I can’t help myself
I can’t help myself. I want people to be happy. All of me hopes that with everyone I meet, I can make their day. Every now and then, I wonder what someone must be going through and if my smiles help. Does it still work if the smiles are fake?
I can’t help myself. I want to stop crying over little things. It’s easier said than done. Sometimes it starts with something little but grows to be a combination of the world’s problems. Am I wrong for taking them on myself?
I can’t help myself. I won’t say what’s wrong because I can’t trust anyone. I’m scolded for it. I thought I was supposed to keep to myself. Is it so wrong that I can’t put my walls down?
I can’t help myself. I get attached too easily. It’s hard to let go even when I know it won’t last. I need stability but I don’t look in the right places. Where do I find it?
I can’t help myself. Every part of me wants to run. My every being, my every fiber is urging me to leave all I have and find my happiness. Sometimes I think it’s better if I stay, so I don’t disappoint the people around me. Is it ok if I sacrifice myself for others?
I can’t help myself. All I want is to change the world, but everyone says I have to change myself first. I thought I was supposed to be myself.
I want to see smiles on everyone’s faces but I can’t give a real one.
I want to stop crying but the world keeps forcing its problems on me.
I try to trust people but they’re too unreliable.
I latch onto the steadiest pebble I can find but it seems to slip and get lost.
I hold myself up when I feel that I can’t so no one sees how weak they make me feel.
The only constant seems to be the stars in the sky which only disappear because the sun can’t help but outshine them.
I am the stars. I’m spread around the world, stretched over miles. I shine in the night so the few who travel in the dark have a guide. When the sun comes out, people forget me and marvel at the brightness. Some complain about the sun but still refuse to want me. Sometiems I'm dim other times I'm bright, but one day, I'll blow.
