"I'm inlove with you"
I've been in love before.
That was so good and so happy feeling.
I can say that.
Because I feel energized all the day, when I see her.
I don't know why but, I've been loving that person.
That I can't show to her my feelings, when anyone else is around.
It feels annoying right.
But I've spend my highschool years with, that kind of situation.
It sounds crazy but it's true.
And when the time comes.
I showed her, all the love I feels for her.
But I don't received even just a single reply "l love too" from her.
Another crazy stuff, right?
But that's okey for me.
Now I can say that you truly love a person.
You will love her unconditionally.
You will show her.
How you really love her.
Without expecting in return.
Then I was stun and shocked, by myself.
Because after many years of waiting.
I'd able to wake up.
From waiting for her to fall inlove with me.
And I've learn that I was fool of dreaming, that someday she would feel. The way that I feel for her.
What a foolish guy I was.
So I distance myself from that person.
And that is the time, I received a wonderful message from her.
That it says "I love you and I miss you so much"
That is the last message, I received from her.
You know what?
I didn't know that your foolish person too.
After that I try to move-on from her.
But is not that easy.
You know it hurts, but that is the choice I made.
You know what? It is not easy for me to move-on.
Even though I'm the one who left her.
Because I truly love that person so much.
That it took for me a couple of year.
To fully recover and heal myself.
It's to shy to say this as men.
That if I said "I love you".
I truly mean it.
I never lie to anyone or anybody.
I never will.
And I always give all, I've got for that person.
I was a foolish guy, right?
For giving all that to a person, I loved.
But I won't never ever regret it.
Because I did all my best for her.
But I have a big reason for that.
It was if that person would leave me.
Or lie to me, or even cheated on me.
I will have nothing to regret.
Because I did all my best for her.
And because I already given all I've got to her.
If it is not enough for her.
I've nothing to do with that.
But suddenly this happened for no reason.
When the time that, I was fully recovered from that person.
A girl from out of nowhere arrived.
And I didn't know if she will give me love or pain again.
But you what I know that the second time around would be painful.
But that person that I didn't know.
Why and where did she come from.
Shocked me a lot.
This girl broked up the walls that I made.
And now she is trying to steal my heart.
I'm just hoping she not like the first one.
And I really hope she won't break my heart again.
She is a person, from far away land
A cute baby girl that is that so different from, other girls that meet before.
A whom I didn't know if she really exciting.
And now of what she did.
I'm getting curious about her.
That I wanted to see her.
And thank her for choosing me.
I know I'm not the perfect guy for her.
And just nothing compared to her.
I know someday she would leave me and, hurt me again.
Just like the other one did.
And it would hurt me a lot.
But that is okey for me.
Because I have no choice.
Maybe I was just made for this kind of situation.
For now I love to stay with her.
Until this love story ends up.
And until it would hurt me again so bad.
Loving you Mr Chinese.
