Burning heart

As i laid there on the roof staring at the wide sky above me a feeling of emptiness rushes over me the cold harsh wind blowing did nothing to my burning heart it was as if i was drowning but also on fire at the same time and nobody's out there to calm the storm inside me

I closed my eyes my grip tighten around the gun " Laila! Come down right now!" My heart started drumming loudly against my ribs as i take each step down

"Damien.... Is something wrong?"

His eyes darkened i gasped as his grabbed me by my hair dragging me upstairs with him ... Why ask me to come down then?

"You whore! How dare you say no to Lucas!" A slap makes me fall on the ground my cheek burn and hurt like hell damn he hit hard

I slowly looked up and with all the courage i had i spit blood on his face "How could you even suggest this! To sleep with your pimp brother" i felt the air blocked his grip tightening around my neck my eyes widened today i was going to die i shouldn't have spit on him

"You'll do as i say, Laila" he snarled

"I will not!" And i don't Know were this courage is coming from

"You will" saying he smirked before pushing me hard on the bed he had intended to rape me but instead my head hit the hard wood blood rushed out making me feel dizzy i opened my mouth to groan but his palm covered my mouth with one hard slap i lose consciousness

I gasped opening my eyes my chest continuously following a rhythm of up and down my cheeks were wet i shook my head he was in the past i reminded myself even thinking of him gives me chill to the core.

I can hear someone coming upstairs my eyes turned towards a huge figure it was a man , tall and somewhat muscley but not too much giving him a handsome appearance

He turned his head towards me our eyes met and somehow my heart didn't burn anymore i felt i wasn't drowning anymore his eyes crinkled as he smiled widely at me "Laila, i knew i would find you here" he says as he sits beside me

"Why did you need me?" I asked staring at his brown eyes.

"C'mon, you know why... Maria was scolding me again for leaving you" he huffs slowly laying beside me .... I chuckled he was a good friend a best friend who covered up for me whenever i decided to bunk and come up here to let off some steam

"Maria- is everything okay?"

I felt him nod "Yes, Antonio" my whole body stiffened hearing that name my heart couldn't stop jumping with excitement and a little bit anxiety

"What about him?" I asked keeping my tone casual so he doesn't suspects anything

"He is coming tomorrow with madame Asalina, we have found a lead. Soon we will be able to catch whoever kill damien" My feet goes cold and heart burns i turn around my body facing him.

"Who is Madame Asalina" i asked

He shrugged "could be his girlfriend or sister who knows?" I nodded

He pushes a hair and puts it behind my ear staring at me intensely "About Damien what did they find?" I asked

"He was a college dropout and used to work at a bar that's all we got" i nodded

"And Antonio got a letter from his spy the letter will reveal everything, but be present at the meeting i don't want to die" i chuckle nodding my head.

Was i in love with Antonio? If not why my heart flipped everytime he is near or i hear his name .... The answer was no i wasn't in love maybe yes but i was too much of a coward to admit that.....

"A spy you say, who is he or she? Do you know them?" I questioned

"I have no clue". He whispers somehow his voice soothes my burning heart i stare at him

I woke up feeling like someone had shot my brains out .... Nauseous ... I started throwing up but a bowl appears magically i look up slowly my head was killing me i clenched my jaw but it hurt my head so i let it loose

A pair of beautiful hazel eyes stares at me with concern, his eyes adores me appreciates all of me i look away my cheeks burning red

"Damien, my head hurts, i don't remember anything - he puts his finger on my lips

"Shh.... Rest my love... You fell from stair and hit your head- a tear roll down his cheek- you had me worried please rest" he says keeping his finger on my chin i nod before laying down

His presence made me blush and my heart jittery i love him i close my eyes...

Wet lips touches my forehead before i hear the door shut slowly my smile reaches my eyes he had me blushing like a lovesick teenager whose crush kissed her for the first time

A light slap on my cheek wakes me up i glare at lucian "What?"

"Staring is rude" he says

I roll my eyes "You've been staring at me for past few minutes... Don't tell me you're in love" he whispers the last sentence

I chuckled "In love with the stars, the moon and the sky in love with the roof, some cigars and your company- i was going to continue but he shakes his head leaning over my face his face few inches away he smiles as he continues "In love with Blue Eyes, the freckles, the smile the dimples and the heart " I smiled

"In love with whom?" I pushed him off he groaned before walking towards the edge and somehow his back appears sexy as he just stands there looking down at the cars

"In love with daisies, dandelions, lavender, tulips and orchid" he continues his mint breath hits my face giving a feeling of security

If i move a Little forward we would be kissing right now i smile he is staring at me with loveable eyes the one you die for the one you cannot resist and i was scared "What about Roses?" I asked making some space between us.

He laughed making me smile widely "What about it's thorn?"

I shake my head "what's success without hardship?" I shot back the conversation was leading us to distractions and we both knew that

"What if my way of success is different?" He asks

"The hardships still remains, lucian" i shot back

He lit the cigar with the lighter before inhaling and exhaling "But, if you're in love you fight for it every hardship appears maybe a great challenge but you together can overcome it whatever's thrown at your way" he says together we can overcome it i nodded our hair dancing along the wind "So what about Roses?"

"What do you even like about them? They're so hyped" he is looking away from me somewhere deep in his thoughts he looked cute "Roses are beautiful"

"Indeed, Beauty lies in the eyes of beholder, but if i were in love with roses- i raise an eyebrow nodding for him to continue - love makes you blind -he was now facing me holding the eye contact staring right into my soul as if all my secrets were revealed there was so much intensity in his eyes i was thankful that it was nighttime he wouldn't witness my cheeks grow red

--I will be blind to it's thorn and embrace it even if that hurts..... But if i were in love even if i don't like roses my eyes would search roses in fields of sunflower, the tulips and orchids , in fields of daisies and dandelions only if i were in love -"

I am completely speechless "Why search them in fields of different flowers?"

He smiles "because laila when you're in love won't you search for the person who owns your heart in crowd? They're the beauty, everything just reminds you of them"

"Everything " i whisper

"Everything, Laila..." he says..

"I hope you find your Rose" I smile giving a little tease to my tone

"Well, do you plan on staying here all night?" He asks

"No, let's go" He nodded

The street appeared busy as we walked together towards my apartment lucian looked nervous for some reason the whole week he's been acting nervous around me whenever he escorts me to my apartment and before leaving he would give me this look i never seem to comprehend

He was giving me the look again his eyes lingering on my lips before it makes it's way back to my eyes he clears his throat

"Don't miss tomorrow's meeting , Laila" he says almost like a whisper

I laughed "I don't want to miss it trust me"

His jaw clenched his eyes upset "because Antonio will be there" he says my jaw drops

"Partly yes, but i also don't want you to get scolded by maria again" i assure he smiles but something about this smile doesn't seem genuine

He nods "Good night"

"Goodnight" i whisper but before i had the chance to move he turns around again with those sad eyes "Laila" he calls

I stop, looking at him with questioning eyes he takes a heavy breath "But if your love is one-sided you die a little bit inside every passing second -its better to let go of that Rose the thorns will rip your heart apart"

My eyebrows connect together in confusion where is this coming from?

"Lucian- what do you mean?"

He comes closer his scent engulfs me his eyes never leaving mine his one hand goes around my waist and one rests on my cheek my whole body freezes his touch sent shivers down my spine he pulls me closer i look up at him with confused eyes he smiles before leaning down and taking my lips in his my eyes go wide my heart is beating fast the kiss is slow , soft and gentle almost as if he doesn't want to hurt me, as if he wants to cherish every moment of it.

I know he can hear my heart beat, his hold tighten as we broke the kiss he is looking at me breathing heavily and so am I ...... And i start to realise that Lucian my bestfriend just kissed me and the worst part is i kissed back and liked it..

Before i know it my palm connect on his cheek making him face the other way and down i am breathing heavily tears threatening to spill

"Never do that again" i warn

He rubs his cheek his eyes holding regret as he nods slowly before turning around "Never again" he whispers to himself

With heavy burden of unknown emotions that formed on the surface i ran inside of my apartment with the kiss still on my mind...