Chapter 1
Waking up early in the morning I am going to get ready for a new part of my life, everything is new now it's just me who is same .
Oh I forgot to introduce myself I, miss Inha recently transferred to a new city for continuing my higher education.
Earlier I used to live in my parent's house but for your knowledge I used to be alone and if you ask me why?
Then u can call me an orphan because they died when i was hardly 1 year old , even I don't remember anything of them my elementary education was done by the insurance of my father and for now I have passed scholarship test that helps me to fulfil my needs.
If I talk about my friends I don't have any. It was because they found me different,I don't know in what ways but I never mind it. I never became hopeless out of this, actually I was happy to be with me, Sounds silly but what can I do I can't force someone to be my friend.
That became a reason that now I am very formal to people. But dont think of me as an introvert,sometimes I even talk more than any living creature on this planet. I remembered that in the times when no one used to talk to me there was a granny who is the sweetest person I ever met in this world, she used to invite me for her world famous food she talks to me and I also talks to her a lot u can say that she is the only person who knows me well. She was in my neighbour.
Ok ok i know u get bored but it was necessary for u to know my early life and for more u will get know afterwards.
Unfortunately one of my classmate who was rude to me, I dont know the exact reason is in the same college. Uff and fool me who thought that I am going to free from one of my problem. Her name is Sia opps actually Miss Sia Oberoi. She don't like if someone just call her Sia.
Me to me :Forget about her and now just go as fast as you can or you'll be late for the very first day of your college.
Run Inha Run
Now I am here in front of the college looking for my classroom and to be honest I am internally praying that she should not be in my class.
But my luck oh, she is right here in front of me. Actually we are in a lift and I am still hoping that she must not be in my classmate again.
Forget about her I will not min-n-nd maybe. I am just 2 person back to her. I just thought to look at my room no. on my phone screen until one sound caught my attention .
Sia :ARE YOU BLIND OR WHAT? (With very high angry tone)
??? :Miss I-I di-dn
Sia : OH JUST SHUT UP,. DO YOU EVEN HAVE ANY IDEA WHOM YOU ARE TALKING TO RIGHT NOW? WHAT MAKES YOU BUMP ON ME ?? STUPID
I don't know what came in my mind but I entered in this matter without thinking twice.
Inha:It's not him actually I collided with you. (Without any expression on my face)
Inha : I am So-r(she cutted me off and grabbed my collar)
Sia : Oh!you. So you are here for taking revenges from me .(She said sarcastically)
Sia:I know that you did it intentionally but you know what?
You gonna pay for it. You messed up with wrong person. (With that lift opens ,by leaving my collar she make her way towards the exit in frustration)
To be honest I am not a weak person to be scared of her but I don't want fight with her because it's not help to solve a simple problem like bumping.
Forget it she is always like this.
I just came out of my thoughts and looked at the person who is looking worried and guilty at the same time.
He was about to say something but before that i said "it's okay" and walked out from there with my expression less face.
As I have already told you I am very formal to people and with strangers I hardly talk until its necessary.
But seems like he is following me to complete his sentence then I looked back and let him continue.
??? :I didn't did it intentionally I was about to apologize to her but she didn't let me and thanku so much for helping me but you have troubled yourself what if she.. (Worried face)
Inha:she will not (said straightly)
I again started to walk but he again interrupted my walk
??? :but why did u said her that u get bumped into her. (He asked curiously)
I thought for a while.
Inha:She already have issues wid me, so it's not a big deal if one more gets added to it.
??? :Once again thank you so much miss you literally sav-ed (he was saying with a very sweet smile but as u know I am getting late so i again started walking without letting him complete)
But this boy seems like he will say everything today be again interrupted me, so i stooped and gave him a irritateble look, don't mind my behavior but i dont want to be late on my first day of college.
As it was clear from my look that I am annoyed,he gave me pleading eyes and hesitantly ask me -
??? :sorry for interrupting you but do you know where is room no. Nb 7?
Inha:(I looked on my screen to find out the location of room he was looking for) It's on 4 th floor.
He was about to say something but me being me.
Inha :You may go ahead.
And as the bell rang he started moving so did I but i heard a loud sound from back and there he is screaming.
??? :THANK YOU.
My pov
I didn't thought but this behavior made a smile on my face and I continue walking no no running now even one second late and i am dead but my luck I am on time but wait sia, what??? Don't tell me she is in my class. Look she is already glaring me. Poor me. Ok ok cool down miss Inha it's nothing let's just ignore negative things around you it will be much better. I sat on my seat with my expressionless face , very far from sia opps again Miss Sia Oberoi.
??? Pov
( Today she I don't know who is she? but still she helped me a lot. When I was about introduce myself to her she already walked away it looks like she was in hurry but it will be better if I get to know her name at least I can remember her by her name.)
In class
My pov
I am tired attending the 2 hour long lasting lesson, it's not boring but still I am tired after this lesoon we have a break of 30 minutes I will take a tour to my new college)
Finally ended.
Now I am going but before me Sia get up and rolled her eyes to me and left.
Forget her, let's move ahead.
Now I am wondering the library which is so quite ok i know i know that all libraries are quiet but peace is something my favorite so from now whenever I got time i will explore this place.
I am always in my thoughts, what should I do it's a habit for me now as I already told you earlier I am formal to people but with me I am the most talkative creature ever born in this planet.
After watching pool , playground, labs which I just watched through my way. I am here in cafeteria with only 15 minutes left for our next lesson.
But I don't have enough money so I am just going to class moreover there is sia who is continuously glaring me as if she owns the cafeteria, leave nah you don't have to do anything with her
Finally in the class
Oh no looks like I am hungry offcourse I should be but I don't have anything so wait till this 1 hour long lasting class will end.
After the class,
Now I am so hungry and i dont have anything so I'll just eat breads.
Actually the problem is my scholarship money will come a little late so for this month I have to live on these breads and noodles.
But when I'll receive my scholarship then it will suffice me.
For now indeed I am not full with these breads but I can handle it, I am kind of used to it as I told u I don't have anyone in my family so it's common for me it was only granny.
She once told me that strong people are those who keep
smile on their face during their tough times, so i am gonna deal with a smile.
For today I handled it but I should work to earn but what will i do? I don't have anyone to ask about it.
One of the things , I forgot to tell that I write and i think I am not a bad writer but till now all my writings are just exposed to me. I dont think anyone will pay me for my this mini work as I don't have any publications earlier.
It's still evening, and i am thinking it will be better if I find a job, let's search for it. I move ahead, I don't know what I am searching but just thinking and thinking will not gonna help me so now I am gonna make some efforts .
Now I am in a market and to be honest this is not a bad place to visit, so many stores, so many people working and one thing food, now I cant wait, I am too hungry too skip meal so whatever money I have, I am gonna eat street food with it.
Finally I am relieved with this stupid stomach of mine.
Fine but I didn't find for what I came here. Moreover I don't have much money left now, it's only help me to suffice for about 3 days.
And I don't know, exactly when I am gonna have my scholarship.
After wondering all the places I didn't find any place which is suitable for me but I found a writing corner in a magazine which the publication selects every month and best of them get a payment . Deadline to post for this magazine is tommorow.
I know that I have only one night and tommorow I have college too but the major problem is not this, the time management can be handled .
The problem is the topic for writing is "Bonds and relations ". How sad the girl who never had connection with anyone has to write upon something like that.
But I don't have any choice. No matter what I will give it a try.
Time:9:00pm
Not a single word has been written and I have to write a contentful article , looks like I am torturing my brain.
I want to write what I have experienced and now the experience is 'nothing' but still let's dig into some my non-exisistings bonds and relations.
It's not wrong if I call it a nightmare I find hard to forget but see I have to remember it again .
In my school no one talked to me just because their families told them I am a bad omen due to which both my parents died.
Can u imagine a 8 year old child leaving behind and ignored for a reason she never understood? Maybe no it's not good to remember.
No one talked to me was never my problem so even being so small I never became hopeless.
I have seen people smiling with their families on festivals, I have seen the groups playing ,leaving me behind I have seen the frustration in their eyes just bothered by my presence.
I will not blame her but Sia was always their leader to control them and they were her puppets to do whatever she said, but I never mind as I told u earlier I can't force someone to be my friend, so I always follow my company.
The scenario of people around me was also not good.
In my neighbour I remembered their were many people who get divorced , many disputes between those families.
I have seen males near me disrespecting women. Calling girls burden and weak either by their words or actions, it was ridiculous I wonder how poisonous traits and practices are in this society and if having relation to this society means to follow this all, then I am better alone.
Even young boys of mine age were so lower minded . It was very clear by how they behave.
I wonder what's the point of learning if the way u think is worst than uneducated ones.
These things were also a mere cause that I aparted from people by heart, there is no reason to folllow pathetic and uncultured system which just tell you that you are good for nothing , and I never regret that I don't have any connection or I will never regret if in this whole life I never had any. As you can't drink poison just because you are thirsty.
I thought whole night and wake up without writing a line it's 6:00am
My college starts at 8:00am .
But there is something conflicting in my brain, I will not feel that low if I loose by trying but what 's up to my mind is I didn't write a single word, this idea shows me the biggest failure of mine.
Moreover many ideas from my past are now get refreshed in my mind. Remembering all these things don't makes me feel sad but it didn't let me happy either.
I am too much disturbed and when I become like this I go to my god , closes my eye and with scared heart of mine ask for his direction.
As it always worked.
By getting ready I am going to leave the apartment but I am still in my thoughts that I am unable to make my work successful, maybe nothing can be done,today is the deadline and I have to be in college.
I am on my way to college when my eyes fall on a boy who is back facing me, sitting down he is doing something, I continued walking and passed him .
I discovered two things he is the boy on the lift which get bumped into Sia, and he is holding a grasshopper on a leave and I guess moving it to the grass surface from road.
I am still walking and leaved him behind. I again came back to my thoughts that i couldn't make up my work but then I heard someone.
Strong people deal their harsh time with smiles on their face. 🙃😉
You can't drink poison just because you are thirsty.
