Cravings we all have. . .

"What are you looking at"

She said this with a shy smile on her face with no eye contact... & I was stunned by that glow of her face. I just remembered why I had crush on her❣️

Well it had been 5 years to talk to her or seen her to be honest... Since the first year in college.

"That ear ring of your's... They look good on you"

I'm sure I made her blush with that cheap & the most common dialogue out there...

Our Coffee ☕ arrived at the table...

"I was kinda nervous to message you... I felt like... U would hv forgotten me Or something " I said it out loud 🤦‍♂️... To fill the awkward silence.

She gave me look... R u fool¿¿... 🧐

But she replied "and i thought... U r messaging me bcz u think I'm someone else... "

Me in Dis-believe- "why?? "

She state the answer in a way... I wasn't excepting...

She put those words with a expression of voice... Tht made me realize I really did hurt her with that ghosting act... But it also made me realize tht it doesn't matter now..." I " Don't matter now...

Well... I didn't ghost her... I just let her be...

"leave that... Just tell me hw u been... Fill me in on everything tht hd been done & about to be... I don't wanna feel like the stranger one"

As we felt really like stranger after these 5 years...

We talked till her coffee ☕ was down to the last sip & mine was about to be start... She blabbered everything she wanted to.. But i was just lookin' at her. Try to capture those glimpse of her smile at me. But i couldn't bcz she was just laughing with her frnd. Unlike me who was just waiting for a hint... So i can again fall for her...

I was kinda dis-hearted to know tht I might not have wht i wanted with this meeting... But i was glad I did message her bcz I wanted see her & feel her presence... I never wanted tht phase to come to an end wht we had back then... But it's a story to tell another time...

That day... Traveling from the Flat to that coffee ☕ shop was an illusion to me tht I was goin' to be on a date... & I might accomplished the goal of being the one to be craved for...

But tht ride from coffee shop to back to the flat put me in the place where I hd the craving for the person she was...

We ended up dating each other... & everything seems really good till the end of our days. But i couldn't find the girl she was... I tried to rebuild of her memories but I just couldn't.

Well I guess I'm gonna hv to live with this craving for the rest of my life...