『 Prologue 』
“to have felt too much, is to end in feeling nothing.”
-Dorothy Thompson
What do you pack when you have 3 minutes to leave your boyfriend?
Nothing.
Just get out of there.
I did.
Why 3 minutes?
Because he can come up to my room in 3 minutes.
But its fine, I met him halfway down the stairs with my phone in hand and tears in my eyes.
“I’ve gotta go.” I whispered in a soft tone but he seemed to hear it it just fine. I started running down the stairs right past him.
“Soph wait!”
I didn’t.
“Soph for gods sake wait!”
“I cant anymore! I waited long enough but you left me hanging. You left me hanging every fucking second that you spent with her! So do not tell me to wait Ethan because I’m done, and if you haven’t figured it out yet, we’re done too. ” My tone wasn’t so soft anymore.
I turned around and continued down the stairs. In the corner of my eyes I could see Tess coming in to hug Ethan but he pushed her back so hard that I heard the thud really loud of her back hitting the wall. Typical.
Now I just feel stupid for giving him a second chance. and a third. and a fourth.
I think once it happens, you have to decide if you love the person more than you hate what they did and many of the times, you love them more. Then it happens again and that choice comes in front of you again. What you don’t realize is that the choice isn’t if you love them more or hate their actions more- the choice is if you love them enough to live with this for the rest of your life. I made the wrong choice in the past, I won’t now.
I turned around once again towards a hurt Tess and Ethan who didn’t even care.
“Thank God. Now just listen to m-”
I walked towards Tess and put a finger up gesturing him to shut up. I took his bullshit for 6 months, not anymore.
“Are you okay?”
“Yea just a little pain right under the neck” Her voice sounded strained.
“Come on.”
I offered her my hand to help to get up, I took her to the kitchen, and gave her to the bottle of pain relief spray to apply.
“Thanks.”
“You want me to drop you off somewhere?” I asked.
“I’ll stay.” She wants to make the same mistake I did. The mistake of staying.
“Trust me, you don’t want to.” I snuck a peek at Ethan who was standing at the door looking at both of us with apologetic eyes. Not this time Ethan.
“I need to know his side.”
Even if Tess was the person he cheated on me with, she is still human and I don’t really blame her. It was Ethan who was unfaithful to me, Tess didn’t owe me anything. Plus, right now, all I feel when I look at her is pity.
“I needed to know it too, but it was the same I’m sorry every fucking time. I cant force you to go anywhere with me Tess, but if you ever need anything, call me.”
I grabbed my purse from the console right beside the door and ran out of the house.
This wasn’t my place, nor was it Ethan’s, it was his parents. He brought me here to meet with them while he was fucking Tess in the next bedroom. They had a huge house, which was also the reason that I was huffing by the time I reached their porch.
As soon as I got out, I let out a huge breath that I didn’t know I was holding. It felt suffocating inside and outside, I felt guilty for feeling free.
I walked out the main entrance and held my hand out for a cab. I hailed one, sat inside and watched in the mirror as Ethan watched my cab leave.
“To the Airport.”
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