Heterophobia

I was in the closet.

Figuratively and Literally.

I tried to turn blind ears to the awful thumping my best to the sound of sensual love-making.

I couldn’t believe this was happening to me. Thursday afternoons were mine, and this idiot Ryan was having sex with my boyfriend during my time of the day. I tried not to cry out loud but ungracefully failed. Tears streamed, I prayed to god if one existed to help me out here, but none of the thousands of them whom I had read about came to help me.

Finally, after cursing my bad luck for about half an hour, the fuck session was over.

“Thanks, Babe. I needed that. Dad was on my ass today. Shipment to Earth this month looks a little less. Dad is worried about it and wants me to find some ten more, even if their crime is the littlest,“, muttered Ryan. I could hear him zipping his pants.

Little shit came for a quick fuck during his quick lunch.

“I heard. Your dad also told me to look for any minor solvable thefts. He is losing his mind over this. What if we send fewer men this time?Why such a tight leash, I would say”, said my beautiful and smart ass, Olec.

“Good riddance anyway; the fewer people we have here, the less we would need to share,“, argued the asshole.

This conversation was going nowhere. Thankfully, both of them also felt the same because now, they switched to another topic.

“By the way, I saw you and Sutton in the coffee shop while patrolling nearby. She looked sad”, inquired Ryan.

I squeezed my eyes, making it to the point of pain.

“Yeah, the poor girl is going through some hardcore stuff”

“Shouldn’t she be talking about it to her girlfriend?“, asked Ryan.

“Don’t be an ass, Ryan. She is my friend, and she is going through something she cannot share with Charlie.”

Like your boyfriend is going through stuff that he will not share with you. I mentally added Ryan.

“Alright, I will butt out, but I don’t like her”, warned Ryan.

I scoffed, so what? I don’t like you as well.

“You don’t have to. She is my friend, babe. See you tonight, Sweet. I would bring take out from Ris Calino”, Jax said.

There was some kissing sound. I gasped without making any sound while my mind screamed.

MY BOYFRIEND, YOU ASS.

“Also, don’t forget about the lunch this weekend with second-in-commands and their family”, called out Olec while bolting the door of his apartment.

Thank fuck, for the little miracles. I slumped into the pile of clothes, which smelled like the both of them. I cringed as if I touched the fire and bolted out of the door.

I came in face-to-face with my naked boyfriend, and he had just made love to his boyfriend. I fell to my knees and started bawling.

He sighed and sat down, pulling me into his lap, “Sorry Sutton, I am so sorry. I didn’t know he would pop out of nowhere. He was supposed to be here in the evening. I am sorry, really sorry. You don’t deserve this, we don’t deserve this. Please, don’t cry baby. We will figure something out.”

“But why did you have to have sex with him?”

“You know he jumped on me right? I didn’t have a choice. You know this.”

“Didn’t look like you weren’t enjoying yourself”, I snapped.

“Don’t be childish, sweetheart. If anyone gets to know about us, we will be the first one to be shipped to earth on the first rocket and then you know what would happen to us. He cannot doubt us, you understand that right?”

I nodded into his chest while he hugged me. Given that we somehow reach there alive, that would be a curse greater than being dead. We have seen enough evidence of how dangerous life on earth would be.

“This is gonna suck on the weekend. You with him, pretending to be happy”, I confessed.

I would have canceled going if it was not mandatory. My moms were second in command; hence my presence was necessary by association. How I wish I could avoid it.

I could almost imagine my scowl being directed at Ryan while he lovingly held hands with Olec and my hands held tightly by Charlie seated across their table. The only good part of it was I didn’t have to sit with them. I wanted as much space as I could while they were together.

“We got to do what we got to do. We can do nothing about it for now. We need to hide us for some years more babe. I need to talk to my mom, he can put forth a proposition and it might take years if not decades to sanction it. There is no other choice.”

I nodded in agreement, still not facing him.

“Moreover, it is not like I don’t get to watch that bitch of your girlfriend cuddling you in front of me this weekend”

That is not true. I talked to her quite a while back about our separation, but she was adamant that we could work through it. She somehow thought it was because she wasn’t giving me time and since then had become extra touchy for a while.

Charlie started coming back to our quarters a little early to spend some quality time with me which neither I needed nor wanted. I had told her we needed to break up and get it sanctioned, but she insisted we go to therapy and sort it out.

After a while, she got the memo and we are on the verge of breaking up now. Her only request was not to tell anyone about the breakup before she told her parents.

It would take at least one or two weeks for that to happen. And I was ready to wait for a person who was nothing but sweet to me. I agreed for a month because else we would require to find another girlfriend within six months of the breakup. We are friends living together now. I had an urge to tell her the truth, that I was not a lesbian. I couldn’t tell her it wasn’t her; it was me.

They wouldn’t allow a quarter to have a single occupant.

Roommates wasn’t a concept in our land as the word temporary.

We were creating a permanence with strict rules. However, close-minded the rules were, it didn’t matter because they stopped us from destroying Planet Thero like we destroyed Earth.

We gave back what we took. No extravagances here in Thero.

“I broke up with her yesterday that is why I came in running today. Anyway, this afternoon is ruined. Let me get going”, I said, wiping my tears.

He sighed and we stood up while I looked around their quarters. It was messy with clothes on top of chairs, tables, and beds. Their room was bigger than ours, but Charlie kept ours clean.

I imagined our quarters when Olec and I got one. This was a dangerous game we were playing. Straight couplings were strictly against the rules. Olec and I would get banished. The only blanket of safety we might have is that of our parents because they were first and second in command and that would only work if they supported us.

That was very unlikely. My moms loved me but were very strict, and Olec’s parents were a terror and were a force to be recognized with.

I don’t know much about our rules origination, but I know why it happened. Our ancestors had no control over the growing population, and wars that without thinking of their future generations, they destroyed their planet with little to nothing to go on with. Then a group of highly qualified people from the military took over and realized we humans would destroy ourselves without rules and punishments. Humans had just discovered a new planet very close to home, which they took centuries to discover, very similar to Earth. But not everyone was allowed to leave the withering planet. There were tests, various ones which determined who was ready to follow the commands of the superiors without question. And whoever didn’t fit the bill was left on earth to suffer.

And all this happened hundreds of years ago.

The rules were many, but they worked in our favor.

We weren’t developed much; we didn’t cut trees at the expense of skyscrapers. Didn’t waste water at the expense of factories.

We didn’t reproduce just like that to avoid the mistakes of our ancestors.

At the start, we were allowed to reproduce one per family. Any other child was born after that, the whole family was sent back to earth.

Little by little rules changed, families stopped being mom-dad families, but mom-mom families or dad-dad families. The first in command-controlled the population with a vaccine, which stopped illegal pregnancy.

Test tubes babies then became hit.

Then straight coupling became illegal slowly, but the result was the same.

Blinking back to the current situation, I opened the door and looked outside to avoid any confrontation with the people. I looked back at Olec.

“Will you break up with Ryan now that I broke up with Charlie?”

Olec cringed and stepped back, “You know I can-”

I held my hands to stop him and decided then and there.

“Olec, we should break up. Please don’t contact me again.”