Chapter 1
(Lily's pov)
Lifeless green eyes stare with hatred and self loathing with a tint of sadness back at me , as i see the bruises and the scarring of my flesh that was left behind by my father him self as i cover them with concealer. My eyes slides to my broken nose , my small pathetic ears then to my thick pitch black straight hair,next is my body that was abused and used by my father and his brother.
I pulled my legs into dark brown leggings, with a caramel oversize hoody with the artists KARMAA on it i finished my look with light brown sneakers.As i run down the hallway as im late for school .I hear my dad and my uncle James get ready for work as i quickly run out the front door not wanting to be punch before school.
The walk to school was quite yet relaxing, I only live 1 minute away from my school. As I walk past trees and yards of other people's houses I think about a better life maybe a life with my mom in the sky above where birds sing and fly free no chains , no pain, no drunk men using u.
(FB-TW)
They're laughter rung through my ears as I stand naked infront of my dad and his cruel friends. One named Cris harshly grab my breast while yanking my head back by my lose waist hare and kissed me with his achol mixed with weed breath. While bile rised as one of his rough fingers trail up my bare arms to my shoulder to my neck alongside my jawline. Then he slapped me, turned me around and grabbed my hair as he trusted with a force into me as tears sprang to my eyes as I felt myself broke and a burning sting down there as he built friction it only burnt more. There was no use fighting all I could do was seeing my own father's cruel smile as he sat and watched me get raped by his friend the man that was supposed to be my hero . "Please stop" I begged but was answered with cruel laughter.
*End of Flashback*
That night four men used me and I lost my virginity to a disgusting man.
But here we are back at school after two weeks of healing.
As i walk through the school doors all eyes turns on me , the outcast the quiet girl,the girl that doesn't party or have any friends ,the girl that come to school gets straight a's ,the girl that didn't speak for months and months , the one that is bullied by Adrian Peterson his only victim.I always wonder why he hates me so much.Me and his sister was quite close but after Jake Peterson they're older brother hit my mom that night I just didn't go over there again I couldn't not even when I wanted to. I'm not allowed to go anywhere only school then back home if I don't want a beating that is.
Just then i saw him heading this way,as i turn around to get away i bumped into a girl i think her name was Ashley or something a great friend of Adrian. She smile softly at me and continued to walk . My eyes follows her and just then they land on Adrians fierce eyes. As our eyes meet i quiver in fear.
Just as he approaches me the bell rings and all students goes into they're classrooms "Well well well isn't it miss quiet, bumping into my friend now are we."His loud vioce boomed through the hallway. "Adrian just forget about this slut she ain't important" said Ashley just as they're other friend Mac joined the union."what do we have here?"mac ask with a devilish smile on his face and a twinkle in his dark brown eyes.
"Please not today i beg of you" i pleaded.
A surprised look forms on Adrians face as it is my first time in a long time that i have spoken.But as quick the surprised face came it was gone.
"And why would we do that?" he ask with a smirk. Please please just leave me alone I wanted to scream but instead a lone tear slid down my cheek ...
(Adrian's pov)
Regret,anger and depression is all I feel now a days, My dad's a dick with money my mom is a drug head because my dad cheats, my sister she doesn't speak to me anymore and my older brother the only one that actually knew me is in jail. Long story short he was drunk driving and killed a woman I think it's mouse's mom.
Thinking about mouse, I miss her so much her old self that is when she was cute when she was quite but now she's different so so different, she didnt speak for months still doesn't. I miss hearing her cute giggle when she was with my sister. I miss her smile that could make a grey day looked like a dream.
I hate it that she thinks I hate her. I hate seeing pain in her eyes but mostly that I'm the cause of her pain. I don't know why I always hurt her like I do I wish I could know.
But as I see her at school again after two weeks I know why I'm hurting her the way I do. It's because I love her but lost her, because she distanced her self from all of us, so being her own personal bully cept her some how closer than ever.
Just as she spotted me she turned to rush away when she bumped into Ashley. Just then the bell rang as I approached her and our eyes met, I saw a quiver of fear ran down her back. When Ashley called her a slut I almost shouted at her but I knew Ashley didn't mean it. Max also showed up.
Then she did something surprising she spoke again after one year and two months. But just as quick as my surprised came it went.But was only replaced by regret as a lone tear slides down her cheek.
Author's note:
Hey everyone I hope your day/night is lovely and that your ok. This is my very first book and I will welcome some advice. I also wanna thank you for readying my book also I'm quite nervous please don't hate also it's a slow update because I'm still in school so I hope you'll understand that it won't be easy updating everyday but I'll try my best I hope you all have a lovely day/night
Love author.❤️
