It's just a teenager life

So I am finally in high school now I don't how to feel rty now but I feel like I am a grown up now.. but ofc I am not .. well now I have to do many things by myself and face many things.

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Well so I didn't even realize that I am 15 now . It feel like yesterday only I was celebrating my 13th birthday with my unicorn cake everything so colorful I was one of the who loves colorful things and etc.....

But now I hate colorful things I don't why it just feels so childish now whenever I feel anything in so many bright colors in it. Well it's 22nd century and soon it will be 23rd century I don't know how to feel abt that. But surely I hope this coming new year I'll be a good sweet innocent girl. And I said I hope I didn't said I will be. Cause I know I can't be that girl even if I try to be. Cause I am not that girl and I don't want to be like anyone.

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One thing I thing I can tell that sometimes I love being a teenager and sometimes I don't. Cause our life take a huge change and we have to capable to handle it. And also our hormones just hits like anything and I that u can understand what hormones I am talking abt cause we are teenager that dirty minded fellow. Now don't tell that you are not dirty minded come on ..... don't lie......... I know the truth...but unless you are that nerd than I can say that you are not dirty minded..

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There's nothing wrong being dirty minded I mean anyways you gonna know abt this stuff it's just that it hits in next level when you know this stuff when you are teenager cause it's just a part of teenage life...

Like do u remember that group games that everyone used to play which is truth and dare and before even the game starts I already know what gonna be the first question it is "who is your crush " and I was the girl who could fall for a guy whom I saw in some random street and imagine my life with him..... I mean come on I am just a teenager who romantics her life like this imagining stuff and I don't it's possible or not but still it's fun to imagine stuff I mean romantic stuff I hope you understand what I am trying to tell..

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Well it's not like I was single my whole life. Well I was in couple of relationships which thought me so much and I am thankful for them if I don't lie . It made my life more fun. Thank you for that my ex. But do u know what was the worst part they all were long distance one. It's like trusting someone whom you didn't even saw in person. Anyways it was nice I mean my life with that drama for sometime. Now I thankful I am not with them anymore.