Chapter 1
To Gdo….
Good morning.
This was not a form of salutation, this is a form of calling. Everything is good is another recreation of you and my mornings cannot start unless you are there, so yes Good Morning!
This is my first time writing to you... Maybe the reason that I did not earlier was that I believed that I did not have to, you were always so close and always be I hope… I am not writing because this belief has faded or something, it is for me. For me to tell myself what I thought I knew and maybe just a fraction of chance you will find another weird fact about me….
My belief in my stability is what has faded –another lie I was telling myself that I was mentally stable- I have recently discovered that being steady in certain situations when you are not supposed to be so is quite unnormal. When many things happen one after another in a small period in which you also have to concentrate on other important issues and find real solutions is what matters the most because you are the only one who is left steady enough, you will only feel the aftermath when it’s all done. I think I am there now. Dealing with the aftermath when it is all done. It may sound crazy but I don’t know at this point what is crazy and what is not.
