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I'm glad your boyfriend was there for you when that thing with your leg happened. You deserve somebody who will be there for you through things like that. I hope you guys remain happy together! I know we don't talk much anymore and we ended on not very good terms but the point that I made VERY long ago still stands. If you ever feel like you wanna talk to me, I mean really talk to me, tell me and I'll text you if you haven't changed your number. I'm glad to see your doing alright after everything you've been through. I'm proud of you.

Lordy Jesus, at this point you know I'm just making these updates for you right? Anyway, school.. GOD. I have this English teacher and she's a complete jerk. Granted she doesn't actually teach English, I have her for my las class of the day which is a free period but she feels the need to butt in on my life. She judges my personality like she's any better than I am/ She called me tacky, direct in a rude way, too harsh. Like, bitch your a full grown adult. Get over yourself. But whatever, I'm looking into getting my fifth block changed. I broke up with that boyfriend. He sucked...Total jerk and toxic. I tried to be his friend but it just didn't work out and now I like this guy that WAS his friend. I never really understood the term homie hopper. Why should who my ex is friends with determine who I date? Same with 'boys code' or 'girls code' where a friend can't date a friends ex? Like. Why would who YOU date determine who I date? It's stupid. And frankly I don't care. My ex said if he was gay he would like my now crush and totally date him. He told me this and then immediately threatened by saying he'd spread rumours about me if I told my crush he said that. I don't take shit like that. So of course, I told everybody I knew that he was threatening me and they all shot bullets at him. He confessed he only said that to keep me quiet but guess what...just between you and me...I told my crush what he said anyway. Did it ruin their friendship? Yes. Do I care? No. Am I still good friends with my crush? Yes. So all in all it was a win. I win almost all arguments I have with literally everybody because I'm not a fucking idiot. I see my ex sometimes and I do miss him, or more like the feeling he gave me. I don't miss HIM per say but I miss the feeling. Now, there's this other guy, he is friends with my crush and me. Mutual friends if you will. But recently, as in yesterday he told me he used to have a crush on me. I used to have a crush on him to but I don't anymore because I like my current crush. But this guy said he liked me because I am a 'Nice person with a nice body.' uhm....using somebody's body, not even saying like 'you're pretty' just saying 'your body' as a means of liking somebody....it sounds more just like infatuation. He also told me he had a bad track record with girls because he gets hella sexual. Uhm....I don't like that either. I told him I see him as a good friend and I wouldn't wanna ruin our friendship. He says ' Oh idrc I have had many friendships ruined. ' so he just doesn't care if it doesn't work out? Okay... whatever. I told him we should just stay friends and then he started being weird. He started calling me cutie, he started complimenting my personality. He knows I like our mutual friend and he said he didn't wanna go after me because he likes our mutual friend and wanted me to go after him. But then he starts calling me all these things and tells me that my crush was talking about some other girl on his snap and how he likes her which NEWS FLASH that was before break. Which was before all the drama of him breaking up with his ex and he isn't in the group chat that I am in do I know more than he does. I don't know why he's trying to do all of this after he told me we should also just stay friends. I HATE people who say 'game is game'. Like stfu. Anyway. That all happened. I'm reapplying color to my hair today, making new stories and starting my final exams for the year soon. If anybody ever wants to co write a story hmu cause I love those! It really helps with motivation too! Anyway, that's my check in. (That leg brace looks shitty af...how'd that even happen bro..)((Miss u too))

Jesus Christ okay. So 5 months later I'm back because why not. I've been gone for a longer time than normal. Usually I'm gone for like 2 months but not this time. A lot has happened. I got a boyfriend a few months ago but I don't know if it's going to end well with how he treats me. One of my friends, Hade finally texted back after a few months which is good. I was worried but he's okay. I'm dying my hair pink, zooming through school and writing as much as my motivation will push me. If I'm being completely real I don't know what to do with myself. I know what I want to be and do in the future but I don't know if I can really get there and along with all the friends and people I'm loosing because their all jerks. It's a lot to handle. I've always been the person that everybody talks to and vents to but I never have anybody that I can talk to. That I can confide in and that hurts a lot. I miss some of the people I used to have in my life. I really do and the people I have now are great but they are not the same. The people I used to talk to were people that I'd genuinely want to talk to again no matter how shitty they may have been. But that was at the time where people had everything and all the time in the world to do it. Where they had nothing to do so they texted me all the time and now it feels like people never have time for me anymore. My childhood was shitty but I can't help but miss it. My writing has gotten better and I'm taking honors classes for an advanced diploma for collage and I'm writing stories for people and teachers. It's good but I can never find the real motivation to write anything anymore. I can't find a reason because I know that nobody is going to really read and appreciate what I write. If nobody is going to read it then why write it? I don't know but I'm still trying. I seem to keep getting better and then shooting back down and then getting better and shooting back down and it repeats all the time and nobody understands that. Life sucks. Heart.  

Two months is a very long time when I really think about it. I have had a lot happen in my life and I like ranting about things on the internet so. My school drama is crazy. Everybody is dating other people and if I'm really honest it's frustrating. I think my last post was also a two monther but whatever. I liked a guy at some point but it was like a puppy crush I guess. And one of my friends liked a guy who was flirting with her and what not but has a girlfriend and she only found out today. One of my friends decided to do a prank on another one of my friends and pretend that they were being stalked while another person went along with it. Person A hosting the prank said that they had gotten the account and were stalking Person B who was in on it. Person C was scared and asked questions about her friends that only her friends would know. Then Person A, being one of the friends, answered all the questions correctly and scared Person C. Person B was playing into it which also scared Person C. Then Person A sent a picture of Person B that they had taken from person B's closet and Person C began to cry and called Person A from messages saying that they needed to go to Person B's house because they were being stalked and were in danger. Honestly motherfucker like get a life. How the fuck do you find that funny? Scaring someone half to death and he was like "Oh I didn't think you'd react this way" LIKE BITCH!? I literally am going to start throwing hands. He is so fucking annoying it makes me want to kms. There's that and then there's the fact that I thought I understood what a dry texter was but my puppy crush was a REALLY dry texter and I couldn't even hold a conversation with him because it was so difficult. I could honeslty never. Anywho, my life has been going up and down a lot. I am very lonely and barely ever have people to hang out with sometimes and that really sucks. Like Really Really sucks. But I deal with it because why shouldn't I? Yeah anyway thats that I guess? Bowing in curtesy to Asher (Keep trying, life will be better one day trust me <3) And of course another offliner for maybe another two months? Sure. Toodleloo.

It's been like what? Two months? Yeah. Anyway doing my check ins of course. I made a website for my writing. I don't post on here because I don't really like using this for writing to much. I mainly use Tumblr and Wattpad. If anybody wants it just ask. Anywho I am still working on my 20 book series. Yes. I am writing a 20 book series I hope I can publish one day and boy is it great!! I can not wait until the day I become and author so I can actually write for people instead of just hoping people will see my things. Jees, i have also been watching a lot of V tubers lately and jeezums some of these guys got some....Pazas. yeah that's my quick check in.

A pitbull named cupcake sprinkle rainbow loves on their way to maul a group of 14 child cancer patients. (This is a joke..)

Again with the random posts to get things off my chest. I got another commission and I figured out that somebody who graduated from my school became an author! I am very happy about that and it gives a little confidence. My birthday is almost here and I don't know what to think. On one side I'm happy that I've survived so much and on the other it means I am getting older and the older I get the closer I get to having an independent life. It's weird to think about sometimes. The amount of shit that I have dealt with and the amount of idiotic people I had to be around too. Yet, I'm like the best of them all. (Most of them) And if I'm honest I wouldn't change any of my experiences for the world. No matter how many times I got hurt and cheated are taken advantage of it taught me how to be mature, strong, and above all else, how to have record fantastic charisma. Also here's a joke, What's yellow and can't swim? A bulldozer. hahahah.

¡Juro por el santo señor de arriba que necesito hacer algo en mi vida! Alguien que me ayude por favor T.T

This may be to soon but I would appreciate if you didn't say anything back for now, I am doing great and I wanna thank you, because without you I'd probably still be the emo kid that thinks his life is the worst. I hope you're well and I think from what I see that your life is going well! I've got a job and I don't let my parents take me down anymore. I feel more confident and I need to give you some of the credit. I'm still stubborn, but that's just me. I really hope one day we will be able to talk again and I forgive you for the last thing you sent me. I would love to have a friendship with you in the future but for now I think I should just stick to this. (I would also understand if you didn't want that) I'm sorry for everything. Have a good day. Also if you see this could you please delete it or like it so I know :) Thank you! Good day. 

It's been a little bit per usual! I've been working on my first ever officially published book and book series so yay to me! There has been a whole lost of drama going on with one of my ex's. Bro needs therapy but refuses cause he doesn't trust anybody. You can't trust people if you don't try to trust the right people. But whatever. I got my first commission for a story actually so I'm making money now too! Asher, hope you're doing okay and not thinking too much about how shitty your life is. You are as handsome and amazing as always, don't forget! I've also been trying out poetry. I don't know how I feel about it. Maybe I can try posting snipits on here? Tell me if I should. Anyway, hope you have a good night or morning or whatever for whoever's reading this! My wording and typing is a bit more lenient on this one because I am so tired rn.

My first in a while post as usual as I don’t use this app too much. Just to read all the sappy love stories I can and check up on someone every now and then. By the way, the bitch deserved to get beat to a fucking pulp and I am mad glad you did. You know who you are, but he deserved that shit. Anyway, life has been decent for the past few months. I never really understand why people post a lot about their lives on the internet but people do people I guess. I’ve been continuing writing as a career and I’m making my first ever book and book series. I dedicated a lot of my characters in real people. Mother Nature as my step mother and Bryce as my father and many more. Some represent friends and some represent loss. But I don’t know where the road is going to take me but hopefully down the opposite road Batman went through. But I have a story idea. A prince and a dressmaker. The prince likes to dress as a princess and the woman he chooses to be his dressmaker he falls in love with. People assume transgender people are gay but someone can feel the opposite gender but still like the opposite gender. Eh. Life is weird I guess. Anyway back to being offline for a few months. I’ll be back with another check in, in god knows how long. And of course to that one person, continue to not care about what others think of you, even if they hate you. When you move or go away, starts life that’s good for you and only you because in the end you are all that matters. Friends are for people who feel lonely, not for people who need something to lean on. So don’t lean on them or your family, lean on yourself and carry yourself to the place you want to be. If you do that, you’ll get there. I promise you will.

I have been thinking. I use this page not much more than I write here. I don’t have a lot but I’m happy. I realize now that I’m older that I was a horrible person but sometimes I think back on it all and ask myself if I was the only bad one. I am directing this to not one person but a group. Ex’s,old friend,bullies and even family. I used to cry with my only friend being a stuffed animal. That’s because people always came to me with their problems. They would vent to me and most times I don’t think they considered how it affected mental health. I was stuck trying to be perfect for everyone else that it actually made me worse and made me grow more angry at people who did not deserve it. But when people talk about me, they never talk about the good things. They talk about the fun role play stories, the games, the hangouts, the jokes, the comfort. They only talk and tell others about the worst parts of me. That I was toxic, excessive, clingy, stupid, rude, inconsiderate and I don’t know why. We’re there not good days? I thought they were or maybe I was the only one happy. I have tried time and time again but I can’t seem to fix anything. I don’t want to fix it I just want to mend it. Like a broken plate. I can’t fix it after it’s broken but I can try and glue it back together. I can try and mend it with clay and it will never be quite the same but at least I tried. But in the end, the plate was broken. And I dropped it.