words to express myself.

I LIFT MY PEN AND WRITE
AGAIN

Hiding my emotions under a smile, in vain.
You disappeared from my life, leaving me plain.
I cannot elucidate my feelings, I am in pain.
I want to lift my pen and write again.
You were my sunshine like a glow,
You were like warmth, in winter snow,
Your love and concern, I cannot forgo,
I am tired hiding my pain, tears flow.
You were what I wrote about,
You and your love I couldn't doubt,
All alone by myself; got nothing to lose or gain,
Once again, stranded alone in your thoughts
I lift my pen and write again.
I let myself loose now,

I am living in this torment, only I know how.
Separated myself from others, my emotions are suppressed,
I want to spend an entire life with you,
That's my only request.
I want to be happy; to let my emotions drain,
I cry tears and with a smile
I lift my pen and write again.

WOUNDED HEART

I feel I need to learn again,
The art of keeping time.
I feel there are many things to learn,
Like letting go what's mine.
Cultivating the seeds of time,
And altering the present.
I know it's difficult to change the time,
My tears flow for sincere repent.
Time is never still,
You and I are temporary,
I know what it feels to go against one's will,
It's not your fault please don't feel sorry.
All I say myself is to accept the fact that we cannot be together,
We are now broken clocks,

That cannot be mended.
We are broken pieces of time,
There lies no chance for us,
We are broken hearts,
There is nothing which can heal us.

PRIZED POSSESSION

Bunch of flowers withered with time,
I have lost that which once was mine.
I fall deep down in the ocean waiting to be found,
My heart is heavy and my happiness is bound.
My eyes are tired shedding tears for you,
My state of constrain you never knew.
I know you love me truly,
It is a fact that I will forever remain yours only.
I fear I am the cause for our destruction,
There is nothing that can provide me satisfaction,
You are what I want,
I am fed up hearing taunts.
I am filled with rage and aggression,
All the sorrows of mine sink me into depression.
Time we spent together,
Remains memories of a broken feather.

There is no option for us,
Nothing persists now like it was.
True love will it forever remain?
An entire life with you will I attain?
Till my last breath our love I will endure
I need your concern and love to feel assured,
Heal away my sorrows, lessen the separation
Do you love me?
Am I your prized possession?

TRAPPED IN TORMENT

These four walls witness my pain,
In which I shut myself in,
Tears flow and I am submerged deep in my thoughts,
Even my numb heart can feel the pain within.
My heart is heavy, even my breathing echoes,
I feel the chills as my tears flow.
I shiver, I writhe in pain.
Reason for which I cry doesn’t hurt me,
But knowing that I have no one by my side hurts me the most.
I just want that person to be on my side with whom I am so
close.
In this longing pain each day deeply I dive,

Writing how I feel and expressing myself has kept me alive.
I am dead inside seeking for happiness,
I have no hope,
My heart sinks into sadness.
Forgetting those memories which I ought to remember,
They are flashing in front of my eyes,
Not allowing me to sink in slumber.
I am wide awake,
Longing to feel warmth from one's care and concern,
Oh! I am so restless and miserable,
For a bit of happiness, I yearn.

BLANK PAGES

Pages I leave blank,
Which shows the state of my mind.
Words I leave unsaid,
Knowing that once I say,
It might hurt someone.
My heart is heavy,
With the weight of your feelings.
My eyes are in tears,
Knowing that you are not here.
My soul is crushed and alone,

It haunts my emotions,
Plays with my feelings,
And confuses my mind.
But my soul stays with me when I am alone,
It doesn't let me die,
Giving me hope that tomorrow will be better.

MY DEAREST FATHER

I have written several things for my mother,
I equally admire and love you more than her father.
I am not afraid to unveil my past,
Oh! Father your place in my heart is vast.
I had no mother since years,
She left me and I was in tears.
You were the one who took care of me, father,
You turned all my tears to laughter.
Every night I woke you up,
But you never said anything to me.
Every day I created fuss,
But you bared all my tantrums with ease.
No one can take that place you have inside my heart.
I have loved you from the very start.
I cannot imagine being away from you,

I have not loved anyone else more than you.
I lack words to say what all you have ever done for me,
You were my mother too,
You took care of me like she would do.
But she was not with me,
You have filled her love by loving me from her side too.
I always want to see you happy,
No one can ever do what you have done for me,
You are the best in the world,
You are best in the whole history.
I am sorry for every pain I have caused you,
I am in tears father,
I cannot imagine losing you.

SOMETIMES

Sometimes we let go the things we love,
We do mistakes, we fall, we lie above.
Sometimes we try hard to make life perfect,
We realise, we apologize; after we regret.
Sometimes we feel life will fall into place,
We try harder than we could, just to catch the pace.
Sometimes we are helpless and tired of trying,

We sit back and hope, life will be worth living before dying.
Sometimes we smile when we are dead inside,
We force it, which leads to a misguide.
Sometimes we are fed up and want all this to end,
We break the barriers and become weak to bear life's bend.
Sometimes we want things so badly,
We make an effort to achieve it exactly.
Sometimes we are left with unaccomplished dreams,
We lay emotionless in tears with silent screams.

LIFE'S STRUGGLE

Under the shady tree, I sat wondering,
What it would be like to fly like birds,
I feel so hurt when I see people with no freedom.
I see a child with her mother,
I feel so hurt thinking about those who have no one.
Places are the same with different people,
Life is the same but has different emotions.
This life is cruel and meaningless to some,
While for some they want to live it again.
Life is a blessing, not a curse,

So stop living life in remorse.
It is pitiful to know time has gone in regret,
There is always a rising sun after every sunset.
Wait for your day to come,
Strive hard to achieve,
Because that's life, it involves struggles,
It is too short to stay in grief.

SILENCED SCULPTURES

Inanimate structures of stone,
Forever stranded left alone.
Standing for centuries so long,
Everyone ignores and gets along.
Two sculptures stood together,
Stayed united in severe weather.
A boy stood admiring the girl,
Her blush, Oh! So easy to be seen;
Even when her skin is coloured pearl.
Lifeless they were, they started speaking,
To live a life, they started believing.

Passionately in love they always stayed,
Only for each other they were made.
Becoming lively, their hearts beat,
Being so close, they never met.
Their hearts spoke words of love,
They felt high, so above.
A day of winter came,
When her place didn't remain the same.
She was separated from her lovers' gaze,
He spent months in a daze.
Thunder were his shouts,
Their love was true, no doubt.
Rain drenched him over,
He regretted not being with her closer.
Tears were easy to be seen despite the rain,
His heart was unable to be healed from the tormenting pain.
She was the one who made him feel alive,
No one resembled her, none alike.

A weeping angel he became,
His love for her he couldn't acclaim.
Better are statues with a loving heart,
Than the humans with a heart so hard.

PLEADS OF NATURE

Look closely,
Dews of a plant are tears pleading us to keep them alive.
Observe,
The sun burning furiously over us.
Behold,
The sight of rain washing our shelter.
Be afraid,
Of the thunder as it rages upon us.
It is now that nature screams for attention,
But we turn a blind eye,
Only after we lose it,
We will realise its value.
The soil lost its essence
Because of the sediments of pollutants on it.
Greenery lost its enchantment,

Fog turned to smog,
We built houses among the trees
Now we plant them among the buildings
We uproot plants to establish a plant
We call ourselves humans?
Show some humanity towards nature then.
It takes months for a sapling to grow into a tree,
But less than an hour to chop it down,
Think for once how you'd feel,
When a thing you value most would be gone.
Humans- creator of all the problems on earth,
Forgot that we belong to it.
We, the masters of nations,
Are also are the destructors of planet.
We want to be remembered to set a mark,
We will surely be remembered to cause harm
Not only towards our fellow beings,
But also towards nature.
One day, we will look back and realise
How better it was without us.

PLANET WE LIVE IN

What will it be like to travel to another world?
Will there be life, plants and seasons?
What if you are the only person living there?
How would you spend your life when there is no one to share?
What if you be a pioneer to that planet?
Will you live happily then, thinking you own the world?
It is always good to have a company don't you think?
Then why people build up walls and separate themselves from
the world?
Why do people want to be famous?
And the world they want to own,
You can leave an impression in this world,
If you do good deeds enough to help the needy.
What is the use to store in lots of money that you can't even
keep a count of it?
Tell me, who has become ever successful if he is greedy?
What is wrong with the world we are living in?
What is the use to suffer if you can't change a thing?

HUMANITY IS ABOVE THAN
ALL THE RICHES

Humanity is greater than all the divisions,
We all belong to same earth,
There should be no discrimination or separation.
Each of us has our own worth.
We all are humans,
Separated by divisions,
There is humanity in us,
We all have equal strength nor more or less,
Faith, beliefs and cultures,
Are different and should be respected,
Care and concern in our hearts should be nurtured,
This is life...Nothing can be expected.
Borders and states are just divisions,
Peace lies within each one of us,
There is life above all the riches,
There is peace,
Only when you are kind and concerned,
And realise humanity is above all the riches.

DISTRACTION

Got something to read,
But I got distracted by a bird,
Searching for a place to build its shelter,
It arrived at my abode.
I couldn't help but look at its movements,
I felt the joy in its singing.
I and the bird were alone,
I looked at it,
And it looked at me,
The place was quiet and cold,
Adoring the little black bird became a pleasant memory.
Early morning passed by,
And the construction started,
The noises were loud,
It silenced the bird's chirping,
And it departed.

NOT MYSELF ANYMORE

I have no control over my feelings tonight,
They are flowing like falling rain,
I have so much to say,

I am living in agony and pain.
I have no control over my constant pain of missing you,
You cannot wonder how I am living without you.
No word I find accurate enough to depict how I feel,
There is no cure for my pain,
There is nothing which can be healed.
I cannot be away from you,
Without you, there is no glee,
There are tears behind my smile,
I am not that person anymore whom I used to be.

UNACCOMPLISHED DREAM

I am still in that longing pain in which you left me in,
I cry, I smile just to hide the pain within.
I am broken, drifted apart and my every dream is scattered.
You wouldn't believe if I told you
That you were the only one who mattered.
You don't know how hard my days were,
You never noticed my tears and screams,
So many years have gone by,
Today, it all seems like an unaccomplished dream.

DESPONDENT

I was wandering at night,
Thinking how you would be.
So many days have gone,
"Did you forget?”
My mum would ask me.
Don't you know? My words can't reach you.
I feel scattered,
Every day a bit more;
I feel like a cold broken glass you know.

COMPLAINTS AND COMPARISON

How pleasing is the moon,
While the sun burns heavily.
How beautiful are the flowers,
Oh! But the thorns prick me.
Look at the stars,
I wish they were found near the seas,
He seems to be an independent person,
But my conscience tells me he is a vagrant.
Rose is pleasing to look at,

I wish it never loses its fragrance.
I want to bring the stars for you,
But damn, they are far.
Oh! People, stop complaining and judging,
Learn to accept things as they are.
"Look at her, she is good at everything and look at yourself"
People tell you this, but don't you bother,
Understand that people are foolish when they compare you
with others.

SILENCE

Endless thoughts are running in my mind,
There is no happiness I find.
There is sadness everywhere,
There is the silence of sadness and despair.
I roamed places in search of happiness,
I saw people lacked their basic need,
I realised there are also people who are filled with greed.
Those people lived simply, their smiles ceased.
There was misery everywhere,
There was the silence of sadness and despair.
I looked at the couples,
They were happy at that moment and got separated at next,

I guessed they would be together forever,
But they say it was for the best.
There was silence among the two,
There was the silence of sadness and despair.
Mistakes and apologies,
Regrets, guilt and pain,
How much more is left to suffer?
There is silence at the peak of mountain,
It resembles my peak of suffering,
There is silence in the depths of sea,
Which is like my depths of regret.
There is silence in the midst of forests,
There is silence after regret and guilt,
There is silence after unspoken truth,
There is silence after spoken lie,
There is silence after loss of a beloved one,
There is silence in me,
There is silence everywhere,
This is the silence of sadness and despair.

PAPER BOAT

Setting out on a journey,
A Long way I have to go.

For I am a paper boat,
Floating in the stream of darkness.
Eager and curious for the destiny to unfold,
I am all stiff in pride,
For I am a paper boat,
I am setting out for a ride.
Cold wind pushes me hard to move forward,
And I wait for someone to notice me,
I feel like I am invisible,
Only this stream around me I see.
Drenched in my own feelings,
I float along the stream,
Trembling and falling but I move along with the wind.
The words in me are fading,
For it is a message to the one who notices me,
Gliding across the way,
I was unnoticed but existed among them.
My pride is gone,
I am no more stiff,
I am dripping wet and the rain drowns me,
Finally, I am noticed after a long journey.
But when I am picked up to read,
My words are blurred and I am not what I used to be.
I am now a mere piece of paper,

Drenched in the rain and utterly useless,
I am torn and ruined being all by myself.
I lay down there thinking,
When I was in my true form I had no one to notice,
When I am at my worst I am blamed and lying unnoticed.

DEAD-ALIVE

One day, I would be on the ground,
Like a faded fallen leaf,
I would be buried,
Bringing an end to all my griefs.
I feel sorrowful,
When I would leave all my loved ones,
I would be gone,
Leaving them in woe and tears.
Will they miss me then?
Will they know my value?
Will they realise I was good?
Or will they forget me saying I am gone?
It's an eternal truth,
Death is what will part us,

I cannot even hide my tears from myself,
I am alive today,
But being away from you is death itself.

ALL OVER AGAIN

Another time, another heartbreak;
I feel I deserve it all.
I chose to be with you for your sake,
You made me up, you brought me to a fall.
You simply vanished from my life,
You rose me up, you broke me down.
Across the fields, like a river
I wanted to stay with you forever.
You sank me down, drowned me till I shivered.
It feels so cold; I've to be bold
Till I recover.
All over it happened,
All over yet again.
You showed me life,
A perfect one, with you and me together.
You brought a smile, left me to feel pain forever.
My nature all sulky, my life so sombre,
You made me believe I was good.

Then you decided to leave
I feel so high in pain,
My head is up in shame
Knowing I was foolish again.
I feel deceived by my deeds,
Which I thought it wouldn't be forgotten.
You built me up, you broke me down
Like I was a playing tower.
Across the seas, like a gentle breeze,
I wanted to stay with you forever.
Held by the things you told me,
Broken down by your audacity,
For me, you were the one,
Whom I trusted with my life,
Never knew you would let me down,
When I felt like a flying kite.

WHEN IT RAINS

Look, how gently the rain falls
Merrily falling creating crystal bubbles.
Chilly wind makes me shiver
And the voice of rain soothes me to sleep.
The essence of petrichor relieves me,
All this is a delight and bliss.
Still, it is hard to accept the fact
Of you being away,
Sky cries along with me
And there is no more happiness.
Water of the sky cannot fill the emptiness inside me,
I am alone looking at the waterfall,
I cry and rain cries along,
Rain and I are together,
Here we belong.
Volume of cloud being burdened with rain
Is nothing compared to my heavy heart
It is rain who has cried along with me since the start.

CHILLY RAINY NIGHT

In this cold and chilly dark night,
The shower of ice cold water
Splashes on my heart,
And evokes those harsh and heart wrenching feelings,
For once which I tried to forget.
Healing wounds have just now been freshened
With the raindrops on my heart.
I can't control myself and has to go with the flow of rain.
It seems that I have to once again bear all that terrible pain.
The pain of being away from you,
It hurts me so much,
When I recall those days,
When in such rainy days I met you.
That pain disturbs me
So much that this very instant
I want to be with you.
I know not how many more chilly rainy nights
I have to spend away from you.
I feel you have no such passion to feel the rain,
Trust me, it gives me hope that only after the drop of rain has
fallen it is useful.
So, I believe I will live only after I fall,
But I have fallen,

Then when shall I rise?
This rain which always gave me hope and happiness,
Today, why is it a sign of demise?

TO LIFE

I will smile even when you are giving me a thousand reasons to
cry,
I will be fair with you- my life,
Even though you were so unfair to me.
I will not be the way you had been with me,
Because I want to be remembered as the one
Who smiled in spite all of her griefs.
I want to be remembered as the one
Who kept on repeating her mistakes and never failed to admit
them.
I want to be remembered as the one
Who had endless hope and her expectations ruined her,
You had crushed me and choked me to death,
I am a little distance away from dying,
But you are so cruel,
You take away the lives of others who are happy in their lives,
You steal the breath of those who struggle to be alive,
And don't grant death to those who don't want to live.
You are a bitter truth,

Now death seems a beautiful lie,
But you are still so cruel to give me hope that tomorrow will be
better,
Since all these years I've lost and been hurt,
You have kept me trapped,
I hate the sunshine and another day,
That couldn't bring brightness in my life.
Each day I am struggling,
Life is sustaining me even when I don't want to be alive.
I believe life is meaningful and worthy,
But why don't I get what I have loved?

MY SITUATION

This is one of those dark nights,
I wish you were here by my side,
I cannot control myself,
My feelings I cannot hide.
I am drowned in tears and my smile is gone,
I never knew my opinion on love could be wrong,
I know not the happiness in love,
When will I get the things I deserve?
Please don't force me to be the person I am not,
My love remains unchanged

I still love you a lot.
I am missing you so much,
I cannot sink in slumber,
Oh! Please make some time for me,
Don't make me lose my temper.
Being away from you is making me the person I am not,
I am losing my hope and faith,
My mind is confused with thoughts.

BLESSING AND A LESSON

I needed you so bad,
I wanted to meet you,
But I was not your priority.
I wanted to forget you,
I gathered courage within myself and I did,
I distanced myself from you,
But you never did.
My heart throbbed in pain
When I was away from you,
My eyes poured rain
When I couldn't see a future for us.
I missed you and knew that you did too,
Nights, I spent sleepless,

Thinking you spent the same way,
It took me time,
To move on,
I gathered courage and I did.
One fine day,
You appeared,
I couldn't meet your eyes,
And my heart whispered 'too late'
I struggled,
I was restless,
You lived,
While I felt breathless,
I wanted to die,
You wanted me to live a life along with you,
I cried,
You suffered in silence,
I died,
Because of the situations.
I became weak,
You were my only strength,
As you were gone,
I learnt how to be independent.
One fine day, you came.

My heart skipped a beat,
I wanted to end the blame game.
You asked for a chance,
But now I wasn't the same.
You suffered,
My eyes shed tears,
You were helpless,
I felt the same too,
You came,
When I wanted to leave,
I felt bad, a chance, I couldn't give,
All the promises, all the believes,
Came to an end and I feel deceived.
Mother’s love, I couldn't receive
And I am left here in tormented memories, to grieve.

HAPPY BEING SAD

Feeling empty and crazy,
No future for us I see,
I am happy and sad at the same time,
But still waiting for us to be.
I cry in pain and smile in memories of you,
Time brought us together,

And also separated us.
I am happy being sad I say,
Because there's no fear which can keep me away.
I am happy being sad,
Because no more pain can kill me,
I have faced my biggest fears,
I have struggled to smile amidst my tears.
I am happy being sad,
Because it has become a part of me,
Sadness is my new sunshine, forever it will be.
I am happy being sad,
Even if pain kills me,
I am happy being sad,
Also when my dreams have scattered and my life turned
against me.

UNDISTURBED

Curled up, brittle, faded fallen leaves
Lying peacefully unnoticed on the floor.
The sun rays hit the dusty tree
Rooted upright on a barren land.
Dried soil, thirsty earth
Waiting for the shower of rain.

The first drop meets the ground
Essence of petrichor diffused
Water splashes on the tree
Erasing the dust.
Leaves, drenched in water
Feel refreshed.
Stationary scene back in movement
With the downpour of rain.
Life back in action after a long pause
Like the change in nature
Everything at place after a chase,
Patience is what it takes.

FISH BOWL

O' beauty of my bowl,
Do you like living there?
O' you tiny soul,
If you don't want to stay; break away.
O' little fish gliding in exuberance,
How do you live happily?
O' small life of innocence,
Teach me your way.

O' fragile fish, you capture my attention,
Doesn't your beauty fade away?
O' fish of my admiration,
There is nothing less about you to say.
O' joyful soul; mini delight,
Why are you going away?
O' pleasure of my sight,
Guide me thy way.

GOLDEN FORTUNE

Lustrous eyes and luminous face
Her eyes reflected greed and mouth watered for more
Rich, so rich her greed made her
Nothing was left on earth that she couldn't own.
Wrapped in silk with gold and crystals
Wealthy she was; wealthier was her greed.
Rubies and emeralds; all precious stones
Served on silver platter to quench her thirst.
Craving for more; greed to acquire

Sinful she became showing off the shiny treasures
Chest of pearls and diamonds
All the treasures she hold so dear.
Drowned in possession,
Possession took control over her
A woman of disgrace she became
Wealth became her only power.
Hollow heart inside her,
Not of crystal or gold
Desired to be loved immensely
Passionate yet cold.
Only if she knew,
She needed no materialistic things to be loved,
Then she would be loved by someone
Only if she knew,
To make her soul wealthy in character
Then she would know,
Love is worth more than her wealth.
She lacked everything that her riches couldn’t buy,
She had everything but nothing at all

Her greed brought her to a fall
Her silken threads are not worth anymore
Being proud and greedy she deplored.
Her body covered in luxurious jewels
Isn't pretty when her heart is dark,
It was then she realised,
Beauty within conquers all.

JUST TELL ME

Did you come across those days?
When you feel low for no reason?
When every little noise hurts you,
And laughter causes you irritation.
Do you feel such?
When you get really annoyed by everyone,
And every little thing they do hurts you so much.
Tell me I am not the only one who feels this way,
Tell me sometimes it is fine not to feel okay.
Even the silence bothers the same way like noise,
I feel no difference in sadness and joy,
Every feeling in me faded away,
Time heals everything they say.

When will that time come?
Days are turning into years,
I am still in that same place,
There is no one to wipe my tears.
Tell me it is okay to feel like this,
Tell me I am not the only one.
Tell me that you feel the same,
Tell me I am not the one to blame.

UNDYING HOPE

Today, I write this poem,
That unveils all my pain.
I can tell you how
The world will crumple you,
And how it’s insane.
It deeply hurts down deep,
When you sow something sweet,
And something bitter comes indeed.
It really makes you feel hopeless,
When the shining sun, couldn’t bring a shine in your dreams.
So, you be there all alone,
In a world full of people,
But traveling alone.

So, then you feel the loneliness,
So, then you know what it feels like to be alone.
With all my strength, all my courage,
Picked the broken pieces of my heart,
Somehow, I managed.
So this is me today,
However I am, I feel proud to be.
But this couldn’t be seen by the people,
Every day trying something new to degrade me,
And they pretend to be so humble.
It hurts me,
It pricks me like spears,
To have everyone all around,
But not anyone to be with me.
I cannot describe that feeling,
When I hear cheers and joy,
And when I go,
The dead silence I hear.
What should I think about it?
Were you laughing at me? I wonder.
And then, I criticise myself
Saying that I am no good.
I tend to easily believe,
What everyone tell about me

I have just dissembled my feelings and
Closed my eyes and believed whatever everyone have said me.
I have reached that point in my life,
Where if I had been praised by someone
I feel that’s untrue,
This world has made me like that,
A hundred praises aren’t enough
For a thousand rebukes.
I am a fragile glass,
I just can’t bear any pressure.
I want no perfections in my life,
I want no involvement for me,
All I want is a happy, peaceful me.
Every little pain I feel,
Every taunt I hear,
Every ignorance I face,
Every day I suffer,
Hoping that my life will be most happiest,
Contrary to the days now,
I want no troubles tomorrow.
I have complete faith and trust in my prayers,
These complications are now just for a while.
As I know my wishes will come true one day,
And take me where I belong

Leaving behind all the pain and sorrow
I am just waiting for a wonderful tomorrow.

OUR HEARTS

Our hearts are greedy,
They always desire for more
And more of love too.
Our hearts are faithful,
To those who love sincerely
And remain loyal.
Our hearts are restless,
They do not remain at peace
For they stay awake.
Our hearts are heartless,
They do not stop troubling all
Those who are in love.
Our hearts are sinful,
They attract all the vice deeds,
Bringing wickedness.

Our hearts are two pronged.
It is how we choose to be
Either good or bad.

SILLY HEART

Our heart is a monster,
That is why our ribs are cages,
Sometimes emotions feels like a torture,
We live with them since ages.
Feelings change, people does,
Love becomes forgotten and buried,
The monster that resides,
Suffocates and leaves us worried.
People play with feelings,
They crush and torture emotions,
There lives no hope for living,
We find no solution.
It feels like everything has come to an end,
Nothing can make us feel better,
Scarred hearts with broken dreams cannot be mended
So we are left here, in this pain to suffer forever.
We blame ourselves saying 'my silly heart'

And that is why our heart is a monster,
It is caged since the start.
We let it loose, to give it a chance,
It loves more than it receives
And leads us to an unavoidable circumstance,
Our silly little heart often deceives
And makes us the person, we never wanted to be.

BETTER WITHOUT ME

I stop myself from being involved in any situation,
I think I may create difficulties.
The consequence of my presence you cannot see,
And so I feel you are better off without me.
Being alone pricks me,
I want to be with everyone,
But thinking about the blame I might be,
I stay back and feel they are better off without me.
Being all by myself,
Wanting to smile a bit,
Heard a laughter and I want to go and be with them,
I don't know about the inconvenience I may cause,
Future, I cannot foresee,
I stay back all alone thinking they are better off without me.

I want to get along,
I want to be among everyone,
I don't know when my words can hurt them all
And start a quarrel,
Thinking about the consequence and the blames,
I remain at a place,
Whispering silently with a tear that they are better off without
me.
Waiting for a smile and lots of glee,
I know my past, future I plan it to be,
Watching everyone from a distance,
Makes me solaced to see that they are happy
And better off without me.

TULIPS- A CINQUAIN

Flowers
Enchanting, lovely
Rising, blooming, swaying
Beauty of the valleys
Tulips

FOSTER FLORA

Some people might feel,
Why poets write about simple things,
Like nature, plants and trees.
Humans are a wonderful creation by god,
It is a matter of time when environment would be extinct.
So, there must be poems and books on plants,
To make the future generation feel what their ancestors have
done,
Unnoticed poems about nature would be precious then,
Because it is human nature to realise the value of a thing only
when we lose them.
The essence of earth would be lost
With growing infrastructure.
The rains would be gone
As pollution takes control over.
Shade from trees would be replaced by shade from skyscrapers.
What will people greet with when there are no flowers left?
The greenery would be seen no more,
This planet will appear sad
When the touch of nature would be lost,
This world will die, when the last plant is crushed to death.

ANGEL

Far above lived an angel,
Who had a beautiful smile
And also made everyone smile.
Something went wrong it made the angel cry.
People said "Forget it angel, but please don't cry"
She smiled because she doesn't want anyone to be sad for her.
She was living her life in a blur.
Yet she smiled, because of people.
Thus, she came to be known as angel,
Who could light others day;
Even if she couldn't light her own.
She was an ideal angel living all alone.
LIVE SOME MORE
Life is not simple;
Happiness and sadness are equally important to live,
Leave no moment to regret,
Concentrate on your dreams and achieve.
Sow a seed of kindness,
Let the field of humanity rise up,
Understand people's pain,

Comfort them and make them happy,
Life is a word you define it,
Life is beautiful if you know how to live it.

THE CLOCK OF LIFE

There are clocks by our names,
They are wind-up and we are given a life to live,
They keep ticking all the time.
They tick and never stop,
Until our time ends by.
The second ticks and turns to moments,
The minutes represent the days,
The hours in the clock of life are the years,
Your clock is ticking in its own way.
Slow and steady the clock of life moves,
Lying somewhere above in a heavenly place,
It ticks and waits for our time to be overdue,
Our memories cannot be erased.
Time is ticking even now,
Listen to the heartbeat and the tick of the clock,
They are for a purpose,
Which reminds us we are alive today.
No one knows when the ticking is stopped,

The clock doesn't give an extra time,
It stops and make everyone alarmed except us,
Eventually, our life and the clock is done,
We played our part in our life,
That will be the time to let go,
Remember when it stops ticking,
It is death.

MISTY MORNING

Now that the lilac buds are in full bloom
And the dried earth is fertile.
The lush greenery is regained,
With birds soaring up high.
The dew diffuses this day,
Even the air feels the joy,
Melody rings everywhere,
When the birds chirp peeping from the leaves.
Peace, in my heart resides,
To feel the aroma of the earth and sky.
The stems smell heavenly,
Fragrance of flower they bear.
The raindrops are elixir,
A blessing in disguise,

They touch my skin,
And my soul is rejoiced.

DIFFERENT SIMILARITIES

Colour of rage and passion a ruby,
Elegantly fitted in a necklace.
Colour of confidence and sadness a sapphire,
Found its place beside the ruby.
Colour of jealousy and good luck an emerald,
Is fortunate to find the best place.
Colour of royalty and mourning an amethyst,
Placed in equal grace and beauty.
Colour of peace and death a white pearl,
Contributes to enrich the royalty.
Colour of happiness and betrayal a topaz,
Shines in its own way.
Every precious stone unique and different,
Given an equal opportunity to fit in a place.
Despite they hold a positive and some negative symbolism,
Their beauty doesn't fade away.

ONCE IN A LIFETIME

Everyone has only one life,
But they live every day.
They think they have a lifetime to pass,
But they forget that every day is a new day.
We are born only once,
Make the best use of this life,
Promise to make yourself and others happy.
For once in your life think about others,
Feel and understand their pain,
Care for them before it's too late.
For once in your life show humanity,
So that you leave an impression and example in the society.
Do something that the world will thank you for,
Because you have been given a life,
Choose the right path,
Make the best use of this only given opportunity in life,
Live no life in regrets;
Don't waste the precious time in being a culprit of useless
strife.

LIFE GOES ON

I walked down the path looking at the trees,
Mesmerised by the scene,
I let myself go along with ease,
Wind was strong to disturb the leaves,
And they fell with an autumn breeze.
Then I realised even the leaves are temporary,
They grow again and there is spring.
I moved on and looked at the waves,
It made me lost in daze,
The sand was washed away beneath my feet,
The waves come and they are gone,
They rise up and they fall,
Nature conveys broader meaning,
Only if we understand,
It provides calmness,
It reminds life goes on.

WISE WORDS

Rise up, you are stronger than you were yesterday,
Live, like today is your last day,
Be a tide that rises with a fall,

Give hope to yourself and to one and all.
The past gives us experiences to learn,
It is not a time period to dwell,
The one who falls and gets up
Is stronger than the one who never fell.
Mistakes are a tragedy,
Apology remains the remedy,
Guilt never changed the situations,
You revive with every realisation.
There are stories which are not meant to be told,
But there are truths which need to get unfold.
Time is the master of all those things,
Fate does change if you believe in it.

NEVER EVER

Don't ever try to kill yourself,
Live for the ones who are willing to die for you,
And if there is no one,
Live for them to find you.

OUR LOVE WILL NOT DIE

I am without hope and in tears,
I don't wish you a goodbye,
Fate has constrained us to be apart,
Love became a memorable lie.
Let me be alone, all on my own,
Let me be peaceful till I die.
I am without hope shedding tears,
Till the end I will love you;
With all the shattered dreams,
Still hoping that they come true after we die.
This is not a goodbye my mum,
This is the beginning of your chosen life.
We have to be apart from each other,
Our love will not die.
Unforgettable are those memories,
Scattered, broken and drifted apart we are,
Forever, your memories and love I will endure,
Miles apart we are, in our heart love resides,
After all the struggles and the suffering,
I hope our love survives.

LET GO

We are like strangers, of stories old,
I let you go, I've been bold.
Don't dream to be yours, I've moved on,
You are here, but you are gone.
When someone cannot be yours,
Let it go,
Because when you are brave to love someone,
You have to be even braver to let them go.
Hard will be the days, tears flow,
But be strong and hold on,
Learn to be strong in the pain for it will be gone.
You feel you are not worth,
You don't give a chance to love someone else,
Trapped in loneliness, when you feel low,
That's a time to be brave,
And let it go.

THOSE STRANGE LITTLE SECRETS

I make sure that my eyes don't reveal my inner feelings,
Because when you'll know you will drown in my tears.

I feel proud that my smile veils helpless me,
Because when you'll know, you will show me your sympathy.
I feel glad that whenever I speak my lips don't quiver,
Because when you come to know about my horrific days, you'd
probably shiver.
I feel happy knowing that my heart doesn't melt anymore at my
flaws,
I even feel glad when my heart don't tell you each and every
secret I couldn't tell,
Because when you come to know you'll realise you are one of
them.
I also make sure that my heart doesn't scatter and reveal the
painful me,
Because it is a strange little secret, I keep hiding from myself.
Those are strange little secrets,
I couldn't tell you.
Those are strange little secrets,
You never knew.

SECRETLY

All those secrets, if I don't tell you,
All those sufferings if I cause you,
All those lies, which I may tell you,
For all those things, forgive me if I do.
I will do all those things secretly,

Without letting it you know,
Without you I am alone.
When I see you, I smile,
When I miss you, I cry,
Shedding every tear in pain,
And I couldn't believe you could be so insane.
What is the use to cry secretly?
Crying deep inside secretly,
As I know you couldn't be mine,
Pretending to be just fine.
I miss you,
I cry deep inside,
I did all this secretly,
Without letting it you know.

I NEVER KNEW

I never knew how strong I was,
Until I spent miserable days.
I never knew how much patience I had,
Until I didn't get what I wanted.
I never knew what I was capable of,
Until I achieved something great.
I never knew what I had inside myself,

Until I recognised and learned it my way.
I never knew the courage I had,
Until I was no more afraid.
I never knew I was kind,
Until my eyes shed tears for someone else.
I never knew I was good,
Until I saw my own true self.
I never knew I mean so much to someone,
Until I saw the fear in the eyes of my parents to lose me.
I never knew I had strength,
Until I lived alone all by myself.
I never knew time is perfect now,
Until I came to know time is never just right.
I never knew life isn't easy,
Until I fell and rose up to live my life.
I never knew the troubles I was facing,
Until I came to know about it at the right time.
I never knew I was happy,
Until I came to know what is sadness.
I never knew how blessed my life is,
Until I suffered and thanked for my life.
I never knew what my fate brought,
Until I prayed and made everything all right.
I never knew the power of love,

Until I got separated.
I never knew time teaches us lessons,
Until I learned them.
I never knew everything happens at right time,
Until I waited and got it.
I never knew what it feels like to miss someone,
Until I got separated from my mom.
I never knew the meaning of life,
Until I lived my life the way I wanted to.
I never knew what patience is,
Until I prayed and my wish got fulfilled.
I never knew how powerful a wish is,
Until I shed tears and they got true.
I never knew the possibilities,
Until I discovered the endless things that could happen.
I never knew what I deserved,
Until I made the choices and took a risk.
I never knew whom I feared,
Until I decided to face it.
I never knew my own self,
Until I suffered and recognised myself.
I never knew the value of something,
Until I lost it.
I never knew happiness,

Until I found what was lost.
I never knew what trust is,
Until I trusted someone.
I never knew what a heartbreak is,
Until I suffered it.
I never knew I hide my pain,
Until I saw there was no one to share with.
I never knew I could bring happiness,
Until I made someone happy.
I never knew life is beautiful,
Until I discovered it depends on the way we live it.
I never knew everything happens for a reason,
Until I found them.
I never knew what is meant to be will be,
Until I accepted the facts.
I never knew what my decisions would bring,
Until I left it all to God and said
'I have faith and you know what is best for me'

I CAN AND I WILL

It will take some time for me to erase the thoughts that
continuously revolve in me
I can do that and I will.
It will be only a matter of time when I will be happy and the
past memories won't haunt me
I can learn to be such and I will.
It will take time for me to dissemble my affection and wait
someone to accept me for who I am
I can wait and I will.
It will be a journey for me when my life gives me a new day to
live life again
I can live my life again and I will.
It will take me time to rise up after being submerged in my
agony
I can gain strength and I will.
It will be a new life waiting for me to shower blessings and
happiness upon me
I can live a life like that and I will.

FLAWLESS

Even broken things are beautiful to look at,
There is beauty in a face that doesn't smile.
Not everything is meant to be perfect,
Sometimes imperfections are perfectly designed.
Look beyond, look above,
There lives a soul without life,
Tell her, make her believe that she is alive.
Despite all the negativity
And all the fruitless efforts,
She smiles; yet believes that she is no good.
After all that has happened,
Her hope died, but her desire to live remains.
Make her believe, even broken souls are beautiful too.
Her life all messed up, her destiny all tied,

She feels that she has no beauty,
Because life took away her smile.
Make her believe that a face which doesn't smile is happy too.
She claims she is imperfect,
She has never done anything right in her life,
Talk to her, make her believe,
That she is flawless even in her imperfect life.

FATE

She walked in grace and beauty,
Losing all her hope and happiness.
She hid her beast which was inside herself,
Who knew she was so much in pain and distress.
Her good deeds done were ignored,
And everyone pointed out her mistakes,
Like the roses covered in thorns,
She was beautiful from within,
But also had some flaws.
She felt there was nothing good in her,
Her peace was stolen and so was her identity,
She seeks a chance to change her destiny.

AN APOLOGY

Forget the pain, forget the sorrow;
I hope for a better tomorrow.
Days were dark, nights were cold;
They heard the story,
Which once was untold.
All was revealed,
Nothing was hidden;
Did all that which was forbidden.
I know it’s my mistake,
And I regret;
Forgive me for that,
Please try to forget.

TO FRIENDS

My dear friend, you are a jewel
Who shone brightly when separated from other friends.
You are a beauty, true elegance
With whom I like to be.
I reflect the shine you possess,
Thus, you make me feel special like you are to me.
Your presence was awaited for long,

I want to stay with you forever,
I want to be your friend till the last
And also after my soul leaves me.
I want our friendship to remain,
For it is true and pure,
No friendship for a cause it is;
It is the truest form it can ever be.
My dear friend,
You are a jewel of your own kind
No gem in the entire world is you.
I feel happy to have such a gem,
To my dearest,
This is for you.
You are kind like a flower,
Who breaks for other's happiness,
You break to make others remain together,
You don't realise that you are special too.
You are like a cloud,
Who protects from a sun,
Provides warmth,
Also trusts with your fears.

You are like a feather,
So easy and sensitive,
You fly away with a blow,
Yet you are strong to fly.
My dearest friend,
Above all, you are a rare soul
Which I feel lucky to find
You gave me hope,
You were with me every time.
You believed in me,
And gave me all your time.

MY DAFFODIL

You fill my heart with passion of friendship,
Your fragrance I cannot let go.
A bud you are who make my heart skip,
You reside over the hills so low.
Slowly and carefully I climbed up the hills,
I waited restlessly but patiently to greet.
My heart blossomed to see my daffodil,
Where I travelled miles to meet.

So that I let you blossom in spring.
Let the fragrance of my words linger in your soul,
In your heart let pleasure fill.
Let the essence of our friendship stay as whole,
Always remain a cheery and delightful daffodil.

OVER THE YEARS

Unlike the happiness that compels,
My sorrows inspired me.
My grief pushed me forward
And my loneliness motivated me.
Unlike the ideal persons that aspire,
My heart had a image of the person I must not be
My memories quenched the raging fire
And my solitude kept me going.
Unlike a soul that touches hearts of many,
My broken self was along,
My unaccomplished dreams I desired
And my hope faltered, but never faded.

Unlike the positivity that helps,
My accusations tempted me to prove them wrong,
My guilt has changed the thoughts
And my regrets reformed me.
Unlike the perfections that helps
My flaws I embraced,
My restlessness gave me hope
And my imperfections just perfected me all the way.

SMILE

Smile says many things, and also hides a hundred pain;
Like the sunshine that comes after rain.
People see the sunshine and say it might have rained,
Likewise, when you smile they believe in your smile even
though you are in pain.
Every time you smile may be for any reason;
But please smile, it doesn't need any occasion.
Don't smile to hide the pain,
Smile to heal the pain.
Each smile says something,
Smile with your pure heart, not in a cunning way;
Ah! What a pretty smile people should say.

But I don't want that smile which everyone likes,
I want that smile by which when they look at it, they smile.

I HEAL

Trying to forget the sorrows, my heart- I seal,
Ruptured emotions of my ruthless life- I conceal,
Passion and concern from the one who loves me, I feel,
After years of tormented life, finally; I heal.
Rage vanished and anger dissolved,
Situation changed and heart resolved,
Life gave me a chance; it absolved,
After years of patience, Love evolved.
Negative thoughts faded as confusion,
Sadness left me and ended my seclusion,
I find myself happy and away from isolation,
At last, I hope I feel excluded from depression.
Everything appears blissful and pleasing,
I find my love for you, increasing,
Sadness to happiness my feelings are replacing,
Happy I am, I find myself healing.

Your acceptance, I encounter,
You made me feel beautiful as a flower,
You- I want to empower,
Love upon you, I shower.
I wish to be with you in every phase,
I promise to never part ways,
I hope I brighten your days,
I pray, love keep us together always.

MOON

Oh! Moon, you shine up so bright,
You turn the darkness to light,
You are very far away from my sight,
You show yourself only at night.
You are surrounded by tiny little stars,
You appear very appealing to my eyes.
In the dark hours of night you rise,
You are sometimes crescent,
You make me surprise.
Adoring you all night my time flies.

FRAME ME IN YOUR HEART

For if I could be the colour on your canvas,
I would never be a soul so colourless.
Brush me like the indigo hues of a dark sky,
Or like the free birds soaring high.
Just as the shades of pink you colour,
A thousand strokes of perfection to the water.
Strike me along like the reflection,
Or like the setting sun in the horizon.
Along the seas you create the mountains,
Darkest brown brush of the colour makes a chain.
Create me too like a picture of a tale,
Or like the boat that alone sails.
Paint me like a picture in your heart,
Discover my admiration for thee like an art.
Remember me like the shades of your colour,
Or like a secret admirer yet to discover.

EXPLORE

The sun rises and sets,
The waves of sea never rest,
Deciduous trees stand burdened with the weight of leaves,
Throw down your sadness,
Spare no moment to grieve.
Nature surrounds us,
Stop, look and admire it,
Life is a blessing stop complaining and cherish it.
Live life to the fullest,
Leave no place unexplored,
Do something new every day,
Just laugh and live some more.
Nature doesn't belong to us,
We belong to it,
It provides us with much to appreciate,
If you feel giving up on something,
Look at the waves,
And think twice before you quit.

CHARMING SEA

Another day awaits me,
At a place so breath-taking,
I am near the waves of the sea,
Blessed by another morning.
Azure water shines brightly under the sun,
It provides warmth to the sea.
Playing with foam and having fun,
The waves rise with utmost efficacy.
Adoring the blue water my day has passed,
I want to behold the sight of sunset,
I wish it ever lasts.
Moonlight has dominated the sky,
Into darkness the night glooms,
I am happy with the thought of the sight of a morn,
In my heart happiness blooms.

DON'T LET MY WORDS FADE

I will not live long,
I want my words to remain forever.
I will leave my unsung songs,
Promise me, you will leave them never.

When I am no more, don't cry,
It would be deceiving me when I was alive.
So here I lay, under this tombstone with my head up high,
When people like my words and want to see me, tell them that
I am no more;
Show them where I lie.
My words will not haunt you,
They will be gone along with me.
I will leave my words with you,
Don't expect them to be words of glee.
I wish that my words gain attention,
As I was not a person to be.
I lived all my life in seclusion,
Don't believe? Come and see.
This is how I bid you goodbye.
After I live; before I die.