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*This is an AU. In no way shape or form are any of the characters a reflection on BTS' real personalities/mannerisms/orientations. The characters are entirely a work of fiction. I do not "ship" the members in reality.*
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Starting over is hard. Starting over with absolutely no one, not even your family to support or comfort you was even harder. But after I pushed my entire family away for making the hardest decision I ever made in my life, I had no choice.
I had just graduated high school when I found out that my high school sweetheart had gotten me pregnant. We had been dating all through high school and even though I wasn't ready to be a mother, I was excited at the prospect of us becoming a family together. That all changed when as soon as I told him, he bolted. I was terrified to tell my parents. I had recently obtained two different part time jobs and was saving to move out, but I knew that they would be disappointed. The only way I could get through this, was with their support.
When I told them, they were more than disappointed, they were angry. I decided I didn't need them, that I would raise this baby on my own. I loved being pregnant, the feeling of my child growing inside me. I looked forward to every doctor's visit, even though they always reprimanded me for working too much and exhausting myself. I wound up in the hospital twice from dehydration and over exhaustion. I was considering taking up a third job, because once I moved out, I was barely able to make ends meet, let alone pay to take care of a child. If I did take a third job, however, I would literally never be around for that child.
The further it got into the pregnancy, the more I realized that I would be selfish if I tried to keep the baby. I couldn't properly care for her, so I then made the hardest decision I would ever have to make. I decided it was best for me to give my child up for adoption so it would have a chance at a full and happy life, not constantly alone and missing an absentee parent who had to work non stop. My parents began to come around to the idea of me having their grandchild, and paid me a visit one day. However, when I told them about my decision, everything changed. I remember the conversation and hurtful comments like it was yesterday
"So not only were you whoring around and got yourself pregnant because of it, now you are refusing to take responsibility for your disgusting actions? I am ashamed to call you my daughter, ashamed to realize that I raised such an irresponsible and trashy person."
That was 5 years ago, and I had not heard from my family since. My little girl was adopted by a sweet couple who had been trying for eight years to conceive, until they decided that they were going to take in a child that needed a home instead. The look on their faces when they saw her in the hospital made the pain all worth while. They offered to keep me updated on my daughter, I mean their daughter's progress and life as she grew up, but I politely declined. It was hard because I wonder almost every day how she is, but I knew it would be harder seeing pictures of her and having her within my grasp but unable to be the mother I wanted to be.
After all of that, I decided to move away to a new city where no one knew of my past. I got a new, full time job at a law firm as a receptionist and personal assistant. It wasn't the most glamorous position, but it allowed me to live comfortably. I didn't bother to try to make friends, afraid that if they did somehow find out about my past, I would be judged harshly for it. That is, until the firm hired Jeon Jungkook. He was a very young lawyer, fresh out of law school, but his uncle was a partner in the firm and hired him on as soon as he graduated. I always thought he was extremely attractive, but our friendship began to grow and I no longer saw him in that kind of light. He was more like the brother I never had. Every year on the day of my child's birth, I always experienced some depression and sadness at the fact that she wasn't in my life. The first couple of years, I called out of work, not wanting to even show my face in public.
Two years ago, however, we had a huge case and my boss couldn't afford to be without me, so I was stuck at work. I tried my best to hide my depression all day, but finally right before it was time to go, it hit me. I sat behind my desk, chewing on my lip and trying desperately not to cry when Jungkook walked up. He knew something was wrong and told me we were going out for drinks after work. I took him up on the offer and he didn't pry, but wanted to know if I was ok and said that I could talk to him if I needed to. He was concerned, but I was truly afraid that he would judge me and our friendship would wane. After a few drinks, it all came spilling out.
Much to my surprise and relief, he was extremely supportive of me and assured me that no one could make that decision for me, and if I chose to give my child a chance at a better life, then I made a hard choice, but a wise one. Ever since that night, Jungkook and my friendship became more solid than it ever had been.
"Hey Y/N, you still up for coming over after work, right?" he asked as I looked up from my desk.
"Yep, got my overnight bag in the car." I said, making him smile at me.
"Good. Hopefully the last consultation will go by fast." he replied, huffing.
"Annoying consultation?" I asked, typing away.
"They aren't going to use our firm, I think they just want free legal advice. I don't mind that sometimes, but when I block a whole hour for a consultation because it may be a "complicated case" it wears on be a little bit." he replied, leaning against the desk.
"Y/N, have you seen the Anderson file?" my boss, Seokjin said, leaning around the corner.
"It should be in the incoming basket next to the fax machine." I replied as he gave me a big smile.
"Thanks, you're the greatest!" he replied going back inside his office.
"I swear that man would lose his head if it wasn't attached." Jungkook chuckled under his breath, making me stifle a giggle.
"Yeah, well that's what I'm here for; to keep the chaotic mess that is Seokjin in tact." I replied finishing up the email I was sending out.
"Mr. Jeon, your consultation is here." His assistant Taehyung said as he walked over to my desk, as Jungkook cleared his throat.
"Fun stuff." he said, walking off after straightening up his suit jacket.
"So Tae, how did your audition go?"I asked, sorting through the mail. He sighed and sat on the corner of my desk, angled toward me.
"It wasn't exactly an audition. I submitted my portfolio and head shots and then met with the agency. They said they would contact me if they were interested. I haven't heard anything yet." he said quietly.
"It was just yesterday, give it time. You know you will make it as a model, have you looked at yourself? Girls and even guys drool over you whenever they come in here." I giggled as he smiled at me.
"I hope so, thanks y/n." he replied with a grin. He bounced up and rushed over to his desk as his phone began ringing. I finished sorting through the mail, responding to what needed to be taken care of, and finished up a few more things before I saw Jungkook's door open up, his consultation leaving as he followed them out. He let out a slow breath and walked over plopping on the corner of my desk.
"Let's get out of here, I need a drink." he huffed, making me laugh.
"Sounds like a plan to me!" I said, standing up from my chair.
"I have liquor at the house, so we can just head there. We can order take-out and just chill." he said, walking with me out the door.
"Sounds like a plan. Your girlfriend doesn't mind that I am spending the night right?" I asked walking out of the door as the cool air gusted around us.
"Nah, she doesn't really care. Besides, we are in an open relationship, so even IF we were going to the house for that reason, she couldn't say anything about it. She is hanging out with her boy toy tonight so we are good." he laughed as we walked to the parking garage.
"Good. Do you want me to just follow you over?" I asked, stopping at my car.
"If you can keep up." he smirked, ducking into his flashy sports car. I rolled my eyes and chuckled as I slipped into my own car, turning it and the heat on. Jungkook sped off and I drove at my own pace over to his place. When I arrived and knocked on the door, he came to the door in sweats and a tank top, grinning as he stepped back for me to come in.
"Jesus, I thought you would never get here." he teased, closing the door behind us.
"Shut up! I'm not going to get a ticket just to get here five minutes earlier." I said, taking my heels off.
"Yeah yeah. What is your poison of choice today?" he asked, walking over to the bar.
"I will have whatever you are. I'm gonna get changed." I said, walking towards the downstairs bathroom. I got out of my work clothes and into some yoga pants and a long baggy shirt before coming back out to see Jungkook turning on the fireplace in the living room.
"Cozy!" I said, plopping on the couch and curling my legs beside me.
"Here." he said, sitting beside me and handing me a drink. I sipped it and appreciated the warmth immediately spreading through my chest.
"So that last consultation was pretty shit?" I asked, taking another sip before setting it down on the coffee table.
"Not...exactly. I think they are going to have to go to a specialized office for family court." he said, drinking a few sips of his own drink.
"Oh, that's never good." I replied. Before anything else could be said his phone rang, making him hold up a finger to me.
"Sorry I gotta take this." he replied, answering the phone. I sat there enjoying the warmth of the fire and the liquor coursing through my veins, looking at the photos atop the mantle. There were a couple of Jungkook and his girlfriend, one of the two of us, one of him and a few people I didn't recognize and one of him and an older couple I guessed to be his parents. I tried not to listen in to the conversation as I looked around the room and then at my phone. I was scrolling through some social media apps before he hung up and let out a sigh.
"Sorry about that." he replied taking another couple sips of his drink.
"You're fine, don't worry." I said, smiling at him.
"Some friends of mine were asking for some legal advice. They are having a hell of a time." he said, rubbing his hand down his face.
"It's always hard when it's someone you know." I said, as he nodded in agreement.
"Yeah they are a couple and have been trying to adopt but...wait what agency did you go through?" he asked, as I looked at him.
"I went through Loving Arms agency. They were really great." I said, giving him a smile.
"Shit, they tried there. They can't seem to get anyone to accept their application since they are not married technically but they've been together forever. They were just asking my advice on drafting up a possible legal contract in finding a surrogate." he replied.
"Oh, I hope they find one. I actually considered do that a long time ago when I was in desperate need of money. I loved being pregnant and I knew if I could give a baby up once, I should be able to do it again. Even though it does hurt, it feels good to know that you have made a happy family." I said, feeling the ache along with the joy I did feel seeing the happy couple take their daughter home. Jungkook looked at me for a moment before cocking his head slightly.
"Just out of curiosity, your apartment lease is about to be up, right?" he asked, making me wrinkle my forehead in confusion.
"That's a bit out of left field, but yes it is." I said with a chuckle.
"Hmmm..." he replied, his eyebrows furrowed as he began rubbing his chin slightly.
"What is going on in that head of yours?" I asked, making him shake it.
"Nothing, nothing." he said, brushing off whatever it was. As the evening went on and more drinks started flowing, the mood changed as he looked at me intensely, scooting closer and putting his arm on the back of the couch.
"Can I ask you something kind of crazy?" he asked, making me laugh at his sudden serious expression.
"No Jungkook, I won't suck your dick again." I said putting down my now empty glass.
"What? No no no...wait really? You wouldn't if I asked?" He asked, humor playing on his lips.
" I have told you, as hot as you are, and as fun is that night was, I just can't see you like that anymore, you know this." I replied with a giggle.
"That was a good night." He responded, smirking.
"Anyway, what were you wanting to ask?" I asked, changing this awkward subject.
"Oh yeah right. You said you thought about surrogacy before, right?" he asked, tilting his head slightly.
"Yeah, I did consider it at one time, why?" I asked, wondering where this was coming from.
"Would you ever consider it again?" he asked, making me startle.
"What? Why?!" I asked, as I sat up a little more.
"My friends...they need a surrogate. I know you would be the perfect person for it, but I don't want to say anything to them until I posed the idea to you. It would be great if they could get someone already known. I know you have healthy habits, you have carried successfully in the past, and you yourself said you loved being pregnant." he said, bringing up all valid points.
"This is insane, Jungkook." I replied, laughing at the thought.
"Hey no pressure, just thought I would ask. They are going to want a live-in surrogate so they can take care of her and everything while she is pregnant and your lease is about to be up so I thought it would be an option. Plus, they have a lot of money and you would be paid really well." he replied, making me scoff.
"You make it sound like this is something as simple as deciding to take a job." I said, as he shrugged.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have brought it up. I just knew I would kick myself if I didn't ask." he said, making me shake my head.
"Jungkook, what am I going to do with you?" I laughed as he shrugged with a smile. After that, he didn't bring it up again and the evening resumed like it was before. Little did I know that the mention of it planted a seed in the back of my mind, and would grow into a nagging thought that just wouldn't leave.
