Chapter 1
This world around me is so big and beautiful.
I may be small, but sometimes I feel like I stand so tall.
When I fly through the air on Daddy's shoulders,
And when I bounce so high on my trampoline.
I feel like I am invincible.
Untouchable, limitless.
I'm so tiny, but my heart keeps expanding in bliss.
I laugh at the silly puppies walking down the street.
I smile at the scent of mom's chocolate chip cookies.
And sometimes, I cry when I can't have that candy bar.
I want my toys and my candy.
I want them because it will fill me with that bliss...
I know everything, I must!
My problems are fixed by simple goods,
Yet mommy doesn't look as happy as she should.
I wonder why it's such a big deal?
Maybe I just don't know how it feels...
But then, I did.
This world around me is callous and cruel.
I'm all grown up now, but I can barely stand up tall.
When the stress gets heavy and there's no support system,
I get my high with my best friend, Mary Jane, the only one left.
In that moment, I feel incredible.
But people can still get to me; I still am set back by those walls.
I'm so big but my heart never feels like it's full anymore.
I walk by the old woman with the dogs without a care.
I seldom smile because there is no more fresh cookies.
And sometimes, I cry when those candy bars I once loved force a purge.
I yearn for those carefree, silly days of my youth.
I felt that unnamed feeling day after day...
I know so much more now, except for why nobody stays...
My problems can't be fixed by those stupid little things.
Mom knew how painful it would be, and missing her still stings.
Because, you know what? It is a big fucking deal.
When we grow up, we all find out how pain really feels...
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damn now this was deep.... i love it. I'm sorry if you had to go through that (unless it's fictional), it is true that in our childhoods we are carefree, but growing up we find out how the world truly is
the stress part touched my heart