Daniel Parker
Chapter 1
Year 2019
Planet earth
About a year ago I got bit by a radioactive spider on our school trip to a research institute and brought me some powers along with some problems.
Which were dark enough to make it hard to stop myself from hurting others.
Exactly 3 months from now I quit being a Spiderman.
As the world has enough heros
and
Spiderman is not necessary
Actually
useless
and
unworthy
That's what I thought for myself
Is that why my parents abandoned me eventho they don't even know I swing around and punch a few faces
Break a few bones..
My grandparents doesn't hate me that much as I want them to
But
They love me I know that, I would love to deny it cause accepting it doesn't give u that much of a hope to look forward to an uncertain future.
I would love to help people but if am hurting someone to help someone is something I would rather leave this entire superhero thing than living with all those nightmares
No one knows except me i never outed my self yet and I wish it won't happen any time soon
As all these thoughts swirling around in my mind my alarm snoozed
I got up from my bed with not much of a struggle cause i used to be sleepless throughout the night
Cause people can't shut up
I can't stop myself to save someone but the after consequences of those who will be alive or who will be dead
What matters whether they be dead in my hands.
Or
By my hands
Those who die can be a friend or an acquaintance who u met during Thanksgiving
In the end it doesn't matter all this brings you nightmares
Nothing more........
Pain
And
Gw.....
My mind snapped back to present without a second
I started walking towards my bathroom,
I am working fast to keep myself busy so my mind doesn't wander around.
When I made myself out
I heard my grandma calling for breakfast
Do you think I can ever walk out from this darkness that was surrounding me?
As soon as I reached dining room
1st word i heard
ACT
Act
That's what am doing from the past few months.
Only thing left for me to do and forget her.
Moving forward is that even possible to walk away from all this guilt that has been eating me alive.
"Daniel"
Which started as a whisper starting to gain it's strength and stopped as an yell
"DANIEL"
This time I snapped out
And I was at the dining table with my grandparents
"Yes"
"What is it ??"
Grandpa sighed
"You can't go on like this Danny
We are worried about you"
"Grandpa I am fine"
I said with a smile on my face
"I don't know what do you mean by fine dan"
" You isn't talking to us as you used to be,you weren't smiling what happened to my grandson"
Eli's eyes filled with unshed tears
"Is it about Gwen?!!"
I can't breath anymore
These walls around me choking me I can't
I CAN'T
"Dan"
"Dan"
Their voices started ringing in eyes gradually changed to something i don't wanna remember
"NO"
"I am going to school"
I stood and started walking
My grandparents voices started nulling away
I slammed the door and stood outside for a moment to get my breathing in control.
I started walking towards my school which I would be walking
I got through the hallway I saw my friend Terry who was walking towards me
But I don't wanna talk to him
I tried to walk past him
"Daniel'"
As I walked past him he started walking / running
Beside me
"Why are you you avoiding me"
"I am not"
"Really"
"Yeah whatever"
"you say"
I started walking walking towards my locker.
I kept my bag inside
Took some books closed the locker
Started walking
I am glad he dropped this entire conversation
As we are walking towards our classroom
I saw her face again
It brings back
Her voice
Her scream
Her face
Why does she has to say it's okk
When it's not okk
When she knew I am gonna live my entire life in guilt of not saving her
"Daniel"
I snapped out
"Yes..... What is it "
"I literally yelled man why aren't you responding"
"By the way why are you staring at Gwen's poster"
"It's ....
" We are going to be late for class"
"Hurry up"
I sat in my place
Our home room teacher entered the class room with a guy
He was saying something similar to him being transferred from somewhere which i can't able to register
When he was instructed to introduce himself
He took a step a front
"Hey everyone
am Benjamin choi
Just call me Ben"
I didn't saw him until he sat beside me
"Hii am Ben and you are?"
I saw his face for the first time as i turned to him
His smile brightened
Something is different with him
Why
He looks different
He looks happy being here
Talking to me
"Hello"
He was flapping his hands infront of me
Raising his eyebrows
Why am I studying his expressions
"Hello"
I introduced myself
"Am ...um Daniel"
"Daniel Parker"
"Oh may I ask where u are from"
"Queens"
"And you"
"I am new in here, I transferred from LA"
"It's nice Meeting you BTW"
He said with a smile
" Do you smile like that for every one "
"Huh i don't know it's a sin to smile at everyone"
" No i was just being excited to start my classes in a school"
"Um i mean i was home schooled before so it was all new to me"
" Okk cool it's nothing wrong about that"
I tried to smile why my lips started raising he noticed it and smiled even more brighter.
I started to smile a little more
As soon as the class started he was busy taking notes and didn't even tried to look up
I was feeling dizzy i didn't had a proper meal in days maybe because of that
I fell asleep
Everything went silent
I am glad my mind got off for a moment
It felt good
Smiling which happened for the first time in a while
Maybe life is not that bad at all.
See you in next chapter
