DARK SECRET

PATINA 1:

You want me to tell you a story??

About myself...

About my past....

About my.....

dark secret....

FLASHBACK:

"Mom! Look!! Do i look pretty!!??" I turn around while showing Mommy the barbie dress i am wearing. The color is pink and it was so very beautiful. this is really what I chose when Nanny Moire and I went shopping "Mommy!! mommy!!! This is what I will wear for my birthday!!" I said smiling looking at Mommy.

"Wear whatever you want..." Mommy replied to me.

Little by little, my big smile disappeared when I saw that Mommy didn't even look at me.

I slowly approached her to see what she was looking at. My eyes were shining when I saw the beautiful dresses in the book.

"Mommy!! Mommy!! I like this!!!" I said happily when I saw the beautiful dress in the book.

"Gosh Patina!! I almost had a heart attack!" SHe said angrily and touched her chest." Mommy didn't seem to realize that I was behind her.

When Mommy put the book on her desk I immediately picked it up. As I flipped through its pages, I saw many different dresses.

"Patina!! Give me that!!" Mommy yelled at me angrily when she saw me holding the book.

"Mom---" I stopped speaking when she suddenly slapped me. Before i realized SHe quickly took the book in my right hand.

"Get out in my room!!!! Now!!" i was crying as I walked out on my Mommy's room.

When I entered my room, I immediately locked the door.I lay down on the bed and buried my face in my pillow.

Mommy is really always like this. SHe always scolds me. I even ask myself why she treated me at this way.

I cried for hours and locked myself in the room. I got up and opened the door a little, speculating that there might be a maid outside so I could ask for some food. I saw just the quiet of the hallway and I didn't see even one person. I just closed the door and was about to go back to bed when I saw myself in the mirror.

My hair is a mess. My eyes and eyebrows are also red from crying. I slowly raised my right hand to touch the large mole on my face. It is very large and very black. Half of my face was covered by it.

Ever since I was a child I have noticed that it is gradually growing. I looked down at my foot which also had a dark mole.

Why do I have this thing in my whole body ???

"Patina !!" I heard Nanny Moire's voice at the same time, i heard a three knocks on my door.

I immediately fixed my face on the mirror and after that I opened the door.

Nanny Moire even asked me why I was crying so I told her everything that happened earlier.

"Don't get mad at your Mommy Patina, she's just in a bad mood and she didnt mean to slapped you. "I nodded at what Nanny Moire said.

"Wow! Our Patina is so beautiful !!! "My smile widened even more as I went down the stairs.

Today is my birthday and today we are also going to my birthday party.

I didn't know what my reaction would be when I saw that the other maids started to talking to each other when they saw me in the dining hall.

Mommy and Daddy didn't let me go down to the first floor, I don't know why.

"Where are Mommy and Daddy Nanny Moire ??" I asked when I could go downstairs. Nanny Moire immediately approached me and fixed my hair. He smiled at me before pulling my hand away. I was surprised at what Nanny Moire did as we started to climb to the second floor of the house.

"Nanny Moire, why did you send me back to my room ??" I asked when I saw Nanny Moire open my room.

"Stay here. the party will be held later on." She replied and pushed me into the room. He was about to close the door but I blocked it.

"the party will be held later ?? But I heard Daddy say that the party is supposed to start ?? "Confused, I looked at Nanny Moire.

"Honestly Patina, there really isn't a party. I cried as I stared at Nanny Moire.

"No party ?? "I asked to be sure of what she said. When she nodded I cried even harder.

Nanny Moire knelt down and wiped away my tears.

"Don't worry. Even if there is no party, we can still celebrate your birthday." I immediately smiled at what Nanny Moire said.

There was a simple celebration on my birthday. Nanny Moire and I were in my bedroom and there was a cake and other dishes ready on my mini table beside my bed. Uncle Zapf also participated in my simple birthday celebration.

I was sitting on the bed and smiling looking at Nanny Moire and Uncle Zapf as they started singing happy birthday.

"Blow the candle Patina!" Smiling Nanny Moire said.

That was my 9th birthday.

For my next birthdays, the celebration is still in my room. I also started asking Nanny Moire why we were always in my room when we were celebrating my birthday, but she always changed the subject.

I also ask her why Daddy and Mommy don't want me to go outside. I could always just stare out the window while watching our helpers working in our garden.

"Nanny Moire...."

"Yes Patina ?? "She smile as she placed the tray of food on the side table."

"can i go to the garden ?? "I asked then looked out the window where I could see the beautiful flowers over there.

"Im sorry Patina. Your dad tell me that you can't go outside..." She said sadly.

"Why??"

"I don't know either, Patina"

I Sadly started eating. I kept asking myself why they didnt let me to go outside. I was always lonely, and the only way that can accompany me was my beloved books.

They didnt even let me to go to school. Nanny Moire just only give me all my homeworks and when the examination day, my private teacher is in my room and let me take a tests. I was so happy coz i always get a higher scores in exam.

"Wow!! You got a higher grades again Patina!!" Uncle Zapf was smiling when he give my card.

"Do you think Uncle Zapf, that Mommy and Daddy will be proud of me??!!" Uncle Zapf nod.

"Ofcourse.."

When Uncle Zapf left. I was smiling when i was walking to my dad's study room.

"Daddy! Daddy!!!" My smile fades when dad look at me so badly. Ever since, i didnt even see Mom and Dad smiles at me. "D-daddy, i got a higher grades this year..." I nervously said and lend him my card. He just stared at my hand with a card to it.

He look at my card before looking me back.

"Even though you got a higher grades Patina, your beauty doesnt fit in our company."

I dont get it. I dont understand what my Dad said to me?? My beauty??

My mood change when i go back to my room. I was thinking all over and over what my dad said to me. I dont understand at all. I dont understand why they treat me this way.

I also tell my mom about my grades and she just stared at it and tell me to go back in my room. I was clueless....

Uncle Zaft and Nanny Moire was the only person who was happy in my grades.

This past few weeks, ive always been in the hospital. Uncle Zaft and Nanny Moire accompany me. They were so worried, when i tell them that i can hardly breath.

They take several test on me. I was staring at the doctor when he touch my big moles on my face.

That time i heard that i have a Melanoma skin cancer. I dont understand at all? Melanoma skin cancer??

Again, i watch my face in the mirror. Ive seen through the mirror that i have a lot of black moles all over my face. Also, in my whole body i have this thing.

I was clueless. I was asking them why do i have this kind of thing in my body.

"Uncle Zapf. Can i go in the garden??" I said while pointing our garden. We were heading back in my room when i said this to him. Uncle Zaft stop for a moment while staring at me.

"No Patina. You need to rest." He replied.

I was so mad so i was thinking a way to make myself feel good. I was reading a fictional books and i read a scene wheren a girl secretly go out in the house and didnt tell her parents about her leaving.

Our house is so quiet, probably all of the maids are already sleeping. So this is my chance to go outside.

I was watching every corner in our house and even though, its quiet older and looks like modern house.

I was carefully walking down the hallway. I take off my sleepers so that it didnt make any sounds while i was walking. I was so happy coz the back door in our house isnt locked.

I dont know how many hours did i stayed outside. I was running in the garden and everytime ive seen an attractive flowers i always picked it.

I was curious when ive seen a bright light far away. When i was walking, i was passing our parking lot wheren i smiled so wide when i seen a bicycle. The owner of this bicycle is one of our maids.

I tried so many times to ride it. And a few months i already mastered riding a bicycle. I always do this everynight. When the night comes i sneak in our house to go in our backyard and did all the things that i want to do.

Nanny Moire keeps asking me why do i have a lots of scratches in my feet and hands. I lied to her but she didnt believe what i said thats why i tell her the truth. Though, she said she will never tell this to my parents. She also let me to go outside when the nights come.

I was still curious about those bright light far away. So i was thinking to go there so I open our gate. I was also wondering why i couldnt seen a body guard anywhere. Though, i was still thankful coz i get out in our house safely.

I was riding a bicyle. I ride those highway wheren it was so dark that i couldnt see anything. I was so thankful that i brought a flashlight in my pocket.

I stop riding when i already seen clearly the house. It wasnt house at all. It looks like a mansion. It was so big and yes it was so beautiful. The main gate was so big and high. I can say that the owner of this mansion is so rich.

I hurriedly get back in the bicycle and start riding back in my house when i seen a two body guards coming in my way.

This past few weeks. I always did this things. I stop riding when i can seen clearly the mansion. I always ride this bike to go to the different places. Though, i get scared easily coz i always seen a big trees everywhere.

Again today, i was still sight seeing the mansion and when ive seen a car coming on my way. I hurriedly take my bike and hide in the tall trees beside the highway.

I saw the car. Its the same car of my dad. I wasnt wrong at all coz i always seen him riding that through the window. I also heard last time in our maids that dad didnt let any driver to ride that car. And i wondered.... what did he do to that mansion.

Nanny Moire tell me that dad and mom go in the business trip thats why i didnt see them this last few weeks. But why now.....?? Is it possible that someone else's riding my dad's favorite car?? Or.......

It was a different car??

"Congrats Patina!" My private teacher greeted me with a smile. She take the medal and put it in my neck. She was still in my room and bring me the good news, about my academic achievement. I fake a smile at her.

I wasnt happy at all, coz Mom and Dad didnt appreciate my achievements.

Again. I was in the hospital. Bacause my moles over my body is so itchy and sore. Then its bleeding and becoming crusty.

This day. I heard the doctor that melanoma is a skin cancer. Last time, i didnt understand it but i think now i understand what is skin cancer. So this is a skin cancer looks and feels like?

Since when i was still a baby i already have this moles. That what Nanny Moire said to me when i ask her about my moles in my body.

Every part of my body has a moles. I was so thin. I tried to eat a lot but i notice that i didnt get any changes in my body. My chest is aching and it feels like i couldnt breath well then i was always coughing.

I cried a lot tonight when now i understand my situation. Wheren this melanoma can kill me. I thought before that this moles are just normal.

Even before, i was thinking why do i have a lot of moles in my body and why does they didnt have.

I was already 12 years old. I am now a high school student. Though, still nothing change when i was still in elementary. Even now that i am a high school student i still have a private teacher that will teach me a lessons in my room.

Also, i am here again in the hospital. The private doctor have to check my health.

"Stay here for a minute Patina." Nanny Moire said before leaving me alone in the hospital room.

I dont like waiting and i dont have anything else to do in this room. So now i was walking the hallway in the hospital. Ive seen a lots of people looking at me with a disgusting looks. Does it because of my moles in my body??

I didnt expect that dad was in here in the hospital. Did he came here because she was worried about me? Did Nanny Moire tell dad that i can't breath well that's why he hurried to go to hospital to see me??

"Daddy!!!" I shouted while running towards him. I hugged his hips so tight. I didnt know that daddy really cares about me.

"Excuse me kid. Im not your daddy..." I couldnt believe what he said just now. He was smiling at me but behind that smile i saw his dark look, like he was saying that i should let my hand go away in his hips. I was going to do that but he did it first.

"I was so surprise, Mr. Gonzalo, i thought you also had a second daughter---"

"Dr. De Vega..." Dad said in a warning tone to the doctor that approach us.

I was staring at dad when he walk away until i didnt seen him in my sight.

I dont know this kind of feeling in my chest. Like i was sufficating. I dont understand why he said that. Why did he said that i am not her daughter??

End of Patina 1: