Alone

Has everything been a lie has everything been in my head what if I kept quiet what if I never said anything what if i never did what if i just listened to music alone

in the darkness what if i never said anything and kept it all down low what if this never happened what if it’s all in my head but it seems so real. What if I never shaded to the dark I could have fallen down the dark and watched the shading and the sunset. What if I could have kept it to myself. What if it seems unbound with the touch, what if I don’t care, what if I see the doubt in myself, what if I wake up and I’m gone, what if i never come back ever again. What if tell me what if I never see things in my head but I can see things far away? What if I never see eyes? I just remember their faces. What if it’s all flooding down and falling down and I never ever said anything I could have just shut up and kept it at an all time low like myself. I never forget those times but those without time have nothing. So does that mean I have nothing? Tell me at the end of the day at this point I don’t even have myself. Those without eyes set to kill dont find a new found glory. Tell me is it all gone without me tell me how it makes you feel i’m gone tell me those without hearts eat out other hearts is that how it works out. Nothing makes since everything has fallen down and apart its gone my heart my head and my life nothing makes sense at all hunting me down til i’m nothing is that your plan gone without your heart don’t eat my head out of my heart or anything at all let me go let your soul alone go away jump down and go away kill me seeing. Burn me down til im nothing im nothing without your warmth your voice you shit i feel empty without your hand on me it feels so weird i’m giving up on something i been chasing for a long time i will never be anything just a waste of space that’s the only thing it don’t matter what happens at all catch me if i fall would you or would you be like everyone else and leave me behind tell me i’m just going to hide and die alone i cant think at all it don’t feel like anything anymore my hands shaking no sleep no nothing i’m not going to have anything ever again no heart no nothing anymore because it don’t seem right to me anymore nothing seems right to me i’m going to hide in the shadows and never come out ever again nothing will ever happen again and that alone sounds amazing i scream alone and die alone nothing to me seems anything nothing left at all leave me alone and i will never be a problem ease me with pain and ease me with anger when i got nothing left no one knows anything so many regrets in life and i get a another one everyday every single day i gotta keep going even when i got nothing left i miss her voice i miss her everything but i just gotta keep going even when i can’t move even if i can’t say anything i got no heart in me to show anymore i’m not gonna be remembered for anything trust me on that im nothing my spine feels empty my head is hell and the devil speaks in my head and is my head don’t show me anything if you don’t feel anything dont put your pain on more put it on yourself let that air go let it go down when you think do it now and not later lost of lust and pain lost of love no anything anymore just let it go let it all go no more pain lose me don’t act like i don’t care for you because i only want the best for you i don’t want anything but the best for people and myself at this point i’m just a sucide hotline and i really can’t do anything.