Our Fate

*sigh* “So, I just get to stay here like this even though I’m dead? It’s hard seeing my parents like this. I didn’t think my death would affect them this much.” “Yes sweetie. They say it’s our punishment for killing ourselves before our due date. But it was stupid of you to tell them to read those. You are a bad girl.” Eril said to me. She is 24 years old. She has been 24 for the past 15 years. She committed suicide because of her family issues. And me, I’m just an 18-year-old ghost flying around my house and watching over my family with Eril all day. It hasn’t been long since I died. My family is still grieving over me. It has only been a week. It took me 7 years to gather up the courage and do what I did. I’ve actually been thinking of dying ever since I was 11. I had been through a lot, but I tried to hold out and not be selfish, but in the end, it was too much for me to take. But I was a bit childish and did something I shouldn’t have. Before dying I wrote a note for my family in which I told my parents to go through all my old diaries and letters. I know it was cruel of me, but I wanted them to know how I felt and why I did what I did. And they are still reading those and now I just feel bad. After my death, I woke up to crying and sobbing noises. When I sat up, I saw my family and friends gathered around me and crying. That is when I saw Eril too. She was waving at me with pity in her eyes. I got up and walked to her. And that is how I learned about things from her. For now, she is the only person I know. Oh, sorry I meant *only ghost* I know. “Eril, how long have you been in our house?” I asked Eril. “Probably for about a year or two?” replied Eril. “I knew it! I always thought I felt a presence of something else walking around our house and it was you!” Eril laughed a bit at my excitement. "Oh my! Really? I think we were meant to be best friends huh." Eril giggled a little after saying this. Eril is free to move around and go to places however she wants but I will have to wait a year before I move around. Until then I will have to stay at my house where I died for a year. It’s boring, I can’t even go out or watch TV or use my laptop ugh. I don’t even have anyone else I could talk to other than Eril. But seeing my family like this, I really regret my decision. I wish I could go up to them and give them a big hug but unfortunately, I can’t do those. Turns out, even though humans cannot see us unless we want them to, they can still feel our presence if we’re too close to them. And I don’t want them to get scared of me.