Pain
I can't keep on listening to Herman's talks. Because today she's in so much pain. I just wanted to kill the guy that hurts her this bad. It even hurts me seeing her drinking glass of whiskey that hard. Because she drinks till she get wasted so that it let her sleep and let her forget everything. She's talking and talking about the abortion and everything I didn't expect that so that shocked me as she start the topic of "abortion" I pull the chair and sat to hear what she's saying. As I pull the chair she gives me a glimpse of her smile with her eyes full of tears.
Herman: It's never easy for me and it won't never be the same for me. Everytime I see babies in the train or in restaurants it aches my heart. Everytime I see infants or pregnant woman I hate him even more. Him is my ex fiance! You know I've stayed with him for more than 4 years I always thought it was all real and a dream come true. But it's never even close to real. I was so happy and full of hopes when I was with him. Until I get the little seed inside me, it all changes us. All of our joy, happiness, love and everything just vanished. I still remember his look when I told him that I'm pregnant I was excited but he was so mad at me as if I make that baby all by myself. He told me that I've to abort it, he doesn't even blink to give a second thought. The thing that tricked me is the love that I've for him made me think that everything he said is right for me. Fool me! I still regret those times that I decided to abort that pure soul. Everything hurts me after that. After that cruelty I can't look at him in the eyes I just stayed away from him. After that I can't even got the courage to smile back to little kids. It all gets hard. Do you know what gets it all even harder? He threatened me not to tell anyone about it. So that he told everyone that we end things because I've a drinking problem. All lie! I never had a drink when I was with him! I hate him for the baby that I couldn't have. I hate him for letting me trust him. Today I'm afraid of having a baby again. Toddler's scared the shit out of me. Every pregnant woman reminds me the baby that I never had. It's all pain!
Will: I couldn't hear her more as she starts to sob. It even gives ache to my soul. My poor Herman it's too hard to handle but she got it all and still breathe. Now I got her to her couch and leave her in the room. It's all hard what she passed through is never easy!
