Chapter 1
Start writing here…I see her in my dreams looking at me it happened a lot we just talked eyes language I always think about you you make me smile you make me sad but you are the best thing that happened in my life don't rush in it let's go back to the beginning.
One Friday our hero was having an awful day. he thinks that his life was destroyed than in the main break he sat with his friends in the restaurant and make his confession about all the girls he loves and failed to be a boyfriend until this day a few minutes later they go back to the class and he told them if he didn't find the one (he will prefer to commit suicide) or he gets depressed that moment our hero Antonio heard a voice that says (I get sick and you not) boys guess who she was:the hottest girl in the class, Nora,.( that was comforting)
that day the teacher doesn't show up so Antonio spends time with his friend Andrew they buy coffee(sit in the college yard) and they start a conversation about life and nearly everything. Andrew was special not like the rest of them he was an artist like our friend Antonio that's why they understand each other . at 15:20 he goes with the gang to study economy 101 class, not with the original teacher they select another. Called Mrs. Steve he sat down away from his beloved friends. After a half-hour, the lecturer asks them about the test Antonio says that the text wasn't clear then he hears a chuckle he turns around and sees two girls laughing at him he started explaining why he is wrong he starts a good discussion but he gets interrupted by this son of the bitch Daren and he turns and continued this course with an idea of kicking crazy Daren ass.
In17.05 the class is over on his way home Barbara says that he like her and finds out that two of his boys like her either (Daren was one of them)so he acts quickly and says that she is the one or the queen of his heart.
That time he think that it was just words until he met her again in the college cafeteria she says hi but he was an idiot and turned to his best friend and ask him about her name (he doesn't recognize her) (lame) then she gives him the most beautiful smile he sees in his miserable life)
(He was dumb not to ask her to his table or live his fucking friends for minutes and have a chat with her) the days go and he saw her at the university and has a casual Little dialogue the next Friday he takes professor Steve, to class as usual then Antonio Lombardo realized that he still doesn't know her name yet suddenly he hears the girl sitting next to call her Monica he uses the most powerful tool he has the Facebook and finds her quickly because they have a mutual friend Andre the hero best bro (one of the few people who understands him)when he back at the home he tries to contact him to know
information but he gives him nothing and tell him she could hurt him because of her personality but and encourage him to be just her friend(he told him he could do better)and convinces him to send her a friend request (of course she accepted) Antonio tries not to fell in love but as they say "you can love the fight but you can't fight your heart"
He has one thought in his mind that he doesn't want perfect he only wants Monica but he didn't talk to her because he is a little shy (so he insisted to take Steve's class only to see her ) (we can't describe her but to him, she looks like an angel)
During the winter break, he goes to his best friend Ted's birthday party, he meets a girl and spent 4 hours with her not flirting but talking about his beloved Monica ( the girl Cassy tell him:if she is the one don't hesitate and go for it) one day when Antonio was taking a walk to clear his mind he meets Nadia so they go to the coffee place to discuss the past events ( they share all their secret ) she told him about her boyfriend Jonh so he tells her about Monica. She told him(don't rush and tell her the three magical words "I Love You") after a while Lombardo open the topic again with his best friend Andree this time he got his back and give him his blessing he decided to take it slow and don't text her on Facebook with the I love you bullshit(Because he knows that she will ignore it) Antonio thinks that he should be with her So he waits for the right moment.
After the holiday he tough that he has a passing feeling they can fade away (the feeling can despair) moreover Antonio still tinking about her same as the hall break is supposed to be for preparing for the exams but he only sees her where ever he go or when he closes his eyes even she visited in the dream and sometimes talk to him she never leave s his heart or his mind she is the captain now (she control his thoughts. Otherwise his can't generate clear ideas anymore) how can you describe his feeling when he sees her the first time after a month apart? Sure we can't she chows up makeup-free but she looks gorgeous, and she got even hotter.
The young man struggling in his relationship with friends (it appears that they want a slave, not a friend) so he decided to stay away from them and go. Back to being an alone wolf, he has this phase called I hate everyone because he sees them for a reel without a mask for the first time
All of them including his imaginary best friend he surrounded by people but he can't breathe and is lonely more than ever So he needs a hero to save him from him( from his thought his past)be the light at the end of a tunnel give him a hand and drive him to safety.
Antonio:says I want to live a real-life I don't want to dream anymore
He wrote this letter to her but he never sends it.it says:
Is that you who I'm looking for?
can you make me happy?
After a lot of thinking and overthinking, I thought that I mustn't go after you and let you enjoy your long life and not annoy you with my problems when I see you happy I'm happy I have to let you go because I love you forever my Monica even though you, are not mine to keep You could like me but I can't do it it's complicated but I love you so much I can't stop thinking about you; can't sleep but I need to fix myself to be fit and deserves you, I will be the perfect boyfriend; fiancé, husband and the best father to our children
Ps: I love you
No, no let's come back a little to our hero we know that his life sucks and is difficult because of his money problem all people his friends included think of him like a mad loser(stupid )and treat him like shit but he keeps focusing on his work(writing)which make him calm and happy(we are not lazy but we hate what we do) completing his one urgent mission. Trying to get his beloved Monica Jackson)he doesn't have a lot of contact with her but we don't know why he tortures himself by not confessing his true love maybe he's a silent lover, Antonio was afraid of rejection) Monica is a lovely girl she never gonna
hurt him(she is cute; she's funny and warm she is just my everything) it's always been you
Monica is a beautiful college girl a sociable person, blue eyes and black hair who likes everyone and everybody like her, she has something
special that's her extremely kind(that is what you need in a girl)with an extraordinarily cute smile but until now. she doesn't know that's our friends Antonio like her but we well know that in the next chapter
To be continued.
