Chapter 1 My inner feeling
I don't know what my inner feelings are. I wish I know but no matter how I search it I don't have a clue. Sometime I feel sad, alone but I ask my self why, why I am sad or feel alone. I got my the whole family of mine. I just want some answers?
My father is a taxi driver. He works at night and my mother is a house wife she used to do dressing for kids outfits but now she gave birth to my little sister ( in our culture when some one give birth they are all time with their baby they shouldn't leave the house) oh speaking about my sibling I have two brothers and one sister. my big brother is 3 years older than me. When we were kids we used to do all things together, we used to fit oh i missed though days. I wish I can go to that day now he is 21 years old and I am 18 years old we barley talk he spent his most of time with his friends. I wish I can spend time with him that is much fun. He doesn't know how much I love him. I will do every thing and any thing for him and I don't know how he feel about me and that stuck. Sometime I wounder if my brother would be there for me.
Do you want to know what I am feeling right now I want to go some where where I will be alone for some time I want to clear my mind I want to start form fresh and I want to be far from here because being here I feel like garbage they(my family) look me like that.
when most people talk about their mothers and how they have unconditional love towards each other I don't get them and it gets me confuse I ask myself if there was a problem with me. I don't know if any one can understand this I just need some one to say to me I feel you and you are not alone in this one.
In this year I found a friend we learn in the same school we take about this feeling and she says you are like me but the problem was I don't tell her the whole story because I was shy to tell. That doesn't not matter now because now I want to start over. I want fresh life. But I don't think i can escape from my parents. They say no matter where you go there is a rope that link you with your parents and that rope can't be cut.
