Mistakes

“You know this was just a mistake right?” I said lifting my body up from the silk sheets, the blanket falling down to my torso, I looked at him as he lay there with his arm covering his eyes then a smirk appeared on his face.

“And how many times have you said that?” He replies, he removes his arm placing it down by his side then looks at me with his darkish light green eyes then moves his hand to hold mine.

“I have to go now,” I got up from the bed, removed the blanket, then went down to collect a shirt off the floor. “I think now…it’s ending, Joon.” I put on the shorts as they fell over the shorts that I had on then walked off to the bedroom door, I needed to go home mother must be worried sick.

“Hey,” I felt something grab my wrist right before I opened the door as he had gotten up stopping me from living, I looked at his hand and then back up at him, “Don’t joke like that JI-Yeong, you know we always end up back together because there is something between us that we can’t find in any one else.” I looked into his eyes and all I saw was fear and sadness.

“Joon, I’m sorry this just isn’t right. You know this” I placed my hand over his which held my wrist removing it so he lets me go, “People won’t accept us and I’m tired of living this life of secret, and if my mother were to find out she would be disappointed and no longer accept me as her child.” He looked down at my hands, slowly placing his fingers through mine, locking them together.

“Ji-Yeong… please, we don’t have to end it. I will take care of you, live with me! I live on my own anyways, and I don’t care about what others will have to say about us. I will love you unconditionally.” I look down away from him my heart beginning to hurt, “If you really wanted to leave you wouldn’t be here listening to me,” He smiles then releases my hand placing his on my cheek wiping off my tears then tries placing it back down, I place my hand over his quickly having it against my cheek then close my eyes crying. He pulls me in closer, holding me, making me feel warm and butterflies in my stomach, he makes me feel safe…

“Why’d you have to leave me so soon, Joon?” I tried holding him as long as I could, having his touch one last time.

“I’m sorry Ji-Yeong, I love you” He vanished from my arms and everything faded away. I was laying on the couch curled up holding a pillow against my chest, there on the coffee table laid a newspaper with the headlines that read “ At only age 17 Joon Lee had committed suicide.” It was a mistake leaving you that day, it was a mistake doubting your words, I’m sorry Joon…please come back…