Chapter 1
Miss u is a part of moving on . Being depressed is nothing new. If I knew we would end up like this than I could never start this . now crying and being lost is all because of u.
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I want u back but I know I can't. but I keep thinking about you imagining about us remembering us together even though I don't want to . feeling so blue that even traveling is waste now .
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I guess I am in love again but I don't wanna be like this because I know I don't deserve this or any happiness but I want you with me now ,tomorrow ,forever but I know I can't have you ever again.
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I think I need more time to forget u but I think it's impossible. This is all your fault. I was never happy or sad being with you but I don't why I am feeling like this now I guess killing myself is the only to get off this thoughts . I wish I could just go back in time and change everything and make you fall in love with me. But if I love u again I'll lose myself. Staying with u will make me even sick. And ik you won't love me until I become that aesthetic girl like the one from your dreams. But now I have started to love myself more than anything. I guess this is the changing point of my life until you came back again. I was happy for sometime but not anymore. Thx for reminding me that you andI had something which meant nothing to u.
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I want to change my life and go fast forward to my 10th death anniversary .
