Introduction
What if Jugyeong was born beautiful? What if she was born smart? What if she never met Suho on the rooftop? What if they never met at the comic book store? What if Jugyeong was not joyful at all?
JUGYEONG’s POV
Middle school. The worst year of my life. When everything I was scared of came hitting me like a truck.
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FLASHBACK
“It’s gonna be fine, Jugyeong.” “Stay Strong.” “I’m sorry for your loss.”
Everyone was telling me to stay strong but I didn’t even cry. I didn’t even cry at my mom’s funeral.
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It still doesn’t hurt, now that I think about it.
I’m in high school now. After my mom’s death, I became even colder than I was ever before.
I was in elementary school when she died. After her death, I shut everyone from my life. Even my siblings. Especially my dad, who got married when I was in the first year of middle school.
But in my second year at high school, he came into my life and just got stuck in my head. He changed me. Showed me what the world truly is. Who I truly am.
Until he also left me. Stranded all alone on a deserted island. After his death, I didn’t let anyone in my heart. I built a wall around it. Inside which I preserve my memories with him.
Outside the wall, I’m just a cold person, sick of life. Because only he knew my soft side. Only he knew who I truly am.
After his death, I’ve never laughed, never smiled. Just cried during the night and pretended like nothing happened the next day. I just live to die. To get good grades. To sign up for my dream job because he wanted me to fulfill my dreams. Though he was never able to complete his.
I still miss him. My ex-boyfriend. I still miss Han Seojun.
