Chapter 1
KINKS.......I screamed into my pillow
I'm texting my boy best friend Zar and he just asked me what my kinks are! MY KINKSSSSSS. I giggle at the thought of telling him but I know the only reason he wants to know is so he can make fun of me. My best friend Zar knows pretty much everything about me and knows how to make fun of me, like this one time I told him I had a crush on this one dude and he yelled at him to come over to where we were and just said hi when he got over to us. When the guy left left I turned so red and started beating Sad with my fists while he was just bursting out laughing like I wasn't hurting him.
That was like months ago.....(flash back)
I was walking down the hall just looking at different things not really paying attention to my surroundings and I ran into someone. I was about to just say sorry and wall off until I caught sight of his face, his dark brown eyes, how they look like a pool of chocolate, his Carmel skin so brown, how parts of his hair is brown with a little light tent of blonde. He was a good 5'7 and me being really short at 5'1 it was a stretch. He looked down and said sorry but his voice didn't match his face, his voice sounds child-like, like he has had everything. (Present day)
Thinking back to that memory of how wrong I was and how I was crushing on some random guy I met, my phone starts buzzing and its Sad.
"I promise I'm not gonna make fun of you just tell me😂" he texted
"Now we both know that's a lie😂" I respond
"I swear I'm not if I do tell anyone you can.......uh give me a second to think 😑"
"Bruhhhhhhh i'm not gonna tell you😂"
"Uhhhhhh idk what you can do but you
don't love me if you don't tell me😭"
"That's so unfair you always use that 😑and I always crave to it"
"Exactlyyyyyyy I don't see the problem here"
"Mhm your not funny but I will make a deal with you....."
"Ohhhhhh a deal you say😈"
"Not like that stupid😑"
"Okay okay what's your deal"
"If I tell you mine you have to tell me yours.......deal"
".......deal"
"Okay well your gonna have to wait for a second I have to do something"
"Okay😉"
I wasn't planning on texting him back for awhile just to spite him. I lay my phone down on my bed sighing and I look around at my room. I don't know if you would consider this a room because someone sleeps in it but I like it. I look at my hallway (my room) I look at how my futon looks so old and sunken in,I look at my white table with a bunch of trash on it and my TV with my bucket of snacks right next to it.
Looking left to the wall is where my clothes are hung. I don't own a closet or drawers so my clothes are out in the open. It's embarrassing most times. I have shelves though....they hold my trophies from soccer, my jar of dirt (yes I did just say a jar of dirt). If you turn even more to the left you'll see my book shelf that only goes to my waist. It holds many books going from weird books to romance. Ohhhh I almost forgot I have a windowwwwww exciting right. It may be small but it's an amazing view of my front yard.
¨BILLIE¨ I hear my mom yell
¨YEAH¨ I yell back
¨BILLIE¨ she yells again
¨ahhhh¨ I say
I start walking towards the stairs when I hear a familiar voice
¨Ahhh Mrs.Green¨ Zar says
¨Haha I told you many times before Zar to call me Joe¨ mom replies
What's Zar doing here !? I creep closer to the sound
¨Haha yeah I know, may I come in?¨ he ask
¨Well of course you can sweetheart¨ she says
Before he can respond she says ¨So what are you doing here¨
¨Just here to see Billie she hasn't texted me in an hour and we had a very important conversation going¨
Before she can respond I run down the stairs almost straight into them.
¨Mom...Zar¨ I say
With a stupid smile on his face he says ¨BILLIE I missed you¨
¨Whatever you say you suck up¨ I say grinning
Before he can respond I grab his arm and pull him up the stairs
¨Bye Mrs.Green¨ he says
¨For the last time I said...You know what nevermind bye¨ she says
As we were both running back up the stairs I decided to try and trip him. As I stick my foot out to trip him I stop paying attention to what I'm doing and I trip over myself and land hard on my stomach I let out a groan. Him on the other hand didn't get tripped at all and is just standing there laughing at me.
¨Was that really your attempt of tripping me¨ he says in a fit of giggles
I groan, "no"
I get up but that bish is still laughing at me so I shove him a little.
¨Why are you mad at me you're the one who tried to trip ME........and failed¨
I glared at him trying not to laugh. I dont succeed and start bursting out laughing with him. We start making are way back up the stairs to my hallway/room and as soon as we get up there he decides to say
¨Why is your room so dirty¨
I slap his arm
¨Why are you so mean¨ I say glaring at him
¨Hey I'm not trying to be mean i'm just trying to be helpful¨
¨Oh whatever¨ I say
We start walking towards my bed...
¨What are you doing here though¨
¨What, can a friend not go to see another friend¨
I choose to sit on my bed and he grabs a pillow and puts it on the floor to sit on right next to my bed where we are facing each other.
¨Yeah maybe a normal friend but you're not normal¨ I say
¨Okay you may be right but maybe you should've answered your phone¨ he responds
¨Okay.....wait are you here because I did not respond to our conversation about kinks¨
A smile spread across his face
¨Yes¨ he says
¨Oh my god you're such a child¨ I feel my face start to heat up.
¨Oh is someone blushing¨
I grab the closest pillow and throw it at him. He catches it of course with ease. He throws it back and of course my stupid self doesnt catch it and it slaps me in the face. He burst out laughing again like he just heard the funniest joke.
¨You think you're funny, you're not¨ I say
I mutter under my breath
¨stupid¨
As soon as I said it, his head snapped to look at me he stops laughing looks at my all serious and says
¨What did you just call me¨
My eyes start to widen
¨N-nothing I didn't say an-nyhting¨ I respond stuttering
He stands up from the floor and starts to walk towards me slowly like a predator would do to its prey.
¨I know what you said Billie now are you gonna be a good girl and tell me or are you just gonna sit there like you don't know what I'm talking about¨
He's at the edge of the bed now, looking at me like he wants to eat me. But he's not the only one that can play that little game. I put my head to the side I look up at him making eye contact I put a little smirk on my face and say
¨Hmmm i'm pretty sure I didn't say anything¨
Before he can say anything I shoot up quickly jumping on him
¨What in the world¨ he says
Struggling not to fall over with me on him
¨Get of......¨
Before he finishes his sentence I bite his shoulder
¨AHHHHHHHH¨ Zar screams
He throws me off running downstairs to the bathroom.
¨HAHAAHAHAH¨ I'm crying with laughter at this point
I roll off my bed still laughing trying to navigate to where the stairs are so I can find Zar. I make it to the stairs and I feel the tears coming down my face. I can't see anything at this point, everything's so blurry. I decided to try to walk down the stairs. As soon as I took the first step I knew it was a terrible idea. I miss the first steps and go tumbling down the staircase. All I hear are loud footsteps coming my direction.
¨Billie are you okay¨ my mom says while grabbing my face
Before I can answer I hear the bathroom door open and in runs Zar.
¨Where's my Billie at, did she fall?¨ he says panic in his voice
I start bursting out laughing again
¨No haha Im good hahaha¨ I try to say in between laughs
He looks at me then to my face then to my mom back to me and starts bursting out laughing to
¨heh....ehehe....heheh¨
He tries to cover his laugh with his hand because my mom was glaring at him.
¨You guys are gonna be the death of me¨ she says
She walks to the kitchen after she leaves me and Zar making eye contact with each other and we start giggling. After we were done giggling Zar asked
¨That sounded loud from the bathroom are you okay?¨
I look him in the eye.
¨I'm gonna be totally honest with you, I have no idea,¨ I say smiling
He looks at me with a serious look on his face
¨Are you sure your okay¨ he says
I look at him ¨why so serious¨ I say smirking
He looks at me then at my lips he stays there for a moment like he's in a trance. He looks back at my eyes then moves his tongue ever so slowly to where he's pushing on his cheek from the inside.
He starts nodding slowly with the same expression. I suddenly get this weird feeling in my stomach like something is about to happen but before I can question it I'm being tossed up in the air over Zars shoulder.
¨What are you doing ughhhhhhh put me down¨ I say
¨Mhm no¨ he responds
I start beating his back while he starts walking through the hallway to my kitchen……..
(flash back)
……I just walked into Walmart, getting excited to buy some more snacks. Walking to the chip section I grab the Cheddar popcorn and the Barbecue lays chips. I'm in my own trance trying to figure out which is the better choice when I feel a finger tap on me. I jump a little from being knocked out of my very important trance. I smelled something sweet and manly cologne. It smells intriguing. I turn around to see who tapped on my shoulder and I am met with deep brown chocolate eyes..oh god its the guy I bumped into at school the one I thought was hot my cheeks turn absolutely red with embarrassment. He gets a confused look on his face as he ask
¨Do I know you from somewhere?¨ he ask
¨I…. I mean do you count me running into you at school?¨
¨hmm yes..yes I do¨ he responds
There's a silence in between us
¨Is that all you wanted ¨ I ask curiously
¨No actually are you trying to decide which one to get¨ he ask as he points to the chips in my hand
I giggle a little ¨Yes actually would you like to help¨
He looks down at the bags
¨I would actually, so I don't have much experience with cheddar popcorn but from what I have tasted from the barbeque chips I would have to go with the barbeque chips.¨ he responds
Im full on smiling at this point trying not to laugh ¨from your experience¨ I say repeating him
We make eye contact and start bursting out laughing.
¨Wait wait I don't even know your name, what is your name?¨ I ask
He looks at me then smiles a little. After a second he holds up his hand for me to shake and says
¨Hi my name is Zar what is your name¨
I take his hand and respond with ¨Hi Zar my name is Billie¨
We shake hands and I take this time to look at his arms and hands. What first gets my attention is how his veins pop out of his arms and hands or how natural it looks, how his hand isn't warm or cold but cool and comforting, how his grip around mine isn't too tight or too loose before I could think he lets go. I try to reach for his hand again but I stop myself thinking that it won't be the best idea.
¨HmH¨ I clear my throat to get his attention
¨I have to go find my mom but it was nice meeting you Zar¨ I say
He has this sudden sadness to his face but it quickly goes away like it was never there.
¨Do you have to go so soon¨ He ask
¨Yes but I can give you my snap if you want¨ I say
He smiles a little ¨Oh yes I would like that¨ he responds
We exchange snaps and I'm on my way to my mom……… (Present Day)
