Darkness in my mind

Every since the day I was born, My life have always been so miserable and difficult to me and to everyone else living with me. My birth have always been recorded as the root of all evils, wickedness and regrets all over the world and ever since my birth was discovered things have always fall apart for me and everyone else in my family. My mother had to go through a lot several pains and maltreatment and still had to go through the pain of labor just for me come to this world and achieve all of my dreams but instead my life ended up being the worst. I was not only born into a family of awful peace and sorrow, I was also born to make things even more difficult for them. My entire life have always been just like a movie, you know watching an horror movie being written or produced as a book of your life and you not being able to change a single part of it. Right that is what my story look like and if you can imagine a story full of so many epic part confilct and disunity, tears with no freedom at all, everyday beating and bleeding upon injury with a lot of scared fear breathe filled in everyone's eyes with a minor baggage of mystery in the eyes of all our neighbors🙎 And now that is what my familly looks like and My father is always like the only lion of judahs we have in our family and most of the time he is always unpredictable.He can do and undo anything at anytime and most of the time his mood is always as that of an angry bird. My mom have always warned me never get close or go anywhere near my dad whenever he is around because my father's face is always like a mighty warrior whose face is always filled with tears and pains of anger and regret like a lion whose face is always ready to tear the whole world apart.

And every single day in my househood is always like a day, filled with memories and lightened by fire with a lot of painful rythms and regret. And Not being able to taste a tiny drop of love bliss, patience and affection was one of my family's worst problem and still yet nobody seems to care about it. Ever since the day my mum decided to get married to my dad have always been like a hell to us because my dad have always make our lives misrable to live in. My mum and dad have never get along with each other and they have never really showed themselves what true love and affection feels like not even untill the day I was born. Instead they will always spend their time fighting and laying curse on each other, hitting each other with ever single thing they see or even pouring themselves hot water. Some people will always say "Time heals everything while children changes everything" but that proverb was not even in one of my family's history book because my case was different. Not even a child nor time can change a single part of my family's story. Every since my mum got pregnant of her first child which was probably me during her school days, her life have always been so miserable and hell, a life filled with regrets, sorrowful tears and reckless hunger with so many several unregretable pains and sorrows but still yet she has to raise me up. She had no other choice than to choose to embrace the precious gift the Lord has given to her and she never regret it. she never gave up on me, she promised herself to take good care of me and also protect me from my father without letting a single drop of my hair get touched not even till the day she will leave the whole world behind.My mum have taught me while growing up not to ever believe in any single word a guy says to me or anyone else not even my father should I believe for they are only here to destroy me just like my dad did to her.My mum would always tell me the story of her life and how she end this way every night right before I go to sleep and would always warn me not to ever make the same mistake she made when she was of my age. My mum and dad met each other while they were still in school and immediately they fell in love with each other without even thinking twice about it (I should call it love at first sight) My dad have always prove to my mum that he love her more and have always promise never to touch her until her wedding night and still he will always do everything to make her happy not until a friend have to poison his mind and brainwashed him that the flower he thinks he have been watering since all this while (make another person no go pluck am)Meaning it might end up being plucked by someone else.This got my dad thinking and really confused and then he decided to make a plan. He called my mother on a blessed day and ask her to pay him a visit on Saturday because he have something important to tell her. My mom asked if they could discuss it on the phone but he insisted my dad ask her to come and see him instead. And my mum who have never rejected a visit from him had to go since it was very important, She went there and was served a drink and after 15min of taking the drink she slept off...“She woke up the next morning opening her eyes slowly with a lot of pains driving out of her inner part" She was weak and couldn't stand up, She tried to raise up hands but they weren't moving «» What on Earth is going on she asked herself «» These were the thoughts going through her head before she could finally force her self up. She looked around and saw herself on a bed in his room in shock she jumped up and shouted "Jesus Christ!!! She cried out to James "James what on earth am doing here?? She said pointing at my father whose face was already harsh boiling like an hot fire 🔥 trying not to think of what to do to her when she wakes up with him not knowing what to do whether to say sorry for his action or to get mad at her for lying to him. He just sat there sipping him drink (alcohol) with his two legs crossed watching her display her madness