Broken girl

ok so idk where to start from *sighs* just know that im very scared and im crying as im writing

TW: attempted rape the first time second time i was raped

so me and my friends where enjoying the first month of summer in the back yard and all of my family and her family and friends were there and we were playing tag with the younger kids and then we played more games and then it was time to sit down and eat so of course my uncle Tomas decided to sit next to me but i didn't want him to but he did and so when he sat next to me he slipped his hand under the table and placed it on my leg and then he slipped his hand inside my pants (they had rippes in them) and so while he is doing this at the table and everyone is around he leans in close to me and tells me to not saying anything but tell everyone that i was feeling very ill from the heat and that i was gonna go rest and cool off so i did and left not hearing them and so like an hour later he came up to the house and into my room and locked the door and started undressing himself and me and the he sat next to me and started kissing my neck and then he pushed me onto the bed and started to kiss my entire body and then i pushed him off me and ran out flustered and scared and so that's when i ran into my dad and he asked what was wrong and so i lied and told him nothing and that i was feeling better and was ready to come back outside and that tio Tomas went to his room to rest after he checked on me and so my dad just walked off after he said ok ........................ Years later : it was the beginning of the school year of last year so the last night of summer and so after i hung out with friends and family i showered and got dressed into a big t shirt because it was very hot but i had on my moms shorts too and so i layed in bed wide awake bc i was nervous to start high school and so then i heard him walking down the hall so i played sleep but i had my phone also on record so then he walked in and started undressing and climbed into bed with me and start touching and kissing me everyone and so after i got tired of him doing that i woke up and started crying begging him not too but he kept going and it got really bad because he choked me until i blacked out and so after that i cried the rest of the night and then got up and got dressed and left for school and when i got to school i locked myself into the last stall in the bathroom and broke down crying after i took a pregnancy test and found out it was positive and so me not knowing that my best friend was in the stall next to the one i was in after she came out i was splashing my face with cold water and not realizing the test fell out of my pocket she saw and started crying with me and we still haven't told anyone that goes to school with us but my family and her family knows to and they are still mad at him but yea that's my story

bye guys