We're Just Friends

From Liam's point of view

Noah and I are best friends. We've been best friends for as long as I can remember. I have had so many sleep overs and secrets and just all around placed my full trust in him.

He was there when we were teenagers and I was doing shit I wasn't supposed to be doing. He picked me up out puddles of puke and hid me from my parents to keep me out of trouble.

He's pulled me aside to tell me my girlfriend tampered with a condom in attempts to get pregnant and trap me with her.

He punches my arm softly as we play video games. I smile at him.

After we've tried the same mission multiple times and failed, I lay back and he lays back beside me.

He exhales softly, "that was fun."

I nod, "yup."

He looks at the ceiling staying quiet for a while. He starts to undo his pants and I roll over. We are close but I try not to be too interested in his body. I can hear him jerking off.

He touches my back, "hey Liam."

I turn to him a little, "yeah?"

He sits up, "let me see your dick."

I shake my head, "no."

He pokes me, "oh come on show me it."

I sit up and start to undo my pants. He watches and I get out my cock. I look anywhere other than him.

He wraps his hand around it and strokes slow, "bro you're really big."

I shove his hand away, "I... I know."

He leans down and kisses along it slow.

I push his head away, "okay Noah. We can't do that."

He pushes me back on the bed and moves over me, "come on Liam. Aren't you a just a little curious?"

I think. Am I curious? Do I want to try this? Is this what I want?

I am questioning myself on and off because part of me has wanted him and the other part of me has always been with girls.

I look up at Noah, "okay we can try it."

I gently pull him close and look at his lips. He is handsome. I kiss him. It's different than kissing a girl. He's rough feeling, stronger even.

I pull him a little closer, "do you want this?"

He touches my cheek softly, "yes Liam. This is nice."

I pull his body close, "you bottom okay?"

He laughs, "no you're gonna bottom."

He pulls his shirt off.

I look at him, "oh okay then Noah."

I touch his stomach. He pulls off my shirt off. He leans down and kisses my neck. I try not to get too submissive.

I push him back, "I think that's enough for now."

He lays down, "okay Liam."

It's odd. I have always been in charge in bed.

I put my hand on Noah's stomach, "I'm sorry. I'm just nervous."

He gently places his hand over mine, "it's okay. I'll guide you. And you can guide me."

He slowly moves my hand down into his boxers, "slow okay? We'll go slow."

I wrap my hand around his cock and slowly stroke. He pushes his boxers and pants down. I move closer.

He rubs my back, "you wanna try to suck it?"

I nod a little excited and move closer. I shyly lick the tip.

He plays with my hair, "good. Go slow."

I wrap my lips around him slow and start to suck him off. He moans softly. I try to take the whole thing and gag. It's weird. This doesn't happen when you fuck girls. I try to stop comparing it to a girl.

It's not like with girls because he's not a girl.

I graze my teeth over his cock and then gag around him again.

He moans, "do that again."

I gag around him once again.

He whispers, "yes like that."

I keep sucking, gagging a little every so often.

When he cums. I spit it out nervously. He laughs at me. I roll over nervous.

He touches my back, "hey it's okay. Some people don't like swallowing it. There's nothing wrong with that."

I stay quiet.

He moves closer, "do you want to cum Liam?"

I nod a little and he moves me onto my back. He starts to stroke me but he doesn't move to suck me off. I pout a little about it.

He notices my pouting, "you want me to suck you?"

I nod, moaning softly in excitement. He starts to suck me. I moan. He's good at it. I cum and he swallows. I bite my lip and he gets dressed. He fixes my clothes too.

He lays beside me, "uhh Liam... I gotta tell you something."

I look at him, "you can trust me."

He nods, avoiding eye contact, "I've wanted to do that for a really long time."

I kiss him softly, "yeah?"

He nods again, "you're kind of hot."

I blush a little, "kind of?"

He blushes too, "well, really hot okay?"

I sit up and get my controller again. We continue to play the game, completing the mission with ease this time.

He looks at me, "I'll have to fuck you more often to clear your head so we can finish missions faster."

I gentle brush his hair back, "come here Noah."

He moves closer, "what is it?"

I kiss him slowly, "I don't think you cleared my head. I think you made it more foggy because I am more confused about my identity then I already was."

He moves closer to me, "well.... if it helps clear it up, I really like you Liam. And I have since we were in high school. But you are untouchable, unobtainable even then."

I look away, "high school is weird because we are all trying to maintain some kind of image. Teenagers are mean as fuck. I had to protect myself from the bullying."

He looks at me, "but you deserve to be yourself. Everyone deserves to live authentically."

I shrug, "I never stopped to question my identity long enough to know if I'm bisexual or just straight. I've fucked a lot of women."

He looks at me, "I know. And I've never fucked a woman. And my men pool has been small."

I rub his cheek, "I know Noah."