My first chrush since forever

Hi my name is Cindy.I am 13 years old so that means I am in grade 7 ,which is great.I got a new friend named Carol. She was weird but i liked it . I have another friend (he was a boy ) named Cj we were all in the same class. Cj was the first boy best buddie I ever had expect when I was 5 I had the friend called Dawid then we had go out for 5 years .Back to 2022.I was not popular but everybody know me. I was very good in all my classes until my mom passed away because of Covid.So I tried to study hard but it did not work.I never had a chrush before so I really did not believe in love. Carol always talked about boys like Felix on tik tok or the guy she like who lived in Pretoria or all the boys in our class. So I tried to listen but I always changed the story to something else.