REAL ME
WARNING🔞🔞 Just a pre-warning to the readers, this story will contain domestic abuse violence and self-harm.
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(REAL ME)
“I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...NOTHING CAN CHANGE THAT...”
I looked deep into his dark eyes, searching for sincerity... but all I see is his lustful desires for me, which spits out disgust from his heart of deceit...”I couldn’t scream, all I could feel is the blood of hatred flowing through me like the boiling ocean... Why is he sweating, the room isn’t hot and his fingers seem to have their way, trailing up my shoulders? I eyed his hands and he dropped his hands immediately after he saw the look of distaste. I kept counting to 10 as he read his poetic words, he had practised the whole weekend to speak. Finally! His speech was over and I couldn’t wait to leave, I stared at the dusty-mahogany clock by the left side of the room and coughed out the saliva, I swallowed...
“5:30 PM!” I screamed in fear, he had a look of confusion on his face. He doesn’t understand why I was so shaky and in a hurry. I needed to be home before 6:00 and I remember the last time I came home that late, My parents whipped me all night because of the riot that threatened our city. I grabbed my bag from the couch and ran to his door.
“Michelle, where are you going?” I came to a halt when I felt his hand wrap around my small hands. I stared at his eyes, guilt and pains mixed in his dark brown eyes, I shook my head in fear.
"I..., I have to get home immediately....” She stammered, fidgeting. Noah stared at her “What’s wrong? ” She squinted her face at his lack of understanding. “It’s time for me to get home...Now!” She screamed and covered her mouth immediately, realising that she just screamed at him.
"Ok,...Ok, wait here, let me get the car keys...I will drop you off.” Before she could stop him, he ran into his room to grab his keys, she stared at the floor with gritted teeth, praying that he time should corporate with her.
Noah stepped out of the room in new clothes and his keys in his hands, Michelle stared at his choice of clothes and the scent of his cologne, she was not sure what had made him dress like this or spray his scent just for a ride to her house. Still buried deep in her thoughts, he pulled her fist and ran down the stairs and out of the door. He opened her side of the door and bowed graciously like a gentleman, but Michelle wasn’t comfortable with his sudden change of attitude. She smiled forcefully and climbed into the car, buckling the seatbelts immediately. The car engines came alive and roared as they drove out of his streets and into the wide roads. Michelle kept to herself and stayed quiet throughout the drive, while Noah screamed along with the blaring beats of Popsmoke playing on the radio.
The car finally came to a stop by the gates of her estate, she stared at her phone screen and screeched at the time. 5:39 PM, she unbuckled her seat belts in a hurry and tried opening the doors but Noah pulled her back to her seat.
“I got to go, Noah,...My parents, I, I don’t want to...” She pleaded with tears settling in her eyes. He shook his head and patted his cheeks.
“And why would I let you go without a goodnight kiss or something?” He chuckled, Her chest rose at every heartbeat that thumped, and she kept on counting the seconds and minutes with her fingers. He grabbed her chin softly and pulled her to his lips, numbing on it for a while, enjoying the softness and taste of her cherry lipgloss, while Noah was having so much fun with her lips, she squeezed her eyes shut, praying for the time not to pass by. Noah pulled away when she just gave him a numb peck on the lips and a lifeless hug, she pushed the car doors and stepped out before crouching down to the heights of the car windows. Noah smirked “Goodnight Babe and do not forget to text me, as soon as you get home, Ok?” She nodded her head and waved at him one last time before stepping through the gates of the estate and into the dark streets.
****|:|5:42 PM|:|****
Michelle knocked at the front door with shaky legs, but as the door opened, her brother peeped out and shouted.“Gosh! You scared me, I thought you were mummy or daddy.” He patted her back as she walked through the door.
“Where are Mom and Dad?” She asked, looking around the whole house for any sign of the car keys or their phones.
“Don’t bother searching for their things, they’re out...church.” He said staring widely at the large screen and his game animations moving in place with his movement. Michelle dragged her feet to the kitchen and saw her sister’s head buried inside the pots of stew.
“Boooohhh!” Michelle scared her.
“Ahhhhh! You scared me,” She screamed in fear, jumping up.” When did you come in?” Rachel asked dropping the pot on the cooker and holding the serving spoon in the air.
“Well, not too long... Anyway, when Mom and Dad get back, let them know I am asleep...Goodnight Rachel! ” Michelle walked out of the kitchen with a glass of water. “Goodnight Ezrah, I am off to bed and so should you.” She pushed her room doors, and dropped off her loaded bag and sweaty clothes to the floor, tossing them into the laundry basket before changing into her nighties. She dropped down to her bed and thought about the things that she had encountered today. She stopped for a moment and thought of Noah’s words...
“I love you so much...nothing can change that...” She sniffed and drooled herself to sleep.”
“MICHELLE!, M.I.C.H.E..L..L...E..EEEEE!!!!!!”
She Jumped up at the scream of her coursemate, Jina, she was staring at her with a wide smile, Michelle sat up straight and cleaned off the small drool of saliva on her cheeks and the drop on her books. She looked back at Jina who was already seated by her side, unpacking her books from her bag.
“How long have I been sleeping, Jina?” Michelle asked wiping off the spits and dirt on her table.
“Long enough, that you muttered Noah’s name in your sleep...You know, you should give Noah a chance, talk to him...hear him out.” Jina said staring at Michelle who gave a straight face at the topic of Noah. Michelle blocked everything about him in her mind. Jina grabbed Michelle by the fist and stared into her big brown eyes.
“Michelle! Are you even listening? ”
“No!” Michelle smiled.
“Seriously? “Jina flinched.
“Everybody, please be seated, the class starts now.” The lecturer stepped in, holding our test scripts in his left hand and his lecture note in the other hand.
“But for real, Michelle you have to, at least talk to him tonight or...Tomorrow...Just find out something and make things right between you guys. ” Jina whispered, Michelle, nodded her head, not interested in the discussion. As the lectures and day schedules unfolded before Michelle’s eyes, the thought of Noah and his name kept creeping back into her mind, no matter what, how and who she used to block the thought, it failed.
Michelle climbed up the stairs and made herself comfortable by the windows... Staring deep at the blank clouds, hoping that her days of worries would end... It’s been five months and she is feeling her relationship with Noah is at the breach of tearing apart. A tear slipped down her eyes as she thought of the day she came to school and she was the whole talk of the school, she had just found out that Noah was dating one of the junior students in school, she was devastated, and she broke down and confronted him about it, but he was cool about everything, she even begged him to break up with her so that he could spend time with the junior girl but he insisted that he would cut things with her.
“Michelle! What’s up and how was class today?” One of the guys in her class stepped beside her with a smile, she has never spoken to him before but they were friends from afar. She stared at his funny dress combination and gave a weird snorty laugh in her head, what is with him and orange and Pink, those two colours don’t mix well.
“I am good, Joshua..., and the class was a little bit boring...I heard you will be representing us in the artfest next week, hope you are prepared?” She smiled.
“Yeah! Why not, Is like I have been born for it.“They both laughed. “I should let you be on your own now, see you by Thursday, kiddo.” She laughed at the nickname and jumped down as soon as she saw the bus by the station.
*****|:|NOAH’S HOUSE|:|*****
Gripping me by the waist..., forcing me to be bad for him. All this piled up bile down my sore throat... I couldn’t feel the love... I lost his touch in the darkrooms of my wondering head... His hands trailed down my skin to the top of my chin... I didn’t understand why he took advantage of me and still lied about his feelings.
Is this a joke? was I a joke, even when he knew I wasn’t up for this, I kept quiet when he stood behind me, too close that I could feel him beneath his silk shorts. I jolted up when his cold fingers went through my bare back beneath my clothes, Jina said I should make things right with him and here I am, turning him on with just skinny jeans and a loose top.
“Michelle, are you sure you want to do this..?”
I was brought back to reality by his husky voice, I have always feared him... His words meant nothing to me, but still caused a lot of damage to me when he spoke about the similarities of love and sex...
“Do you love me... because I feel so empty?” She Buried her face to the ground as these words came out of her mouth.
He doesn’t look towards my direction as he spits out his hot swelling lies. “I see..., Why do you ask this question now... I mean, look, we are in the middle of something hot and you decided to ask questions, It is no question-and-answer time, Michelle, do less talking and more acting... ” He said with a sour grin, But Michelle wasn’t backing down until she hears his answer.
“Ok!... You want to know the truth,...I like you as a friend, not the girl I would like to date but, come on, you know what I mean, do not let me explain it to you fully like a child...” He licked his lips and She blocked the tears from dropping down. Her chest dropped when he spoke his real intention towards her, right in the face.
Hearing those hurtful words spill out from his itching tongue, made all the walls in her heart shatter into pieces, her teeth gnashing at the sound of pain. She couldn’t believe she was his toy, he played with her feelings and thought he cared, damaged her emotions and stood beside her, watching them break to pieces, tampered with her memories and bought her off with words of love and desires... She was his toy for satisfaction.. his darkness in the lighted rooms, the curses he needed to run from, and now she felt like a fool once again.
Noah continued with his caressing and fondling, Michelle stayed quietly, crying in her head, screaming to herself. She couldn’t stop him from whatever he was doing to her and he wouldn’t care if he was stopped either by her, because he would think she was too innocent and childish. Noah moaned to the hard thrust, forcing himself into her with so much strength and motive, but Michelle stood there quietly thinking, as her wall crashed before her eyes.
|:|A/N|:|
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